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So, I was fumbling through my stuff, looking for the chip for a wireless mouse for my sister's new laptop when I stumbled upon loads of books I had when I was a 16 year old sausage. One was filled with prototypes of my story Bffs with the occational weird fairytale-esque stories with talking cats and an angry little prince on rooftops escapades. But one book hit the feels real hard. I had kept one notebook filled with my inner feelings and angry thoughts;of those one would expect to see in a teen. The angry verses and hateful phrases were based on the struggles that my family and I experienced some time ago (tho most of my struggles were OF my family). Every page was filled with curses and thoughts of death to all mankind with the occasional sarcastic praise to God's cruel game. At first, I thought it was funny, then disturbing and then it really hit me hard. The book was completely filled; with only a few more empty pages left. The last entry states my complaint on my seemingly lazy and useless siblings needing the most affection and attention. With the last few pages left I thought I'd fill for the last time, my thoughts. But this time, instead of angry rants, I drew my conclusion. I simply hushed my former self and assured her that for all the years passed, things have finally gotten better. I assured her that she was capable of loving her family and that now, almost 6 years later, she does; and they her. And assured her that now she is working on a better future and is living comfortably with nice pretty things. I told her that she could now lay her anger to rest and she no longer have the need to despise God. All is well, and hopefully, the future will stay bright. I was finally able to sign the page with my true initials. I was at peace.

When is it?

What if im a pooch cuddler and a kitty petter

*puts paw up*

U stream Myr?

So I recently got really addicted to gaming and watching YouTube gamers and Twitch streamers. I was drawn first to the bigger YouTubers like Vanoss, H20 Delirious, Ohmwrecker.. etc. But then I started discovering minor gamers who have really good content too. I then began following them on Twitch to watch their live streams and all. I was wondering if there are any LGBT streamers or YouTube gamers out there as the gaming world is dominated mostly by your typical straight male (and some gals also). I did found a couple of streamers through a similar forum as this on Reddit but it shows that the streamers mentioned were mostly no longer active, or that they play games that I'm not really into I was wondering if any of ya'll have the same interest and if ya'll know any LGBT gamers/streamers with quality content I can start obsessing about.

A lot has been going on and it's been a while since I've been as active as I was before. Listing down the changes in my life seems easier than having to write it down in paragraphs. 1. Just finishing my 1st year degree program in uni. Had 2 papers to resit by the end of the semester, but I nailed it. 2. Finally signed up for a license at the DMV near uni, convenient since the goal is to drive to and from school. ( I should've done this ages ago but money was tight back then.) 3. I have a few more days left before I have to go on a field trip for 10 friggin days. It wouln't be as bad if only I wasn't the group leader and have to deal with the whole planning of the trip and the activities. Thank god we have another week off before having to go back to school. 4. Obsesed with YouTube gamers and Twitch streamers. (Vanoss, H20... etc.) and also video games on Steam. 5. Saw a woman at a diner sitting alone waiting for her dessert writing on what looks to be her journal and got inspired to start journaling myself. I lost interest in writing for a long while now, but I thought instead of jumping straignt into writing a story, I decided to polish my writing skills by journaling and blogging. Plus, having a selection of cute notebooks motivates me. Only thing is, most of my thoughts are wicked so I'mma have to keep my journal from anybody.

Comment on what/who you were in your previous life!

Gong Xi Fa Cai Char Siew, eh WL?

13 credit hours?! Three day weekend?! 8:30 a.m class!? Boy...how I wish Mine is like Monday to Friday, 24 credit hours (or was it more? ) 8:00 a.m to 5 pm!!!

My time lol

Anyone up for an embarassing confession? I need advice on something. Not sure who I can confide in. Friends? Can't tell some of them and the ones I can stop replying lol. Definitely not family lol. PM me if you're curious or have the feeling to laugh at someone lol

Hey there! It's been a while since I last updated and talked to anyone here. Well, a lot has been going on, especially in school. I barely have time to do anything, so yeah, long story short, I've been very busy recently. BUT, I'm currently on holiday now for the whole week. So, I may be around here chatting or doing more updates or replying messages that I've neglected (I'm so sorry for that). Keep a look out for me lol

This...made my day LOL!! Cute boy btw. Whta id your friend is like testing u lol

life is cruel...

A lot to update actually this week but I'm too lazy to go into details To sum it up, I'll list them things instead. 1. Braces boy and I got along great, his sassy side came bursting out in the debate in HIV 2. Was angry at a friend whom I initially didn't like because she treats me like I'm her boyfriend or slave and never respect my time. 3. Found out that my other friend and I have way too much in common it's AWESOME, but she still won't go karaoke with me 4. Once again, my plans and my bestie from another faculty is ruined cuz I have a meeting with my supervisor who talks like a volcanic eruption in a whirlwind. 5. Sat for my first test yesterday, judging from the faces of everyone else, looks like we are all in deep shit 6. I'm starting to play The Sims 4 again 7. I need a belt and shoelaces

Owh wow. I've been looking for adylt-youth stories too. Unfortunately i dont what story you're talking about but it sounds really good Welcome to GA btw

Aww happy birthday kitty plenty of hygs and kisses for you

Haha! Found 'em thanks I'm just curious lol cuz u have to admit he is cute

Okay so I have been seeing alot of this kid's picture on the net recently. I was just wondering if he may be some kind of Youtuber maybe or something like that. Does anyone know?

Monday is deemed to be the worst day of the week. Mine was especially horrible. I was called by the deputy dean and was given a penalty for not going to last week's stupid activity. I was told to once again, collect 20 signatures from my batch mates and also my seniors of year 2 to 5, plus all the nursing students from year 1 to 3. I was so pissed and I felt like I was being bullied, when I refused bullying. Last Saturday's activity was not only a complete waste of time, but it to me, it actually encourages bullying of the us juniors by seniors. My faculty actually gave permission and funded the whole session, where our seniors, especially those beastly second years who just had a taste of power, to throw eggs at us, make us wallow in mud like pigs, pour curry and vinegar on us, paint our faces with ink, splash us with cold water then dumped a whole load of flour on us. I have experienced all this in last, last Saturday's activity. It was stated that it was managed by the faculty, so I didn't expect such activities. But then, I was wrong. So, I made up my mind to not go for the next week's activity. Turns out that I made the right decision as my friends said it was worst and way more horrible than the one I did go to. But now, I have to pay the stupid penalty. I was so angry and broke down in my room. For the past 3 weeks in school, I have never been happy and I really hated everything then. Plus, I found out the following night that most of the Chinese seniors hated me for not going to their stupid outings (they were a bit racist as they want us Chinese to just stick with our own kind, which doesn't make sense cuz I'm not even fully Chinese and can't speak the language) and they were mad cuz they didn't get to throw eggs at me last Saturday. My so-called Buddy won't talk to me and wanted me to to do some stupid tasks before she'll give me soft copies of last year's lectures. By this time I was fed up. I simply ignored them and carry on with my life. I did the stupid penalty, finish all my assignments, and now I'm starting to feel happy I have found my group of friends, I've started my first Japanese class, which I really love, I paid for all my stuff, and I get to go home

Lol it might be i've found one in quotev, something to do with a taboo lol

So, I was back on Wednesday night and I had trouble sleeping cuz my roomates wouldn't turn the lights off and had them on again way too early in the morning. I showed how annoyed I was, and it got better the following night. Had fun doing clinical lab work, the only class that does not seem to involve any stress. Found out that the seminar we were suppose to have in the late afternoon was actually BY us not FOR us. Turns out we have to organize a seminar and invite our lecturers to have them see us perform and allocate marks. Same thing for debate. Everything will be held on the 1st of October, a day before our monthly test. So, I will be very busy next week. But at least there is another holiday. Went to my bestie's room in another 'neighbourhood' and was completely culture shocked. The buildings were more like apartments and seem pretty neat...from the outside. The hallways were dark and eerie, and the facilities were...let's say 'well-used.' The only good thing about the whole area was the food court/market-like cafe that is livelier than most cafes around campus, excluding the main one at the library. I am more grateful for my room...and roomates after my short visit. P.S. found some interesting stories to read every night. P.S.S. I'm skipping tomorrow's activity due to the vulgar nature of it P.S.S.S. I've updated my sims 4 now I have all the stuff and game packs

Update: 1st Week of Lecture First day of class doesn't really feel like class at all. Maybe it's because we had to sit through continous lectures mainly on how we should and can change our attitude and behavior and develope a more professional image blah blah blah. Surprisingly, the only person who stuck with me through out the day was someone from my foundation program last year that I honestly didn't really like. But she stood by me and I appreciate her company and there might be hope of us being actual friends lol. Talked to waffles the cute boy and found that hey we could be great friends if only we have more time and chance to be stuck together lol but no. Well, at least he remembers my name lol. Turns out I wasn't the only one who tought he was cute Went to a public speaking session, turns out it was a class. I was shocked to hear the guy say "I'll see you all next week." I thought it was only a one time thing, turns out it's a subject we have to take for the module. I have to write a speech on something I believe in and present it next week. I'm writing about pet adoptions; why adopting is better than purchasing. So far, it's my least favourite class lol not because I hate speaking, but I hate writing...long, factual, essays. Nothing too interesting happened this week, I sucked at my first presentation but it was cool. Tomorrow's a holiday and I'm currently at home now, so, I have time to update. We'll see what's in store for me for the rest of the week.

Hello guys I know I haven't been around lately, and it sucks but I have been really busy at school. Well, not too busy, in a way. The main problem is I can rarely access GA due to it being blocked by the school's wifi system I could use my phone data, but it ran out Starting from next month tho I will be saving my data especially for GA and emergencies only and will fully take advantage of the school's wifi at all times So, here's a recent update of what's been going on this pass few days. I had been a little depressed because I couldn't find a group or a clique, or at least a person that I can really connect with and call a friend. Well, actually, I have a lot of friends, but they are all in different faculties (I lost my bestie to engineering well not really lost, it's just that it's so hard for us to meet we still text every night tho) and I do have friends in my own faculty. But not the kind of friends where you wait on each other in the morning, walk to the bus stop together, have meals together and gossip all night long. They were just...friends. People who I work and joke around with, sometimes. I did meet someone, but she didn't proof to be a potential buddy. I don't think she even remembers my existence. One day we do everything together, the next she completely forgets. Not that she is being mean or anything, it's just that...she seems empty inside. Almost brain dead lol And she's not really great company either. So, I'll pass. I had been very depressed the last few days because I still feel like I didn't belong, until....I finally decided to just go with the flow. No strings attached I got my work done on my own, I go to school in my own time, I did tedious tasks given by seniors alone (they are always surprised to see me knocking on their door asking for their signature alone while others would go in groups) and I enjoyed it. I get things done in my own time, and I don't have to drag/wait/worry/consider/spoon feed another being lol. But it doesn't mean I cut all ties with everyone else. I still greet and joke around with them, talk, but nothing too clingy. I decided to be positive about everyting and just go with it, and surprisingly, a lot of people came my way at the end. I was never actually alone througout the day. There's always someone or some clique that welcomed me. But of course, I didn't stay long. That's the beauty of going solo, you get to interact more with different people. Plus, I've finally talk to the cute boy with braces lol he sounds really sweet. A bit soft and gentle than the other guys, but he's alright. They treat him like their baby brother. When class starts next week, and we're finally divided into study groups, I'd be too busy to even think of being lonely. And if I'm lucky, I might make really good friends with my group mates (hopefully I'll be in the same group with Braces ) I just need a few days to adjust, and I'm sure I can handle things. I've done this before and I'll certainly do it again. The only thing that I will really miss is how my friends and I would usually just randomly hop onto buses and go to the mall and spend a fortune in games and karaoke That is all for now, and I will be on for the weekend, but starting on Monday, I may no be around again for the week. If I feel like it, I might make this a weekly kinda thing.