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you can always have my bed and i'll sleep on the couch - or floor if neccessary. thank you for everything. i am so glad to have you in my life

i once read about the drosohpila (common fruit fly): after the mating process started, the female fly begins to eat the male fly, starting at the brain. this increases the male fly's sexual performance temporarily. by the time the sexual intercourse comes to the end, there is nothing left of the male fly, except for its sexual organ, which the female will carry around as a trophy (inside herself). and we are still struggling with issues like true love...

if anyone can meet these challenges, then it's you She said, I think I

thank you very much for your kind words! this year my reply is a little sooner... i feel honored and flattered (: i should update my age now...

i second that. also, it's a plush teddy-bear, just to prevent misunderstanding..

what is wrong with that?

i once had the same addiction/depression conversation with my aunt. and seems like i will have another one as soon as i call her. And then there's those other things, which for several reasons we won't mention: Everything about 'em is a little bit stranger, a little bit harder, a little bit deadly. It's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb. It's so much easier to go than face all this pain here all alone.

a saint, i sometimes think, you are(/were made). but i'm not jealous. __ i will come home next week in more than one respect maybe.

oh... I just skipped randomly through the threads i missed out - due to the absence of my internet for last months, and surprisingly got here - almost two months late, but I'm really surprised and happy! I hope you guys didn't think bad of me for not replying But thanks a lot to each one of you! You really made my day

"Broken Glass" by Linkin Park

speaking of him: "Cookie Jar" And I would turn on the TV, but it's so embarrassing, To see all the other people, I don't know what they mean. And it was magic at first when they spoke without sound, But now this world is gonna hurt. You'd better turn that thing down. Turn it around. "Well, it wasn't me," says the boy with the gun, "Sure I pulled the trigger, but it needed to be done, Because life's been killing me ever since it begun. You can't blame me, 'cuz I'm too young." "You can't blame me; sure the killer was my son, But I didn't teach him to pull the trigger of the gun. It's the killing on this TV screen. You can't blame me; it's those images he's seen." "Well, you can't blame me," says the media man, "Well I wasn't the one who came up with the plan. And I just point my camera what the people want to see. Man, it's a two-way mirror and you can't blame me." "You can't blame me," says the singer of the song Or the maker of the movie which he bases life on. "It's only entertainment and as anyone can see, Its smoke machines and make up man, you can't fool me." It was you, it was me, it was every man. We've all got the blood on our hands. We only receive what we demand, And if we want hell, then hell's what we'll have. And I would turn on the TV, but it's so embarrassing. To see all the other people, don't even know what they mean And it was magic at first, but let everyone down, And now this world's gonna hurt. You'd better turn it around. Turn it around.

wow thanks, that's actually the first time, I don't get mocked for thinking this way!

I agree, but to me even kissing is something I don't want to experience outside a relationship. There may be such a thing as a difference between "sex" and "love making" and it may be a way to differenciate between ONS or whatever and a loving relationship and to justify the first one. But I'm only capable of "love making", so this distinction is of no interest to me. - and for that matter there's no need of preservatives for me, since: a ) neither me nor my partner (that is there to come) can get pregnant b ) neither he nor me will have outside-relationship intercourses oh, and in my opinion love is definitly underrated (just as a discussion like this one shows). Where has all that romance, all that ~waiting 'til it's worth~ gone?

amen.

yeah, I think Buckley's is the best, but the original by Cohen is cool too! I have a version performed by Imogen Heap... it's totally bad, just doesn't sound honest here are some of the songs I like: _______ "Spawn again" by Silverchair Death becomes clearer through bloodshot eyes As a death from old age becomes nearer Why can't the livestock be free When trading soldiers for steak Learn to evolve with the new transition To act upon a hypocritical vision Discard the old in with the new Discard the old in with the fashion Who is the bad guy For iron require mince, these are the facts so eat what you murder, this is animal liberation, eight billion killed for human pleasure, bring on the ape farm, demolish the monkeys, drink up drink up, look down on junkies I'll hold it back, hold it back Discard the old in with the new Discard the old in with the fashion Death becomes clearer through bloodshot eyes Death becomes clearer through bloodshot eyes _ "A forest" by The Cure Come closer and see See into the trees Find the girl While you can Come closer and see See into the dark Just follow your eyes Just follow your eyes I hear her voice Calling my name The sound is deep In the dark I hear her voice And start to run Into the trees Into the trees Into the trees Suddenly I stop But I know it's too late I'm lost in a forest All alone The girl was never there It's always the same I'm running towards nothing Again and again and again _ "Sally's Song" by Fiona Apple I sense there's something in the wind That seems like tragedy's at hand And though I'd like to stand by him Can't shake this feeling that I have The worst is just around the bend And does he notice my feelings for him? And will he see how much he means to me? I think it's not to be What will become of my dear friend Where will his actions lead us then? Although I'd like to join the crowd In their enthusiastic cloud Try as I may, it doesn't last And will we ever end up together? No, I think not, it's never to become For I am not the one And will we ever end up together? No, I think not, it's never to become For I am not the one _ "Make yourself" by Incubus If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow. If I hadn't assembled myself, I'dve fallen apart by now. If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow. Powers that be would have swallowed me up, but that's more than I can allow. If you let them make you, they'll make you paper-mache. At a distance you're strong, until the wind comes then you crumble and blow away. If you let them f*ck you, there will be no foreplay. But rest assured, they'll screw you complete til' your ass is blue and grey. You should make amends with you. If only for better health. But if you really want to live, why not try and Make Yourself? If I hadn't made me, I'dve fallen apart by now. I won't let em' make me, it's more than I can allow. So when I make me, I won't be papier-mache. And if I f*ck me...I'll f*ck me in my own way. You should make amends with you. If only for better health. But if you really want to live, why not try and Make Yourself? Make Yourself.

aw I always listened to it, when I was walking through the fields in summer, three or four years ago "Scenic World" by Beirut

hi i am new here too! and i have to agree - it seems to be a very nice atmosphere in here got here by an announcement in somebody's nifty.org-story and what i found looks quite serious and ambitious! greetings (Thor)Ben

Cry Ophelia by Adam Cohen