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  1. Tiger
    Okay, so I went up town to do a bit of shopping. That's not all that unusual. As I was walking from my car into HEB (a grocery store), I noticed a couple of African American women chatting in front of the store and didn't really give it a second thought until... The stupid asshole was walking into the store itself when I was when he whispered something to the effect of "stupid n***ers talking". I wanted to knock out his f**king teeth, but I kept my composure. And this wasn't some old-looking redneck type either. He was a clean-cut, young guy who didn't even seem to have a southern drawl. I don't get it? Why would a cleanly cut, young guy have something so awful to say? It's not as if I live in some small town in Bumf**ked, Egypt. There are a lot of Hispanics, African Americans, and even some Asians here, so I figure if someone doesn't like minorities, then the stupid assholes should live elsewhere.
     
    Oh, and then on my way home, I was getting close to an intersection. Some old lady was there waiting, presumably for me to clear the intersection, so she waits until I'm like 2 seconds from reaching the intersection and proceeds to pull out. I honked my horn and said, "stupid bitch". Anyway that pissed me off too.
     
    Now that I'm through the unpleasantries, how about some more Italian eye candy?
     

  3. Tiger
    Now, I do not remember the exact date, but it would have been 10 years ago in April of the upcoming year. I was a junior in high school, and I will never forget this. Danny was only 14. He was hunting with his 13-year-old friend. His friend's rifle jammed. Yes, it jammed. What happened next was nothing short of tragic. The rifle discharged and hit little Danny in the heart. He died at the hospital soon after. It's worth noting that I went to a very small school. Just to give people a general idea of just how small, it is likely that there are almost as school-aged children in the neighborhood where I now reside than were in the entire school. Thus, the junior high and high school were together, and we all had the same teachers. Everyone was shocked. I will never forget the funeral. It was held at the gym of the school. To this day (as far as I know) there is a memorial to Danny on the water tower north of Amsterdam, Missouri. I never remember being so sad in my life. Here was a boy. He was 14, yet he looked like he was only 10 or 11. It's proof that we live in a f**ked up world. He should be alive today. He would be 23 years old now, but instead his remains are in a cemetery.
  4. Tiger
    Why the f**k would you try to get on a plane with suitcases, briefcases, etc. with drugs anywhere in the world? It's like people have f**king holes in their heads. You're not going to get away with it anywhere. Yet, people still try it. Hell, you're not even likely to get away with swallowing balloons full of drugs, and it's dangerous to do so. Are people stuck on stupid or something? Does anyone actually know of anyone who's actually gotten away with it in recent times?
  5. Tiger
    Gays, lesbians, bisexuals, and transgendered people have long been victims of hate. Before the Stonewall Riots of 1969, gay people were arrested even for being in gay bars. The police intimidated gay people endlessly, and coming out of the closet could mean finding oneself being sent to an asylum. Until around 1973, the APA considered being gay as a psychological disorder, meaning that gay people were considered insane. Thus, gay people were subjected to such treatments as shock therapy and other corrected therapies. Some were quite cruel and created extremely negative reactions to images of people of the same gender. Stonewall sparked a move in the right direction, but hatred for LGBT people is still felt today, 40 years later.
     
    Even today, LGBT people are killed or imprisoned in many nations around the world, especially in Islamic strongholds like Iran, Pakistan, and Saudi Arabia. Yet, even in these societies, there are gay people who risk everything for love. Imprisonment and capital punishment for LGBT people on the basis of sexual orientation is arguably a hate crime in itself. I even stumbled across an eye opening article where a Muslim talks about it. He says that there's a collapse in morality around the world, and that's just the beginning of his spiel.
     
     
     
    http://newsgroups.derkeiler.com/Archive/Soc/soc.culture.canada/2005-09/msg00250.html
     
    If this is the mainstream of Muslim teaching, it's no wonder that LGBT people feel the worst persecution in the Islamic world. Even in Iraq, there is a squad that has been killing LGBT people. The preferred method in the Islamic is stoning people to death. In their blind hatred for LGBT, they kill in the name of Allah. This hatred is not limited to The Middle East, Southeast Asia, and Africa. It has extended to Europe and North America where hate crimes, including murder, have been committed by Muslims upon LGBT people.
     
    Muslims are not the only ones who have perpetrated hate crimes against gay people. People from other religions, or lack thereof, have also committed such crimes for various reasons. One such situation occurred in Laramie, Wyoming on January, 6-7, 1998. A University of Wyoming student named Matthew Shepard was brutally beaten by two homophobic men who had offered him a ride. According to the felony complaint against Russell Arthur Henderson and Aaron James McKinney, they tied him up to a post, robbed him, and beat him repeatedly with a pistol.
     
    Source: http://www.thesmokinggun.com/archive/shepard1.html
     
    This crime made national headlines, because of the excessive brutality of the crime itself. Many assume that it has more to do with Matthew Shepard's looks, but that, to me, is not the reason it made headlines. The crime itself was brutal. While the state contended that the intention was robbery, it is quite obvious to most that it was, in fact, a hate crime. Robbing the victim was an added bonus. A bill in honor of Matthew Shepard is still pending and will likely be signed by President Barack Obama.
     
    Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matthew_Shepard#Hate_crime_legislation
     
    A gay teen named Lawrence
  6. Tiger
    I've been thinking of researching hate crimes. No, not just hate crimes against gays either. Hate crimes are a serious problem. The level of violence perpetrated in some of these crimes is quite high. Worst of all, some governments turn a blind eye to these heinous crimes, and some others even participate. So the question I ask is, "Should I start a series of blog entries about hate crimes?"
  7. Tiger

    Act Like an Adult...

    By Tiger,

    So it seems recently that some people around here cannot seem to play well with others. Take it from me. Calling people names or publicly attacking them is not the answer. There's no reason to go around calling people names simply because you disagree with them. I realize that people have different views on things. That's a good thing. I don't expect people to agree with me about everything. I learned the hard way about what can happen when one goes too far. At one time, some people even wanted me banned. Luckily, I was given a chance to clean up my act. At that time, I was unstable, but the way I expressed it was wrong. Taking out my frustrations with life on others proved to be more of a problem than it was worth. If you find that you can't play well with others, then quite frankly, it may be time to take a break from the site and spend your time elsewhere until such time that it doesn't bother you as much. I've noticed that there's actually a great tolerance for misdeeds here, but it has been done. People have been banned from this site. So if you want to continue to be a part of the community, calm down and hold your tongue. Take it from me, people. It's not worth it. That kind of attention isn't a good thing.
  8. Tiger
    On the news, they talked about these people who work for the Grand Prairie Police Department. Apparently, an email was going around, one that contained an image of Air Force 1 with the N word on it, you know the really bad one that rhymes with bigger? Anyway, my mom said she had seen the email in question and thought it was funny. This makes me sad that she would find it funny, especially when she's supposedly befriended black people before. I don't find it funny at all.
  9. Tiger
    Tim's Existing Situation
     
    "Organized and detail-oriented, he has a very precise and methodical manner. He needs relationships which offer him understanding, respect, and approval."
     
    Tim's Stress Sources
     
    "Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. His need to feel dominate and superior leaves him feeling isolated and does not allow for him to give freely of himself. He would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness he must not give in to. Holding back will allow him to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."
     
    Tim's Restrained Characteristics
     
    "Demanding and picky in his relationships, but careful not to bring out conflict or disagreements and this may decrease his chances of achieving his goals and ideas."
     
    Giving more than he is getting back and feels misunderstood and unappreciated. Feels he is being forced into compromising and even his close relationships leave him feeling emotional distant.
     
    "Willing to become emotionally involved, but is demanding and picky when choosing a partner. Is careful not to bring out conflict or disagreements as this may decrease his chances of achieving his goals and ideas."
     
    Feels as if too many walls and obstacles are standing in his way and that he is being forced to make compromises. He needs to put his own needs on hold for the time being.
     
    Tim's Desired Objective
     
    Seeks to be known for something he has accomplished and uses his social abilities to win people over. Emotional and sensitive and romantic.
     
    Tim's Actual Problem
     
    "Impressed by unique and one of a kind things, and by people with exceptional personalities. Tries to takes the characteristics he likes in other people and apply it to himself as well as coming across as a unique individual."
  10. Tiger
    It seems like yesterday that I left a small town in Kansas and moved to an outer suburb of Dallas. How do 7 months pass so quickly? It's crazy. So what is a still fairly young gay guy doing here? I needed a change in my life. I really did. As much as the mostly isolated area south of the KC metro has been home for most of my life, I was miserable there. At the time it was winter. I could not find a decent job, I was tired of the cold winters, and there's nothing there for someone my age. Sure, I could have wasted more days being miserable and returning to my old habit of being stoned off my ass most of the time, but that's not a life.
     
    What am I up to now? Well, I have a job as a security guard. Up until recently, I was working close to 50 hours per week. However my hours have been cut to around 32 hours per week in the form of two 12-hour shifts and an 8 and
  11. Tiger

    It's Too Effing Hot

    By Tiger,

    Yeah, and I'm working in the heat these days. Today, it was like 103 degrees and humid. It's horrible! I knew it was going to be hot, but it's only June. Maybe that means it'll be 120 next month. I have always disliked summer. Now I dislike it even more.
  12. Tiger

    Pure Evil

    By Tiger,

    I don't understand why anyone would do this, but this sick bastard, Philippe Padieu, infected women with HIV, and he knew he had it.
     
    This story is about the case.
     
  13. Tiger
    A - Age: 26
     
    B- Bed size: Supertwin (yes, it's smaller than I'd like)
     
    C - Chore you hate: Washing dishes
     
    D - Dogs or cats: Sadly I don't have either but I wish I did
     
    E - Essential start your day item: Cigarette (though I am trying to quit)
     
    F - Favorite color: Black
     
    G - Gold or Silver: Silver
     
    H - Height: 5'5
     
    I - Instrument played: Alto saxophone
     
    J - Job title: Caregiver (though I seem to be laid off right now)
     
    K - Kid(s): Maybe someday but not now (and probably not the old-fashioned way)
     
    L - Loud or quiet: Hmmmm... It depends on my mood and circumstances
     
    M - Mom's name: Carrie
     
    N - Nicknames: Tim, Timmy, Timmer, Timbo, and in grade school, one boy called me Tim Chim...
     
    O - Overnight hospital stay: If it's for me personally, no. However, I have spent the night at the hospital for others, and it still sucks. I also have been to the ER a couple of times but was never admitted.
     
    P - Pet Peeve: I have many: lying, breathing heavily while eating, being totally obnoixious, misinterpreting what I say... many others too numerous to name.
     
    Q - Quote from a movie: Say hello to my little friend! (Machine gun fire) I also like this line from Gone With the Wind. "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."
     
    R - Right or left handed: Right
     
    S - Siblings: 2
     
    T - Time you wake up: Lately, before 9 AM
     
    U- Underwear: If I have to I usually wear tighty whities, but I prefer not wearing underwear.
     
    V - Vegetable you dislike: I can only choose one? Okay, I'll go with cabbage.
     
    W - Ways you run late: Getting dressed, eating slowly, computer, and ummm...
     
    X - X-rays you've had: Teeth and left foot
     
    Y - Yummy food you make: Chili
     
    Z - Zoo favorite: Tigers and other big cats as well as dolphins
  14. Tiger
    Okay, I didn't think this particular topic was appropriate for the forums, so I decided to use my blog instead. Okay, I totally don't get it. Vaginas don't do much for me, but I am not in fear of them, nor am I repulsed by them. I personally think this fear is irrational even for gay men. I mean, it's just a vagina. It's not going to hurt you. So you don't want to stick your dick in one. I could live without doing so myself, but why should anyone be afraid of them?
     
    By extension, there is yet another fear often associated with gay men, tocophobia, or fear of pregnancy or pregnant women in particular. This is just as silly to me. I happen to think pregnancy is a beautiful thing, not something to be afraid of. I want kids of my own, and obviously pregnancy is involved, so pregnancy is a good thing. I would even deliver a baby if I had to do so, and other than the blood, I think I'd be just fine. Anyway, why do so many have such fears? I don't hear about straight men freaking out over the sight of a penis, so why should many gay men have such a fear of vaginas?
  15. Tiger

    Fighting over politics

    By Tiger,

    Well, yesterday I got into a fight over the phone with a friend of mine over politics. She's vehemently Republican. I can respect that. However, I criticized the Bush administration and talked about the video I linked in the Gay Left Forum. I tried to tell her that NO president should have the type of power that the Patriot Act yielded. Quite frankly, the thought of a mad man with the power to have people arrested just by calling them traitors is quite frankly unacceptable. That is so similar to what Adolf Hitler, Joseph Stalin and other tyrants have done throughout history. A climate of fear is a breeding ground for the stifling of civil liberties and the usurpation of human rights in general. I may be a liberal, but I am a civil libertarian above all else, and any threat to civil liberties is a threat to what I believe is the American way. This country is not what it once was, a beacon of freedom, and that is a scary thought, and if it comes down to it I will fight and die to protect our freedoms. I don't care if the president is Democrat or Republican. When he uses his power to take my rights away, I have serious issues. I just wish my friend understood my position, but she clearly does not. I'm suspect simply because I voted for Obama. But believe me, if he was doing what Bush was doing, I would be just as appalled.
  19. Tiger

    A challenge to myself

    By Tiger,

    Now I realize this sounds like a real challenge, but I want to write a lesbian scene. No, I'm not kidding! I may be gay, but making love is beautiful, and I want to challenge myself to write a scene like this. Even though I firmly am gay, about 99% or so, I think my curiosity gets the best of me. I actually want to watch two lesbians make love. Now coming from a straight guy would make that statement all about being a total perv, but I think I have a much more objective perspective. First of all, it's unlikely to arouse me. Second, it's for my benefit as an author. One thing I already know is that women have to depend much more on the power of touch, especially without a penis being involved. Think about it. Cocks are pretty awesome. I thinks that's why I love them so much. But at the same time, I wonder how the whole lesbian thing works. I know many here will think this is strange, but I'm always one to try something new. I doubt any gay man has ever written a lesbian scene. Here's the difficult part. I have to think about men while I'm writing it as that is much more appealing. I have to totally rewire my mind beyond that. It's going to be a difficult task, but it's something I simply must do.
  20. Tiger

    Condoms to Go

    By Tiger,

    It's a name of an adult store in Dallas. Actually, there are several locations I need to go there and pick up some toys some time. And yes, it really does exist. I don't think I can post a link to it, though.
  21. Tiger

    What's wrong with me?

    By Tiger,

    I'm starting to think that I must be boring, at least after a while. It's like people initially find me interesting but eventually get bored with me. I don't really understand it. Do I lack spontaneity and fun? That's what I'm starting to wonder. It seems to be an endless cycle, and in the end, I am left with a bad taste in my mouth and a complete lack of understanding of what went wrong. I guess I am overly impulsive at times, but aren't a lot of people? Isn't that human nature? The biggest question of all is this: How can I expect to truly understand people if I cannot understand myself? If I can't figure it all out, I'm going to end up old, alone and miserable. I am to a point where I don't even know why I bother waking up in the morning. People are rarely what they seem, and in the end, I'll just end up feeling abandoned again.
  22. Tiger
    So, it seems that people want to minimize my bad experience. So now I'm just going to tell everyone what it was all about. Here's how it was. A couple of years ago I was really into this guy. He was a lot older than me. It was the summer after my dad died, so I was seeking older men. Here's the thing. He'd been raped repeatedly when he was a teen. Thus, he was scared. So basically, I got a total mind f**k from hell, and that's why I have serious issues where "closet cases" are concerned. I got hurt really badly, so before ANYONE else decides to f**king judge me for it, try to consider my point of view before foaming at the mouth.
  23. Tiger

    Finally!

    By Tiger,

    Well, I have good news x3.

    I have a job now! I start on Tuesday.
    I have a new phone, and I've already taught myself how to text in very little time.
    I am going to be checking into some college classes on Saturday.

  24. Tiger

    The Century Mark

    By Tiger,

    Well, it's finally here. This is my 100th blog entry officially, though I've actually deleted a few, so there have actually been more than that. I have a message for someone. I'm not going into detail or mentioning names, but when I find something distasteful, my conscience tells me to say something. People talk, and I know things. The first thing I want to say is that I think that it's rather rude to rub something in someone's face. Is it not enough to hurt someone? You think pouring salt into the wound is okay? Well, I've got news for you! It isn't. Be a decent human being. But that is just something I felt that I needed to say...
     
    Now about me... Okay, I still haven't found a job, but I am checking into to taking college classes again. I'm straying away from the online thing, because I actually want to go to class. I think the traditional approach is the best one, so that is what I want to do. I need to go job hunting today, so hopefully I can solve that problem. I'll let you all know.
  25. Tiger
    Well, I've been trying to decide what I really want to do with my life. Recently, the thought occurred to me. Attaining a Life and Health Insurance license in Texas is something I need to look into. I am good at talking to people, and I love helping people. People need life insurance, and I believe I am capable of providing them with what they need. Here's the best part. I don't actually have to have a degree, yet an insurance agent can make $100,000 or more a year, and insurance is one industry that continues to grow even in the current economic climate. This means that I could build a good nest egg for myself while helping to make life better for people. It doesn't get much better than that. It's not an easy career. There are a lot of people who say now. However, I am okay with that, and I want to learn something new and exciting. Insurance is complex, but someone who's willing to work hard can achieve finanacial independence, and that is a wonderful thing. If anyone has some info on the subject, I'd appreciate the input.
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