i dont trust people (i dont even trust my family), so its hard for me to make friends..... plus now that im not in school and im working, its hard to make friends besides work friends and clients..... apparantly i dont have 'people skills', im pretty shy when it comes to people i dont know, and i dont like being around people who think they are smarter then me so they talk down to me like im an idiot because of my age
to be honest, for myself, i never saw the point in having friends - when i need to talk to someone, i see my phycologist or write my feelings down - when i want to have some company, i spend some time around my family or i talk to the horses - when i need a shoulder to cry on, well i have 2 shoulders
i had friends in school, every single one of them didnt care about me, in the year since i quit school i havent seen any of them, havent heard from any of them
plus people dont seem to want to be around me, i dont know why, but people just seem to hate me (look at my reputation),
but what would want in a best friend, would just be someone who cares, who can be there when im hurting, and wont turn their back on me, would understand me..... just a nice person who i can have an intellectually stimulating conversation from time to time