Got to say I hate this chapter.
And I've got to explain that statement. Travis did to his abuser what I wanted, and to some degree still do, to do to my abuser.
It's taken me three reads to read and take in each word. The first couple of times there were sentences and paragraphs that I just glanced over. I couldn't deal with it.
Mac, don't apologise for writing so well.
Years ago an English teacher told a class I was in, "A story should make you cry, shout and scream, and if it doesn't then it has failed to tell it's story honestly."
Keep telling your story honestly.
I know from what I and several other people I know have experienced, that what you have written happens, no matter how much we try to ignore and dismiss it.
We all want our lives and the lives of our friends and loved ones to be all happy happy joy joy, but the reality is it's rarely the case. We have troubles, joys, love and laughter, grief and agony. You've just written what happens. Keep doing that.
Love you and what you write.