Finding Ground - 3. Falling away.

I’ve lost you haven’t I?
I screwed everything up over one stupid insecurity.
I still love you so much.
But I can't let you know how much it hurts.
No.

I’ll put on a brave happy face,
and let everyone know that I'm fine.
That I'm coping.
That I'm not crying on the inside,
or for the first time into my pillow.

I just want to hold you and be close to you.
But I won’t do that because I don’t want you to be uncomfortable.
I’ll leave you alone.
But you will never leave me.

You’ve left an imprint on my heart,
that I can't get rid of.
No matter how hard I try,
or how much you hate me,
I will always love you,
I will always think about you.

The stabbing pain in my stomach,
that made me crumble to my knees,
when it hit me that you never even liked me,
that was harmless.
Breaking down on the sidewalk wasn’t.

You’re probably having a good laugh at me to your friends.
About how you managed to string me along,
and pull on my heart strings.

You changed my way of thinking for a little bit.
You made me so fucking happy.

I don’t want to let you go,
but I know I have to don’t I?
Cause I'm the fool for wanting to be loved.
For wanting you to be there,
like I was for you.

But where you ever really hurting,
or was that just a way to draw me in?
I almost feel sorry for you,
having to get your kicks in hurting other people like this.

Heartbreak’s a bitch.
But I will always love you no matter what.
Whoever you are.