"no matter what or who you are,

there's a light in the darkness

of everybody's life."

I've been trying so hard to make sense of things,

but I don't know where to start or what to do.

the short moments we had to ourselves:

the stolen glances,

the stifled laughter,

when your eyes met mine,

& the way you smiled - because you knew.

It's been a long time since I've felt butterflies

in my chest, & I'm glad

that you're the one changing that.

I wonder what you are thinking about

when you look at me.

I remember that moment I met you

when I started to think that

"maybe you were someone I could like. Maybe even love one day."

But even so,

sometimes I'm afraid of love,

it scares me.

It's not concrete like the ocean,

something that I could point out

& understand what it is-

that's why I struggle with love.

I can't touch it.

I can't hold on to it,

& make sure it never changes.