I came home a couple of hours ago. Green and the kid were seated on the floor with big headphones listening to music. Green makes me angry some times I will admit. Before he took this kid in he called me and told me he was doing it. He didn't really ask me he just said he was doing it. I know this is his house ultimately but I feel like he and I are a team right now. I think it's great that he can help this kid and I find myself helping the kid too it's just well I would be nice just to be asked.
I mean maybe I am being overdramatic here but what's it going to be like when we get married. I want to know that he's going to trust me. I want to know that I can trust him like I do right now forever. If he cant trust me is it worth it for us to even be together?
Well I am talking to him now and I told him these in explicit detail. Yes we're good now. Thanks guys and please keep your questions coming.
My boyfriend it seems has fallen of the face of the earth. He left late last night and hasn't returned. SO if anybody has seen him tell him to get butt home or it's over between us. I hope this isn't one of his disappearing fits. Green if you are reading this wth!
Oh alright on another note I wanted to update you guys on our lives. My mother is a psycho apparently the white horse thing is her idea. I want to puke (Green did) all over this idea. We need some more questions we were hoping on ten good ones so ask them peoples.
Selene thinks she's planning the bachelor party but since we lost control of our own ceremony that is not going to happen. She had some idea including some dancers.
You will be glad to know that Julio and I have peace. He and I went out for lunch today and we spoke extensively about everything. He told me that he was so jealous of me. He also told me something that i didn't know. He knew that I was better for Green than he was and that at some point he had convinced himself of this so he took off. He also told me that he would always love Green but he would never come between us and that I shouldn't worry about that because he loves his current boyfriend.
My brother is doing well with the guy Green Knows. They have been dating and it seems like they will cross become boyfriends if they aren't already. My older brother is dating the bartender now and I couldn't be happier.
David and Steve had their first real fight but it was so cute because withing ten minutes they were both apologizing. Rob and the creepy guy have broken up. We know this because everyone at our school knows it as it happened with full flair at the student union. God that was so funny. Green didn't think so and he walked away but you couldn't tear David and me from there.
As for us we're happy. LOL when he's here that is.
I cant do this anymore, it's killing me! I see it on Green's face he misses this blog. It's like his own personal diary and I know he misses it. I know we decided to not post here anymore but I don't think that is fair for either of us. Plus I want to tell you guys how we got engaged.
Alright So I Miss It Too, sue me.
So we're coming back and we would really like to do this Q and A session so please PM some or add them here. (Remember no questions pertaining to our bedroom or where we live and go to school. We wont answer those)
WE LOVE YOU GUYS and we really would like to come back if you would have us...
My life was uneventful and very boring until Green came along. I used to be this shy kid that had a close nit friendship with a couple of people I've known since kindergarten. I used to be a goth (thank god I grew out of that because it really didn't suit me) with black hair and I loved to blend in the shadows. I used to love to just read myself into oblivion, then I meet the one person that changes my life. He leads me down a path of happiness and fear, or should I say emotional roller coaster of love and trust including some rough points that stretch us to the edge and back.
Today at lunch I thought about how much I love him as he embarrassed the hell out of me. He in one of his acts of Genius (see previous posts) dropped a whole plate of lasagna on my white shirt. This was of course followed by his insistence that he can eat it all back up which he proceeds to do by sliding under the table and coming up between my legs. Then as the manager kicks us out with a few choice words he tries to undress me in the middle of the street.
So now as my boyfriend (soon to be ex if he keeps undressing me in public ) sits watching me from the other side of the table, I contemplate how lucky I am to still have him here alive and healthy. I remember that night we went to see his family and we ended fighting his cousins. I truly felt like he and I were a team. Then that night we spent in that hotel room watching that guy who was missing his piece dance for that old couple. I wanted to kiss him so badly that night, I wanted him to be mine. Of course he belonged to someone else that night.
I am writing this because I am so very grateful right now. Grateful that he is going to be around for us to have a real heartfelt and meaningful relationship. I know it's only been five months but I am ready to be with him for the rest of my life. He is looking at me right now but he doesn't know I am writing this and he has ice cream on his shirt LOL.
The first time I kissed him was the easiest thing I had ever done but when he ignored me after that my heart broke. I wasn't right with myself. My mother told me to fight for him. My father told me that If I didn't get him they were going to disown me. So I did and now he is mine.
Then there was his whole disappearance thing (Oh he better not do that again or I will be forced to make him commit suicide) that had me worried until yesterday when they told me that everything is alright and his tumors are not cancerous. I read what he had posted the other day and I wanted to kill him. "How could he," I thought. I felt betrayed over this and I thank everyone out there that told my boyfriend Green that he was being a big idiot. I want to be there when he needs me as he's here when all of us need him. Believe it or not David actually took this harder than me and I got kicked out of my dorm over this. David was so angry that he really wanted to move. He almost really did even though we did it to teach him a lesson.
Now this whole Selene thing will not get me to leave my man. We have called it a truce somewhat but I know how she feels and she knows how I feel.
Every one seems distant today. Green is off studying for one of his projects. I asked David if he wanted to catch a movie with me today. He said he had already seen it with Steve. I was going to ask if he wanted to go get lunch and he said that he had plans to do just that With Steve. He did ask if I wanted to come, but I said no because I didn't want to a third wheel. I think Selene still hates me so I'm not going there.
I called my friend and he said he's coming but now I look at that as a bad Idea. He's going to come into my home looking for a reason to bash Green. It's not that Green has anything to be ashamed of. This house is actually very nice and Green is a neat freak. So you can imagine. He's not allowed In Dave's room anymore. Not that David's dirty but Green will look for dust under the floorboards LOL.
So I am contemplating telling my friend to meet me somewhere else. I Mean Green was nothing more than civil with him. I heard later on from one of my other friends and by reading what Green had written what had really happened. I just wanted them to like Green as much as I do. This makes me like my boyfriend so much more. He never made come close to his friends I just did without much effort I might add. They took me in as one of their own as I Imagine Green does with their significant others.
I come to realize that my friends are a bunch of judgemental snobs. They are so miserable in their own lives that they have to try and make every one else just as miserable. I am going to tell my friend this. If he wants to be my friend he's going to have to change his attitude.
We're having a great time here at the beach. It's still cold as hell but at least we are having fun. Selene finally found us we wouldn't have let her in but it was cruel to leave her out in the cold with her daughter so we let her in. Green and I love her daughter, she's so cute. Selene yelled at us because of the Dragon breath remarks we have made. I pointed out that neither of us lied. She thought it was rude of us to mention it. I wouldn't have if it wasn't for the fact that it kept me up all night.
We're going back home tomorrow and Green is leaving me to plan some surprise that I am really worried about. Though his surprises do tend to be very good. What bothers me the most is that Selene is in on it. I hope she's not still mad at me.
Green's been writing some stuff that seems very personal to him because he wont let me see it. It's this darkest day Mr. Black chapters. He even locked his laptop so I couldn't get in when he wasn't looking. I don't know I don't like this. He said he would let me see it when he was ready to but I know where the story is headed and I dont know why he would keep it from me. Oh well.
There are people here that seem to like the cold. There was one guy walking around with a tank top. Green wanted to go outside and yell at him. We walked by the water and met with Green's father for lunch. He who works near here. He took us out to eat Japanese food. I must say that I hate sushi but I do love spring rolls. Green almost choked on wasabi sauce. His father and I laughed until he got mad and almost choked on water. No I didnt laugh this time. This time I actually felt bad.
My boyfriend in a drunken act of Genius has hurt himself. Green fell down the stairs and broke his leg. My boyfriend thought that he could jump the last five steps. He hit himself with the ceiling and fell, spraining his ankle when he fell on it. He also has a concussion. Our trip is no more, but at least we get the house to ourselves. I get to cater to my wonderful but slightly stupid boyfriend.
I really don't know what compelled him to jump. I saw it in slow motion his head hit the ceiling and his body fell. I ran towards him so did Dave. He was unconscious for a few minutes and I freaked. Steve was already calling the ambulance. He came to before the ambulance got here but he was hurting because of his ankle.
He's at the hospital now and he has his laptop so say hi! This will only happen to Green hours before he has to take a trip, and he even found time to do his GAC duties.
My brother called me a few minutes ago. I asked why he was calling so early? He said he just wanted to talk to me. I said alright and walked away from the bedroom. Green is still sleeping so I didn't want to wake him. When I walked into the living room I found David and Selene sitting at the table as Steve made them breakfast. He asked me if I wanted some I nodded but I walked into the living room instead.
So we talked. He said that he wanted to speak to me about all of this. He told me that he was just so tired of being something he's not. I told him that I felt the same. When I met Green I felt like I was drowning in my own closet. I too came out because I couldn't deal with it any longer. I knew I was in love with Green from the first time I saw him. I told him all of this and I asked if there was someone he was interested in. He said yes and I asked him who it was, deep down hoping it wasn't Green or someone I knew for that matter. he told me who it was. It was a friend he and I have. He lives back in our hometown and he is supposed to be here tonight. He is most certainly straight.
I told him that our friend was straight and he seemed down. I told him that it's never that easy. I had to literally stalk Green just to get him to go on our first date. I invited him to the party tonight. He said He'd come. I know they're is going to be a lot of people here and maybe he can find someone to just talk to. I think my brother is just lonely right now. I know we all know how that feels.
David and Steve thought that it was a great idea. Selene did not but she kept quiet. I sat next to her and have her a huge hug. She softened a little after that. Green might object though, we'll see. I guess these people are also my family right now. Green has always made sure that his friends feel welcome in his home. David keeps saying that Green saved his life. We all know he saved my older brother's life. I also yelled at Selene for bringing up Green's ex and comparing me to him. David didn't know about this so he gave her a disappointed look. She apologized for that.
Steve is still mystery to me. He and I haven't talked too much. I guess green and David knew him from high school. Green was a wee bit mean to him. I know this though he can cook a great stack of pancakes. Blueberry pancakes that is.
I am going to try to get some sleep. I just wanted to add this because it's my first real post under my name.
