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I do think that makes sense, @Cane23, it's a way these three disparate characters could combine. But I do still think that if Cash had been asked upfront, in a quiet moment without the unbridled passion of their night together, how he imagined his future with Jackson, he would have likely wished to have Jackson at his side, sharing the life that he built for himself in the five years that Jackson left him behind in Willows Creek to go traveling with Blake. I think if you had asked Blake the same question, before Jackson and Cash found him, Blake would have replied that he had had that perfect life, traveling the rodeo circuit with Jackson at his side. Throughout the story, I wondered about Jackson's mindset. It was clear that as he grew older he was becoming more assertive, more self-assured in his relationship with Blake, but I always wondered why he stayed away from Willow Creek for so long. It seemed the idea of home and of Cash was pulling him back, but I think the turning point was that public episode when Blake wouldn't, couldn't stand with him in front of everyone. Maybe that is what tipped the scale, the recognition that Cash would always have his back and stand fearlessly by his side, whatever the circumstances, while Blake couldn't. Your scenario of Cash the Anchor, Blake the Wanderer, and Jackson sometimes at home with Cash and sometimes on the road with Blake seems the most likely one for the three to be able to build something that lasts. Cash and Blake will have to compromise to make it work. More power to them. I hope Jackson digs in to help each of them make those compromises--he should, because he seems to be the only one getting all of what he wants and, more importantly, needs.

Can't help feeling that Blake and Cash are only in this threesome because that is the condition Jackson has set for his love. I do think it is quite despicable that he did not talk to Blake when they separated, he just left without a word and went to Cash. And then he turns around and does exactly the same to Cash. Walks away from him without a word of explanation and picks up again with Blake. He never once sat down and told either of them individually, far less both of them together, that he expected them to follow him into this throupledom. What are the rules of this new game? I don't think Jackson has considered this, but what is to be the role of Blake toward Cash and Cash toward Blake, when they are not waiting in bed for their turn at Jackson's ass? I can see where Jackson wants it to head--he wants Cash the top to spread his legs for Blake. Does he expect Blake to reciprocate for Cash? There is no apparent compatability between Blake and Cash, except that they are both e treme alpha males and are both hopelessly in love with Jackson. I'm not even sure they can get along when they are not naked together having sex with Jackson. And I can't help wondering if Miss Daisy will find that her son has treated the two men fairly and with full respect. But it is interesting--and I can't wait to see how they will fit in back in Willows Creek. Saint Daisy will have her work cut out for her on that one!!

I enjoyed this story thoroughly. It was very well written, superbly paced, and painfully realistic in describing the emotional turmoil of all the actors. My reaction to the final scene, and to the final chapter overall, was one of sadness and regret. Sadness for a relationship needlessly imperiled time and again by Jace and regret for the lost opportunities to pull things around. Every time Noah was girding himself to forgive Jace and rekindle their relationship, Matteo showed up and created some new unpleasantness. But, Jace was not firm and definitive in rejecting him, at least not in time. He learned how to do that later, but much too late, after the increasingly outrageous behavior of Matteo had done irrevocable damage. Your ending was perfect--Noah could not have stayed with Jace. The love was still there but Jace had completely destroyed the trust. And I don't know if or how he can rebuild it, since Noah is emigrating, again. Frequent parental visits may not be enough. Oh well, the moral of the tale is clear. I hope the victims of Jace's thoughtless selfishness can heal without too many lasting scars. Well done, @vanalas, well done. I can hardly wait for our next adventure together.

I have to wonder what's happened to Elias, who for a while looked as if he would be the third in the triumvirate. John and Ethan seem to have set up house with Erik instead and this house purchase seems to cement this new threescore at the expense of the older one.

Blake does not deserve to be treated this way by Jackson. Hevshould not lead Blake on this way. Not after so long together. I am losing a lot of the respect for Jackson that he earned as he grew into manhood beside Blake, not behind him. So when he tells Blake " We square" and means something different by that Blake dies, that is not honest. If indeed Evan us Jackson's replacement, intentionally on Jackson's part, then to my mind he is breaking Rule Two, the one he h8mself used to insist on..."Always Honest" . I wonder what Daisy would think of all this.

I agree. You are a marvelous writer and I enjoy reading everything you write, even though at times it can be deeply disturbing. But this chapter really stands out. Bravo!

First, a confession that I'm happy to make. I really never expected such wonderfully supportive behavior from Elijah. Paternal. Loving everything it should be. Thank God for that, because Noah will need his patents' love and support all the more now. For SURELY, SURELY, this latest revelation is the straw that will hopefully break the back of the marriage that Jace has destroyed. He could have, SHOULD HAVE, come clean to Noah about the baby with Matteo the very moment he found out about it. He did not plan it, arrange it, or do it together with Matteo--it was all Matteo's machinations. Noah would have been violently angry, yes, but at Matteo for constantly trying to steal Jace away. But nooooooo! By keeping silent, Jace has forced Noah to find out the hard way--even if Noah hadn't as stormed over to see him, Matteo would have made quite sure that Noah found out, with Matteo controlling the narrative. Jace deserves everything that falls on his head now. He does NOT deserve Noah. This is not the first time he has let Noah down badly, lest we forget. Remember the first years of their marriage even before Matteo's return, how badly he treated Noah then? Noah cannot trust Jace, because Jace never misses an opportunity to undermine that trust, either through a sin of commission or of one of cowardly omission. Only one thing, though ... Noah should just walk away from Jace, but he must not leave Rain with him, as he was contemplating. Because, as soon as Noah turns his back, Matteo will sink in his claws into Jace, and we can all just imagine how he'd treat his "stepson" Rain.

This is why I so fervently hoped that Noah forgiving Jace would not lead to reconciliation. Well, he's put him out. Great first step. Next he finds a job to earn his and Rain's living, and for God's sake, NOT with his father. Then focus on rebuilding his self-esteem and his ability to enjoy life without Jace. May Matteo never work in that town again!

It would take a lot but Noah would need to forgive to get closure and move on..and move on he must. Like uou said, @cane23, Jace regrets only being caught. Forgiveness I. This case should, UST not mean reconciliation.

This was painful to read, in large part because it gradually became clear that Matteo is gearing up destroy Noah's marriage. Jace should not be forgiven for what he and Matteo are about to do. Their ongoing affair is now not just giving into passion. That might have been excusable, with much generosity of spirit. This is not.

Noah does not deserve the triple-whammy that as about to descend upon him. The terrible betrayal by his best friend. The utterly deplorable, continuing betrayal by his husband, who began that betrayal months ago when he declined to tell Noah about his prior romantic link to Matteo. And lastly, the inevitable nastiness that awaits him from his father. Please, please, @vanalas, do not force Noah to try to reconcile with Jace after the inevitable blowup. Please introduce some new guy, kind and understanding, who will innocently befriend Noah after the betrayal; who will get along famously with the bereft little boy who will have lost one father, and who will gradually become Noah's confidant then his life partner and husband, and a surrogate father to the little boy. Let him, moreover, be the owner of a small company in the same field as Elijah's, and let Noah join him in growing the business to full success, while not neglecting his renewed family to meet unreasonable expectations, as he had to do while working for his father. And may Jace and Matteo be happy with each other, until Matteo again feels the need to go off again to "find himself, or whatever it was he was doing when he left the first time and stayed away for years without a word.

If Jason hadn't hidden his former relationship from Natahn,he would have been in a better position to resist Matteo that night--and I am absolutely convinced that Jason didn't lead the way to Matteo's bed, though he followed more within willingly. If he does not categorically refuse to lead the project with Matteo as principal model, he is demonstrating a weakness that b will damage his marriage or fail. He could perhaps somehow hope that Nathan would forgive the drunken adultery, but not if he engages with Matteo in this project.

So Maateo wonders " How do you unlove someone who never stopped being the love of your life?" Maybe he should instead wonder "how dies one walk away from the love of one's life, stay absent for SEVEN years without any communication to said love of one's life, and turn up expecting that person to have frozen his life for seven years without any sign of life". Jace has nothing to be ashamed for, and nothing to hide. He needs to go home and explain the situation thus husband right away. Anything else will lead to misunderstanding and heartache and Elijah already has his " I told you so" ready and waiting.

This is beautifully done, @Tony S.. You set the stage with the three characters effortlessly, and convey their redirecting inner thinking and emotions in perfect balance. I started reading thinking I was in for a good story about a young man swept up in ambition and hero worship, only to find an interwoven tale of three men, each at a different life stage, and each experiencing a similar but subtly different emotional and sexual tension. You describe each one so masterfully I can't wait to read on. What a wonderful start!

Ditto! And this story gets better with each chapter! Bravo!

I plead guilty to having seen Keith all along from his dad’s perspective. I never considered that his resentment might have stemmed from being left “holding the bag”, trying to preserve what was left of the family after his dad walked out. This has been for me the best chapter thus far. It was an honest outpouring from Keith that explains what he felt and why, wrenching honest, emotionally searing. “But you never tried,” Keith went on, voice shaking. “You left us. You left me to pick up the pieces…” That is something we tend to overlook in our stories that underscore the absolute necessity for the gay man to be true to himself. I agree with that. One hundred percent. But this is the first time I’ve seen in these pages a brutally honest effort to consider some of the possible unintended collateral damage that such necessary honesty can cause to others. I think I understand Keith a lot better now. He felt left to deal with an impossible situation by himself. He was only 17 when it happened—one day out of a clear blue sky, his world is upended, and the one who upended it is gone without an attempt to help him deal with it. I really do understand that resentment now. I hope his dad can make this right—in my eyes, it’s all up to him now.

What I struggle with, in each of your stories, @vanalas, is that your protagonists often seem unable to perceive the ugliness of soul of some of the people they trust. Why does Alex not recognize the vileness of Leo's character? That recognition would have prevented him from falling into the trap Leo set for him. And did Gael not see how smug and self-satisfied Leo was at their bedroom confrontation? I get that he was in shock and felt betrayed, but I hope he eventually remembers what kind of person Leo is, and believes not one word of what he said, so at least Alex has a chance to explain. But of course, that would drain away all the drama wouldn't it?

Carlos called and asked Gael to meet him. Bad stuff happened. Mia called and asked Gael to meet her. Worse stuff happened. Is he really that naive, that stupid? It is really starting to seem that way. With the high-stakes game he and Sam have been playing, he should be super careful and MIStrustful.

My question is-- where did Keith's virulent homophobia come from? He didn't learn it from his parents-- his little brother is proof of that. Before his outburst in this chapter, I had thought it was primarily his anger at his father for breaking up the family, but now I suspect there's more to it than that. Could his dad's coming out be making him confront things about himself that he didn't want to, or know how to, deal with?

I knew Gael should have kept his distance from Carlos--now, Alex has been trapped in this web of nastiness and deceipt, and who knows how it will turn out. I just hope Gael's vengeance on Ian will be worth all that he stands to lose in trying to get it.

Gael needs to put some serious distance between himself and Carlos. Carlos did nothing to protect him from Ian, let him languish in prison, and now he wants Gael to comfort him because his asshole dad has been exposed? Gael must do NOTHING to endanger his relationship with Alex. Ciwardly Catlos isn’t worth it.

Where does this story take place, that Gael can be kidnapped and imprisoned and tortured at the whim of a homophobic asshole and then essentially bartered away to a gay version of thr homophobic asshole? Accept the deal, Gael, get out of jail. Marry the new asshole, and then find some way to bring your situation into the public domain. Embarrass them all! Starting with Carlos!

I surely hope that Amanda is satisfied now, for it was surely she that informed Natalie about thentrystbbetween Carlos and Gael the night before. I do feel sorry for Natalie, though, as she'll probably lose the baby. But if, as I expect, the wedding is now off, I hope and pray that Gael does leave and separates himself from Carlos. Carlos really has screwed everything up, for Gael and for Natalie, and for himself. I understand why, I even sy,pathize, but he can't or at least shouldn't expect now to have Gael fall into his arms as so eking of consolation prize. But he won't do that, will he? HE ISfar too terrified of his asshole father.

I'm loving Aaron. Hope he does make it into the Brotherhood next year. And who knew Q could be so quirky? Loving that too!!!

Once the wedding is over, I hope Gael can leave that house and strike out on his own. Break with his past and try to start over somewhere else, where he doesn't have to face Carlos aand he can look out for himself and not have to deal with that shrew, Amanda--I can see already that, in the finest traditions of your "bitch villains" @vanalas, this newest bitch is not going to stop trying to torment Gael, even after the wedding.