Been in roamingland for the past few days. I could get online, but could only do one site at a time before being forgotten. It says you're connected, but you can't connect. The only solution is to pull the card, get the software to stop thinking it's still connected (end of process in Task Manager seems to do the trick), and start over, all the time hoping the software has actually acknowledged that it was disconnected and isn't thinking it still is, or worse, suddenly decides it's going to try to establish a 4G connection when you're literally in the bushes.

Okay, I'm pissed.

When I was in Lordsburg, NM, I almost had service. My carrier could just about connect with itself, but not enough to carry a signal. Couldn't call out, couldn't get calls in, because it said it was in its territory, but wasn't. Suddenly, roaming pops up and I have 3 bars. Quick, dial that number. Better yet, use speed call. It's trying to make the connection. It's going to work. It's ringing, ringing, ringing, "hello ...", BEEP BEEP BEEP. What the f**k! Damn it's trying to find itself, again. It broke the roaming connection so it can go look for itself. Oh, look! It's found itself, but doesn't have enough signal to make a connection.

If I didn't owe these people a lot of money and wasn't going to be able to get a discount because my employer is one of the corporate partners, I go somewhere else.

So, it's been almost service and one task at a time service. The pissy thing is this is supposed to be a national carrier. They pride themselves on being everywhere, but mostly they're only where the money is.

And, do not even think about using them in Wyoming. They are not in Wyoming. They decided they didn't have to be everywhere and one of the big nowheres is Wyoming. It's roamingland bigtime, but mostly there just isn't any internet access at all. Parts of New Mexico are in the toilet, too.

When I'm in Nogales, Arizona, my carrier sometimes gets a better signal from across the border, but then you have to have international service enabled on your profile to make a call or use the internet.

Sometimes, I wonder life would be better if I was just a bit crazier. Life does seem better when I'm running above the troughs, but I don't want to do that anymore. You get bad things when you're up there too long. The air is thinner and your brain is starved of healthy sustenance.

I'm rapid cycling right now. I think it's called Cyclothymia, but my lows might be too low to fit the definition; one of the things I'll have to discuss with the shrink, if I can get an appointment. One hour I'm up feeling good and the next I'm at the opposite end of the spectrum. Right now, at this very moment, I sinking fast, but I know that in a few hours I'll be sailing high, again, so who cares if they feel bad/sad for a little bit. I do, but nobody seems to be listening.

Yesterday, while in Little America, Wyoming, and not having enough roaming bars to get internet access (one-step variety), I was pumping endorphins and wrote a whole new chapter in Remember Tim. I wish I could tell you about it, but you'll have to wait. Probably until the pre-burgers come home, the way things are going, now.

is down.