All I Ever Wanted - Prologue. Preface

Am I supposed to just stare? Is it fair?
I see many couples every day. Holding hands, hugging, kissing... why can't I have that? I know I never will.
Why am I so miserable? Somehow, I think I made something in my past life; maybe karma is a bitch.
Most of the time I feel lonely. Sure, I have friends, but they do not fill that void. That void that can only be filled by that other; the one that complements you... the one they call soul mate.
I sat in my classroom, staring at him as always. I couldn't do anything else.
I couldn't touch him; I rarely spoke to him and he rarely did to me. I stared because it was the only way to fill the void... or to at least try to. I knew he was my other; I had always known. But I also knew that I wasn't his other; that I’d never be. And that was the root of my pain. My endless, harsh, taking-my-sleep-at-night pain.
And so, while my classmates laughed, and my teacher explained, and the fans made their whooshing sound, I stared.