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Douw

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Shy... Right that is why i'm so flirty with my friends... guess that is also the reason i freez up when good looking guy talks to me or the reason i make a ass of my self talking to new people right... Nope not shy just stuped and sceard to death of rejection... yes i know stuped don't remind me grumble grumble dry.gif

 

But still it's there rearing a ugly head every time i talk to some nice guy or try at least choking on my own words like a little boy i don't know hoe it got there it's not always been there don't ask my way it's just there i hate that i choke on my own words before they leave my mouth but no matter what i do it just keeps on happening sigh

 

Maybe it's whats going on at home my dad has been a ass uterly crule with his jokes just as my sister has been and still is but at least a long the way i made some frends witch help a lot yet at times it feels like i'm driving every one a way and i hate it i hate feeling like a ass i hate feeling like it's my fult that ipeople don't talk to me i hate feeling useliss i guess it's just me having a self worth complex moment idk...

 

I don't even know if this will see the light of day i'm still debaiting wether or not to post it...

 

I guess the only thing that is wrong is i'm lonly and i feel a little abandonde by people how should be here with me or me there with them and man i feel pethetic saying it but damming if i don't want a phone call every now and then or a hug.... ya i know it's bad book me a room at the not house sigh

 

I guess even that is my fult it's not like i have not had the opertunaties to make more friend if i toulk my head out of my ass sooner i mite be better off... it's strange what a little curige can do no...

 

Guess it dose not help me shying a way from contact all the time agen fearing to get outed or even p some one off ya i know crazy as can be sigh

 

But i think mostly things are this bad becouse of my fears...

 

And i know it's time to change if i want to be happy i just need a push in the right direction or more like a lot of pushes sigh any how if any one reads this i know i sound crazy and stuped... so be nice with the coments pleas and ya i guess that means i am posting this...

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paya

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Douw, you're a very good looking guy! You don't have to be all shy - you have nothing to be ashamed of. I bet you're a good companion too, so don't stress it. If you like him, you don't have to tread around him on your toes. Become good friends instead, focus on getting to know him better - and if he's not a boyfriend material, you gain at least a good friend. :)

 

Everyone needs to feel being loved. If your father or your sister can't give you that feeling, you know that here at GA we love you! :hug: Be proud! Because you are a good guy and if they can't see that then show them that you're no worse now when they know. You're still Douw! So be your cheery yourself and make new friends! ;)

Frostina

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Douwy.. I'm really sorry that you're going through with this...

Like Paya said, everyone needs to feel loved.. and i'm sorry that things are not great in your house.. But u do know that if not anything else, U have friends in GA who love you. You are shy, yes.. But you are an amazing person and the good lokks that u have is just a bonus (an AMAZING bonus may i add :P ). Come online like u used to please.. ad talk to us.. :)

 

And i'm sure if u can talk to people in cyberspace, U will be able to do the same in real life.. :hug: have been missing you for some time.. :P Hope to see you soon darlin'..

 

:D

Nephylim

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You just need to relax hun. You're acting out of character because you're putting too much pressure on yourself. Relax and take a deep breath. Take a deep breath before you speak, take a deep breath before you act and especially take a deep breath before you beat yourself up for any of the above. While you are taking that breath remember that the world won't end if what comes out of your mouth is crap or if you trip over your feet and land face down in the pizza. It might feel that it ends but, hell... that guy in the corner who is pissing hiself laughing at you might just offer to wipe pizza off your face and become your best friend or lover... or both. Chillax. What comes comes and you deserve some good luck.

 

 

And IT IS NOT weak or stupid to want love and support from your family. It's what they are supposed to do. Okay siblings are cruel but they should know when a line has been crossed, and parents even more so. Personally I would slap her and disown him... but it's your life... you might want to slap him and disown her... or put them both in a barrel and roll them off a waterfall... of roll them in honey and stake them out in the desert for the fire ants.... well, be creative :)

 

 

Toast

Posted

Hey Douw. :hug:

Douw

Posted

Thanks guys....

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