Thorn Wilde

Looking to expand your repertoire?

Been meaning to watch that one. Haven't got round to it yet.

Eh. Quicker to just google it.

I went the more formal route, with Wikipedia. I'm learning a lot these days, feels like.

Good advice, that... *looks at the bomb site that is my bedroom*

I'll bet you could, at that...

Goodnight! Have fun in Skyrim. I've modded that game so much to death it's nigh unplayable...

Goodnight @MichaelS36!

I had to google that. And now I'm not entirely sure what to do with myself.

Thank you. I admire you all for living according to your own principles, wishes, and needs. I do think that there are many ways of being strong. And if I hadn't had any strength of my own I doubt I would have made it this far. I'm not in a great place today, but I still went out and did things that needed doing, and I'm proud of that.

Enjoy your dinner!

I don’t think I would be able to pull that off, tbh. I probably wouldn’t make a very good full time sub... Gotta say I admire that kind of strength.

Sounds like a nice walk.

Have a good time, both of you! ❤️

Feeling kind of slighted right now. There’s a music festival on this weekend, and the arranger, whom I actually know, says he’s “scoured Scandinavia for queer and/or female artists” to perform. I’m literally in his backyard, I’m queer in like three different ways, and I write songs about it. I feel like he could have “scoured” a little better... Going tomorrow regardless, I have brilliant friends who are playing. Still, would have been nice to be asked.

Refrain? How boring!

Exactly this. And I think occasionally rereading things you wrote a long time ago can be beneficial for further development and improvement. I have some stuff published under a different pen name from ages ago, though, and it's so, so bad! I am never divulging that pen name to anyone here. Ever. I'd delete every account I had, but truth be told, I don't remember my passwords and don't even have access to the e-mail addresses I used back then.

I mean, it depends on how far back I go. If it's pre-2013, I'm more likely to think it's terrible. But I think that year is when I really came into my own as a writer... When I got here, basically.

Morning music:

Morning, everybody. Hope you're all well. Tired today. Possibly too much social interaction for this introvert yesterday. And I find myself having one of those second guessing my worth and wondering if people actually like me or not days.

Bedtime for this guy. Goodnight, everyone!

Anyone else occasionally find themselves reading their own old stories and thinking, damn, this is actually pretty good? Or am I a particular brand of narcissist?

'I don't understand why you want to hide your curves like that,' she said, while I adjusted my binder. 'You look wonderful just as you are.' And I thought, That's kind of hilarious, really, because you're always bugging me about losing weight. I told her, 'It's not about how I look. It's about how I feel.' 'No, I know. I understand.' No you don't. 'But wouldn't it be better if people were just happy with the bodies they have?' I sighed. 'Would be nice, yeah. But we don't live in that world. I'm not about to medically transition anyway.' 'No, I know that. I was pretty sure of that. But you always liked wearing pretty dresses and things.' 'Yeah. And I can still wear them, I'm sure I will again. Just not right now. Right now this feels better. Besides, getting dressed up like that and wearing lots of make-up, it's kind of like a costume. Like I'm performing. I'm not performing.' Is the measure of womanhood wearing pretty dresses? Can't boys wear dresses if they want? Aren't you a feminist? 'Well, whatever you do, you're my baby and I'll always love you. But I have to be allowed to state my opinion.' 'Sure, but my body and my gender are not up for debate.' 'I know. I'm not debating.' 'Sure feels like it.' I tied my boots. We left it at that. Wish I could have expressed it better, what I'm feeling right now. I talked to a trans guy over on another site. I told him how I don't really experience gender dysphoria. He said he didn't either, but he did have gender euphoria when he was in the right gender expression, and more and more as he transitioned. That's what this feeling is, I guess, when I put on the binder and go out in public and just feel good about it all. Gender euphoria. When it feels right.

Amazing how something so destructive can be so beautiful.

So, I don’t know if anyone here has heard of the Norwegian author Karl Ove Knausgård, but I just watched a 90 minute take-down of his awful, misogynistic, rape apologist, homophobic, borderline Nazi six volume memoir by a woman who used to babysit me as a kid, and it was glorious. This has been a good day.