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Hehehe, it's a secret! But youmight be surprised!

I'm sure it's hard to believe that I'm a perfectionist with all of the careless mistakes I make on a weekly basis! Hehehe! But as far as emotional impact and theme...it seriously frustrates me to not be able what I want to say with every single word that I write. I always want people to see it, hear it, feel it...you know? It can be really difficult sometimes. I have to say tat "Empty Corners" has been a MERCILESS teacher in how to write a huge story from beginning to end. It's taught me sooo much in pacing and plot and arc and character that I've never done before. I've been taking months longer than I wanted to, but it's mostly because (for me) it's like writing my very first "New Kid" chapter all over again. I'm writing it the way I would a movie. And it's hard to find just the right balance. But overall...I've truly enjoyed the experience. Even though I'm ANXIOUS to put this baby to bed and get back to being me again online! LOL! you guys will have to be the judge in the long run. But....if I get this story just right, I'm hoping that it will truly be something original and enlightening on a level that I've never reached before. And that's a difficult level to reach, but what is life without challenge, right? Hehehe! Anyway, just wanted stop by and say hello! It's been forever since I've been able to do tat! Love you ll! And I will seezya soon! The Shack is 13 years old (as of June 19th)!!! And I've got amazing things planned for this Summer! So be ready!!! Laters!

LOL! @ Neph and Arbour! what kind of gang initiation did he NEED? Geez! And Bugeye??? LOL! As often as we've chatted before, are you kidding me? Knowing who you are? Psh! :: Slapz :: For that! Hehehe! I'm always around, even if I can't stay to play!

Hmmm....IN-teresting! I'll see if I have some 'magic' left then....

Hehehe, thanks, you guys!!! I promise that I haven't been slacking, just busy behind the scenes where you couldn't see me! that's where I love to be!

The Summer Celebration has begun! And it begins with a brand new chapter of "My Only Escape" on the Library! (http://www.voy.com/17262/) Enjoy! And let me know what you think! MUCH more to come! So keep an eye out!

Hehehe! It's about TIME!!! what took you so long, slacker! ((Hugs)) Congrats, bud!

Ohh, no, I have a laptop now, but I need them both, unfortunately. Looooong story, but I have to switch back and forth between them almost daily. There's a lot of stuff on the webtv that won't transfer over...which would be fine if it didn't include (literaly) THOUSANDS of emails! Saved and others that have yet to be answered. When I bought it, it was a Sony product...then Microsoft bought it (like they buy EVERYTHING), and now I can't move it over unless I do it one little thing at a time. Which would take me, approximately...umm...the rest of my natural life. Hehehe! That's why. But I fixed the postin problem this morning! So I'm looking to finally adding stuff to the site again on my own when I get the chance!

Sunday - You know, I started off this morning stressed out over how I was gonna break up with my soon-to-be-EX boyfriend, and it's still driving me nuts as I write this. Like...from the second I opened my eyes in bed, this growing tension was all I could think about. It made me kinda queasy in the stomach to have it weighing down so heavy on my shoulders, but I don't want to wait and prolong the agony this time around. After the big fiasco with Bobby Jinette, I didn't want to be dumb enough

Hehehe, I'm here! Just...the GA site does awful awful things to my system these days! I know that it works gret for everybody ELSE...but for me...it's sooooo much of a hassle to even click the link or try to post my own stories, that it becomes nearly IMPOSIBLE for me t participate like I want to.:: Pouts :: I'm sorry. I'll try to get online when I get more free time. But for now, this new system is too complex for me to really be here as often as I want to be. And that means I have to be absent more often than not, until I find a way to fix the problem. And I'm all alone on doing that, so it might be a while. BUT...come by the Shack some time!!! Http://www.voy.com/15900/ and you can find me there all the time! It's VERY easy to use, and it doesn't drive my system into epileptic FITS just trying to keep up with the advanced technology! So I'm there 5 days a week at LEAST! K? It's just easier for me to talk there, and post comments and all. I know it's different for most people...but that's where I am most of the time. K? ((hugz))

THANX!!! Free b-day cake and lollipops for everybody!!! The male strippers will be by later for added entertainment! ::Grins Wickedly:: Love you!!!

Thanks soooo much, dude! I've actually gotten some really cool comments on "Always" over the past few months, and would definitely love to pick it up again some time soon! When I first posted it, it was mostly ignored. I think folks were like 'eh...where's "GFD" and "New Kid"?' Hehehe! But yeah, I've been taking notes on it again, so who knows? Maybe I'll get inspired this Summer.

So if you guys have been missing all of the weekly posts, Chapters 240 through 247 are now all up on the site! ((Hugz)) THANKS, Myr!

Saturday - So....yeah. I'm kind of in a weird mood right now. Today wasn't what I thought it would be. And that's not entirely a bad thing. Not at all. But it's what got me feeling kinda down right now. I should just shake it off and forget about it. What was meant to be, will be. And what wasn't meant to be....well...whatever... Anyway, I did hear from Trace this morning. He just randomly called me out of the blue. When the phone rang, I naturally just figured that it would be Sam

Friday - I can't stop thinking about it. It's driving me CRAZY! I hardly got any sleep at ALL last night. I just kept tossing and turning, turning and tossing, thinking about Sam until it nearly drove me insane. I can't really describe the feeling. It's like...it's curiosity, it's fear, it's joy, it's confusion, it's doubt, it's horniness on a whole other level, and then more fear put on top of it. It was a really terrifying feeling. I mean...as much as I dreamed of something like this..

Thursday - Well, I'm getting ready to run out to Trace's house for the evening, but I sorta had an awkward day. I figured I'd start writing while it was still fresh in my mind. I kinda...had a 'talk' with Lee a few minutes ago. Um....yeah. It didn't really go the way I had planned for it to go. I mean...he was being extremely cute again today, more than usual. He must have sensed that something was wrong by the sound of my voice or something, because it kicked in instantly. I hate to say

Wednesday - You know, I did something really bold today with Trace, and I can't really tell if I, like...crossed a line or something. It was kinda scary, to be honest. But at the same time, I don't know if he really...rejected me or if he just thought it was funny the way that I went about bringing it up. I can never tell with him. Trace's smile is always super cute either way. There's something about his eyes that always makes me immediately picture him humping me. Hehehe, seriously! An

Tuesday - So....I did it. I talked to Brandon today. Not, like...in an email or something as 'distant' as all that. But face to face. In school, right before lunch. You know, just hearing his voice made me feel so good inside. You would have thought that it had been decades since we last talked. It's been so long since Brandon and I have really been civil to one another, that I kinda found myself being nervous about just approaching him in the hall. Kind of a 'worried' kinda nervous...bu

Monday - There's something about the word 'sorry' that carries a billion different connotations with it. Some apologies relieve stress, some solve serious problems, some are outright lies just meant to buy some time, and some are just words wasted on someone who simply doesn't care anymore. But today...the 'sorry' in the situation I was involved in really had a much deeper meaning than the usual 'spilled milk' response. And I took a lot of comfort in that, you know? I can't explain why. It

Sunday - I didn't sleep all that well last night. I kept waiting for it to be morning, and it just didn't seem to be coming fast enough. So I kept waking up for no reason, tossing and turning in the dark for a few minutes, and then going back to a shallow, not to mention 'pointless', level of sleep. I guess I had a lot on my mind. I was checking all day to see if Brandon had sent me another email. If maybe this could be like...an actual discussion, you know? But...nope. Nothing. Maybe th

If you need the library link, it's http://www.voy.com/17262/ and "Billy Chase" is right there near the top! Cool? Also, the previous "Billy" chapters that you might have missed are all on that list or in the older archives somewhere. I'm going to try to figure out this weird issue I have with the GA Stories update this weekend, and then I can get back to updating regularly on the site again. I was doing fine for a while, and then something went screwy on me. So I'll take some time and straighten it out. In the meanwhile, though...if you wanna read the "Billy" chapters today, that's where they'll be! Cool? Take care! And I'll seezya soon!

Hehehe, I made a movie poster for it, ya know? :D http://www.voy.com/15900/32901.html

Nope! You know me, always working in the shadows. Working, lurking, and jerking. Shhh! Anyway, I loved the reviews down below! I'll have to read more of Ronyx's stuff myself. I'm still catching up on everything, but my first novel, "Empty Corners" is finally finished, and in the editing stages. So I'm working to get it right, but that won't take half as long as writing it the first time around. It's roughly about the size of....hmmm....60 "Billy Chase" chapters! That's like the first half of "GFD" almost! But at least I can say I did it! Thanks so much for the poetry reviews too, and for not laughing at me too loud. LOL! I can now put this experience behind me, and let us never speak of this again. Anyway, I've got Easter weekend off, and I wanna use it to get everything back to normal. Tons to do! But I'll see you guys soon! Take care!

But the site has been doing things and having each and every week this year! Come by th message boards! Please??? I really am posting and interacting with folks each and every week! I'll try to update the 'announcement' things more often. But honestly....you guys can find me almost EVERY day somewhere on the site if you just stop by and look for me. K? Love ya lots! And I'll seezya soon (I HOPE!). Laters!

A smile on my face But sour taste in my mouth A laugh on my lips But sore cramps in my heart Evasion is my weapon Distraction is my key My joy is made of hurt feelings and sorrow But genuine nonetheless My comfort is the product of predictable pleasures and unwanted misfortunes. To understand me, a challenge To love me, a virtue To have expectations of me, a risk To have faith in me, a blessing. Believe.