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The truck driving refresher course I'll be attending begins 6/28. That'll be 17 days in sunny Mira Loma, CA. Then it's out on the road for 90 days before I'll be eligible to get my own truck.


It's been a long, long time, but it feels good to be going back.


I've stopped taking the mood stabilizer since I ran out and couln't afford to get them refilled. Actually, I feel a lot better for not having them. I am going back on the antidepressant as soon as I get some money, which should be tomorrow. Although I'm not feeling depressed all the time, I do have moments when it sneaks up on me. Right now they're not big slumps, but with my history, I don't need one of those. So, I'll take my medicine like a good boy should. Plus, I've been having some problems with insomnia, which we all know can be a symptom of depression.


As you know, I tried to get a loan at the credit union, but they needed to have a joint applicant to back me up because I don't have a job right now. Well, needless to say all but one of my so called friends said no way or they simply never called back. I guess that says a lot about the quality of the friends I had. (For awhile I was thinking the old proverb "a friend in need, is a friend indeed" had recently changed to "a friend in need, is a friend you don't need", but I realized I don't have all that many friends, so I had a limited pool of prospects to begin with.)


Unfortunately, the one true friend is having some serious credit problems so that was a dead end. The loan counselor at the credit union did not see any humor when I said I've got good credit and my friend has good income, so why can't we combine the positives and drop the negatives to come up with a loan. I thought it sounded like a good idea, but you know rules are rules and they must be followed.


Anyway, I took the $20K equity in my 2009 Subaru Forester to the dealer who originally sold me the car and they were gracious enough to give me the money I was seeking at the credit union and a decent used car (2006 Ford 500 with only 30K miles). Since I'm going to be out in the truck and the wife can't drive anymore because she's blind in one eye (20/400) and still has problems with the other eye, the "new" car is just going to sit most of the time, which is okay with me.


So, all in all, I'm feeling pretty good right now. I'm not looking forward to being stuck without a car in sunny California for nearly three weeks, but at least I have a almost certain job and should have time to work on the new writing project and the Fall Anthology entry I've already written (did that yesterday) (another symptom of depression is an overwhelming need to write; take the pills dummy).


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Oh shit. Is the last bit true. I must have been depressed for most of my life and I was too happy to notice. Bugger :)



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