Life has a way of trying to equal things out. I don't mean that everything will be perfect just that when things begin to slide out of control help will be there when you need it.

The last two weeks have seen the wind taken out of my sails. First there was the personal attack. That took me out of my normal position in life. I'm usually the happy go lucky one who lets things roll off his back. It took a bit of time to get that perspective back. It helps to have friends who listen, even though I hate to talk, and will allow me to let it out. Like any poison, whether it is self loathing, disappointment, depression, or a dozen other hateful things, when you let it out you begin to heal. So thank you to those who listened to me whine, complain, and get it out.

However, once the person stupidity was over real tragedy struck. Still been asked not let it out, but I don't always do as asked. Waiting right now for all the results on my sister-in-laws results on her cancer test. It has been determined she has throat cancer, but how bad and what sort of treatment she will have to undertake has yet to be related to us. Both her and my brother smoke like a chimney. She is a year younger than I am and he is four years younger. So I've been scattered. It happens.

I am blessed though that I have people who depend on me and keep me moving. Whether it is Mark and Billy by reminding there is more than just me going through things, KC stepping in to help fill the void I left with my person issues, Andy continuing to aid in my story, Frosty for editing what I have managed to do, or Renee and Cia taking time to listen to me rant and rave. Even among the ashes I find my blessings. For the help and support you all give to me and to each other I thank you.

Wayne