Going to try and keep this brief. No use in prattling on about nothing.

So we went to LA to this gay club; Tigerheat. It is incredibly gay, beyond gay, tranny's, twinks, whatever is thin, blonde and is wearing a V neck. Its all there.

I'll be discussing a few things; 1) Clubbing/Scene 2) My "type" 3) Conclusion

1) Clubbing/Scene: I like clubbing, It is like a drug. It comes in good doses, but you can't OD cause YOU'LL DIE. I have not been to a club in maybe 4 months and going to this one was like going repeatedly throughout those 4 months. I dunno, I feel it is stressful. Is everybody having fun, do we have enough drugs and alcohol to go around. Ugh balls. I was lucky enough to have Justin come along and grind up on my dick for 3 hours. It worked out.

But anyways, this place, Tigerwhatever, I've been to it a few times. Good music, alright vibe, the usual suspects are there. I consider myself normal, maybe a bit fashionable at times but I'm normal. I have a normal voice, normal gestures. Nothing flamboyant, if you will. Masculine, whatever category you want to toss me in. This place is crawling with I guess "twinks" and skinny gentleman and boys barely over 18. There is the occasional straight group but usually it is dominating by the "scene" types.

It was myself, Justin, another guy and four other girls. It all worked out fine. Usually it is good to go with a rather large group. You get a gambit of ass to play with on the dance floor. After sometime it gets a bit repetitive and since I was driving I really wasn't drinking like the rest of my friends. It didn't bother me, sober, or intoxicated I can have fun (and so should you reader - friendly service announcement). I'm glad Justin is easy going and he really enjoyed dancing and its fun. Getting close to someone and just moving with music. I could go on for hours about that but I won't. Its hot.

Midst that I was able to watch. I love people watching. I like to guess why they are here, who they are with, what they are about. it's a fun game. I see all these weird looking guys that are dancing with guys that are I guess appealing to the homosexual community. It baffles me. Usually you'd think good looking people roll with good looking people.

To me the club scene is just difficult to deal with if; you have a roaring pride like me, you don't deal with bullshit and you hate stupid people. Its such a visual stimulation. The music is to loud to talk so you can't get to know anybody. Its just, nice ass, lets dance. There were several occasions where guys would come and grab me, or grab Justin and we'd dance with them rather than each other. Just for the sake of things.

Its just weird. I don't really know how to describe my distaste for clubs and that genre of people. I can deal with it, I can go, but its just annoying after a period of time. /shrug

2) Types: I was able to look around the dance floor and pick out people I'd think I would manage with. I found like 4. How depressing out of numerous people and that was just based on looks. I had no idea how they would sound when their mouths opened. Maybe I am picky.

It is an age old question of your type. I think Justin is just about right. In a general sense. He is normal. He is neither incredibly gay, or incredibly straight. He has a happy medium but it doesn't confuse people either way. He wears hats and work out shorts and plays beer pong and watches sports. I'm the same way, sure we can be fags when we need to be but rarely. I have no idea how to describe it.

My type isn't those skinny pretty boys. Maybe I am just spouting this off and later I'll just be cruising for those types. Usually when I dislike something, it is either because I genuinely do, or it is because I am jealous and I am unsure which of the two I am. I just don't see myself with one of those, maybe a one night stand, sure. The only mousey kid I've been with was a guy up at school, which was great and fun. Now that I think about it I've hooked up with my fair share of those types, so what the hell am I saying.

Even now as I am thinking about it is hard to emulate how I feel about those type of homosexuals. If they are worth it or not. Maybe because they are so comfortable in their setting, who knows. I like where I am and what I date and f**k, because I've done a good bit of everything. Who knows. We'll see.

3) Conclusion: My answer to all my woe's is, I want to date a exceptionally gay guy. Like, flamboyant, rolls around at clubs type. Opposites attract, it happens. Even if it isn't my "scene. This is not to say I don't like night clubs and bars and shit. I love sitting in a booth and drinking, having a good conversation, maybe a dance or two. But not constant dry humping. My thighs hurt, even if they are worked out and awesome. But usually those guys are sluttish, at least what I have been told. Who knows, who cares.

In the end though it is a really confusing state of mine for me. Do I like it, do I not like it. Should I make friends with people like that and immerse myself. Should I stick with college parties and not care about the superficial. God I hate being young, f**k this. Not really though.

I guess clubbing and all that jazz for me is just phases that I go through. But it was a good night, got some laughs, decent music was played, got my junk massaged by whats his names ass. Hurrah, victory. See ya on the flip side boys.