Desmond L

I discovered Crosscurrents through IWSB and knew that CC is your true story. Your writing is so good and when you painted the struggle of Jeff chugging his bisexuality in the closet, it seems so real that i wondered if CC was actually fiction (or at least the second half of it because Sam/Dan only mentioned the first half) while Brushfire was what truly happened. Thanks for clearing my doubt with your reply up there. You're one hell of a writer and after reading your work I find it hard to get into the stories by other authors because you've set the bar so high. Another reason I'm drawn to your stories are because you're hitting home with the struggles of your characters. I'd like to think that I've come to terms with my homosexuality, but I'm still averse to effeminate gay guys.

I shouldn't be surprised when people, guys especially, wouldn't speak their mind about what they feel emotionally. It would've been much easier if Andy could just let it all out, have the courage to face whatever that might come to get it over and done with, and have a proper closure. But their fucking ego gets in the way.

Went to the gym and thought some exertion will ease the pain. Came back home and couldn't help reading through the last part again, and boy, I'm still feeling it.

Feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest.

I got to know and started on this story because of It Started With Brian. I've just recovered from the heartwreck from IWSB and now I'm getting into another one. If Andy had voice out his assumptions of Matt's thought for himself, would things have turned out differently that night? At least Matt would know what was the problem and talked Andy out of his misinterpretation. Totally heartbreaking to see two friends who has done so much for each other to turn out like this.

I finished the story in about 2 days. Read it all through the night and ended up only had 2 hours of sleep before i had to go to work, and even when i was at work i stole some time off and got through several chapters. I was thoroughly hooked. And now that I'm finished with the story I'm still not done with it.. Feels like my heart is being yanked and squeezed and grated, knowing there's this immense love between Sam and Brian, and when the stars aligned for them so many painful YEARS later and they were finally in each other's embrace, they had to be parted. Truly feeling overwhelmed with their story and feeling the heartache for them, and i couldn't imagine how John truly feels. Seeing them makes me realise that the pain that would come with love, I'm apprehensive of falling in love with a person so deeply. To Brian, all of my heart goes out to you.