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Glad to hear that Jovian, I was worried for a while, didn't know if you were still in the hospital or not. Glad your back home and everything is okay.

Hello everyone, last night I was informed by one of Jovian's friends after I tried contacting him on yahoo messenger that he was in the hospital after collapsing yesterday. I don't know anymore than that he is currently in the hospital and in stable condition. As I know what it is like to be in the hospital I would ask you guys to pray for him as I have been doing. I'll keep you updated if I hear anything else.

Here is the latest picture I have of myself, taken at my grandfathers wedding. One of the few pictures I have of myself in a suit and tie. Here it is:Suit Picture

Happy late Birthday!

Hey everyone, I just wondered if anyone had seen any good gay themed movies lately. Last night I watched Beautiful Thing, it was an excellent coming out/ love story. I actually think it was the first gay movie I've watched. Anyone have any more recommendations?

I just finished Twilight the first in the Stephenie Meyer series, I don't know why I liked it but I did. I'm currently just starting the second book in her series New Moon. From a literary stand point I wouldn't describe it as an amazing work of literature or anything but I enjoyed the story nonetheless.

Thanks Jovian, your sympathy means a lot since I know that you understand about having medical conditions and problems like this. I also found out a few days ago that now my doctor doesn't think what I had was Crohn's disease and she doesn't really know what it was so it looks like I have some more doctors visits to go to in the next few months.

Thanks Mike, I have filed a complaint with the university and they did refund my money for the doctor's visit, also the assistant dean of student affairs said he would personally have a talk with the head of the medical department. I'm back at college right now I just finished having dinner and getting everything I brought back from home organized. I also got a handicap permit from the parking people that says I can basically park anywhere I like so that way I can drive to my classes instead of having to walk because right now with my incision and everything (I got the staples out today and now it hurts even worse) I can't walk more than 3 minutes without it starting to hurt and having to stop. I think I'm going to have to drop the expository writing class I was taking I've just missed to much reading, and wasn't able to write any of the essays or anything when I was all drugged up in the hospital so I'm really behind, but the advisor I talked to said given the extenuating circumstances she would refund the part of my tuition that covers that class. Thanks for the well wishes everyone hopefully my next 2 weeks will be better than the last 2 weeks.

Just thought I'd give everybody an update. Well I haven't been around the past 2 weeks because Friday the 5th I started to get a horrible stomach virus with a pain in my side. I suffered the whole weekend until on Monday my Mom said I should go to the university clinic. That was the biggest waste of my time and the doctor there basically refused to help me. I have pre existing conditions and I asked him to call my doctor and discuss them he basically refused because he said he did not have time. He then gave me a brief 5 minute examination told me there was nothing he could do for me and that it was probably just a virus and I should just go home and take pepto bismol. Well the next day my Dad came to take me to the ER at the hospital since it'd been 5 days and I hadn't gotten any better. That night was a waste the ER at the hospital was horrible and the doctor only came in one, and they just hooked me to an IV that made me feel sick. But that next day I finally got to my doctor and then the hospital to recieve antibiotics and othe stuff via IV and they thought I had an appendicitis so did surgery on me that day it turns out it wasn't appendicitis it was an inflamation of my small intestine. They were going to go ahead and take out my appendix but decided against it since they found some not so good looking varicose veins in my abdomen (cause by one of my pre existing conditions portal hypertension, the portal vein to my liver is blocked my body has formed other veins to get blood to my liver but the blood still backs up and has caused all those varicose veins) The varicose veins are not really a good thing because there a bleeding risk but there not getting any bigger so I just pray everything will be okay (I can't change that so I'm just going to live with it and keep enjoying life). I was in the hospital recovering from this until last Tuesday when I got to go home which is where I've been ever since. I found out Friday that they thing I have Crohn's disease (inflamatory disesease that affects the small intestine) which is probably what caused all of this. My doctor told me I should be able to go back to college this Wednesday after I get the staples taken out of my incesion where I had surgery. This whole thing has also kind of postponed my whole coming out to my parents thing to, I don't know when I will now I was planning on coming out to them the weekend after next but with everything thats been going on I don't want to stress my parents out anymore then I already have over the past few weeks. Well everyone just thought I'd give you and update and tell you where I'm at.

Hi everyone I'm posting this just to let everyone know yes I am still alive I've just been getting used to college for the past few weeks so haven't' been on gayauthors in a while (it doesn't help any that my computer is being worked on so I don't have it) I also want to encourage everyone who has a LGBTF group near them to join it, because there a lot of fun, at least the meeting I went to was. Sadly the one cute guy I met who was my age and everything is straight. (he's a friend of another memeber who is bi) Everyone else was really nice though and the whole time I was there i felt more carefree then I've felt in a long time. I meet a few really great people and I'm excited about attending more meetings.

Thanks for the compliments BeaStkid, and MikeL. I feel special... Thanks for making me feel all good inside.

I'm on par with Jack Frost. Never kissed a girl, been on a date, or had sex, unfortunately this same statement can also be used for men in my life. I'm a complete and total virgin.

I have Nosocomephobia a fear of hospitals, I don't like being in them or near them I feel like I can't breath and feel extremely tense when I'm in one (when I was younger I spent a lot of time sick in the hospital). I also get slightly claustrophobic when I feel like I'm trapped or in a really confined space.

Good luck rknapp. It sounds like your stuck in the same waiting to come out situation as I am right now. I'm sure it will all turn out okay though. She'll be one less person you have to keep a secret from. You've waited this long I'm sure another 3 weeks shouldn't make that much difference. (Even though it probably does) Good luck!!!

Okay you guys win I'm finally going to post a picture of myself. I'm not out to everyone yet so don't go circulating this around to everyone I know. Not that anyone else I know would be looking at a gay forum anyway. Okay here they are... Me Me having a beer on vacation Edit: I put them on photobucket so you guys could see them better.