Hunter Thomson

That's good to hear. I suppose being busy isn't necessarily a good thing, but that may be something you prefer? I've started to miss work, and I have no idea what day of the week it is anymore now that I don't have classes to teach. I'm doing well, I'm locked in my room doing battle with my thesis. It's winning, as per usual. At least this time I'm putting up some actual effort and opposition to the crushing feeling of never being finished.

I first seek to understand that which I don't understand. That way I can understand and make it better Besides, asking questions creates conversations, and conversations mean I get more time with you, mister Drew

Hello molly, how are you!? Always nice to be here with everyone

Thank you kindly sir, I'm doing well. It seems that I'm able to survive summer temperatures after all, or at least I haven't been rendered a housebound shut in quite yet. There's hope for me yet 😛

Hello everyone, I hope your Sunday is going well.

But why though? <pounces Drewy> Hi you!

😮

Are you officially "pudding" now?

I'm okay, thank you though Thorn

I'm glad you had an empowering experience this year at Pride

My mother has a stack of tupperware that's about 2'x2'x3'. Like 12 cubic feet of tupperware is too much. When I finally bail outta here I'm taking my share

It's okay, he's probably gone back to his real home now. Doubt you'll see him again.

just trap him in a tupperware or something and evict him from the house. He'll be fine, and so will you.

Wow. That's quite a welcome. Thank you everyone, it's good to sorta be back? How is everybody?

I haven't decided how long I'll continue to see them, its all so new to me still. I'm glad that you have someone that you trust to help you, tim. My person does use gendered pronouns for themselves, but I prefer to keep that quiet for now. Everything is interconnected, but it feels like we're only scratching at the surface so far. I guess the really hard stuff comes later, once there's a measure of trust that's been built. One of the things we've been talking a lot about is my expectations, and how those aren't always reasonable. I'm working hard at trying to scale my expectations to be based on achievements, not on timetables or other arbitrary information. Take care of yourself as well, my friend.

Hello everyone. I'm back again, sorta.

Oh nonono, I would not be okay with that. Global help wants to do something, they let me know first before they start fiddling around without my knowledge. I'm glad it helped fix things for you, but that's over one of my lines.

Therapy. Counseling. Mental health. Talking doctor. Whatever your choice word for it, that seems to be where I've landed. BEFORE THE PANIC SETS IN, I'M FINE. Well... that's a relative term, but there's no need to worry about me. I've been feeling depressed and uncertain about my future for a long time now, and it's getting in the way of my work. It's not what I thought it would be. For one thing, I don't come close to fitting on the damned couch. My person seems to like cognitive behaviour therapy. They're challenging me. Making me articulate what I believe, where those beliefs came from and how they affect my life in subtle and not so subtle ways. I don't know what I'm supposed to feel after sessions, though I'm going to guess that having sore legs is not typical. I don't like feeling so exposed. It's good for me to think about the things they're having me think about, but the way they stare at me... I feel like a science project run amok. They look at me the way I look at a particularly dismal essay response, just sitting there studying it, trying to figure out what to do with it. It's been very superficial so far, we're still establishing who we both are in the process and nobody seems interested in delving too deeply into my childhood, which is a kindness. I do think I chose well. My person has a similar background to me, at least in some ways. I confess I don't know them overly well yet, but we both have sports and being LGBTQ in common, so I can talk about those sorts of things much more freely than I otherwise would. More to the point, I don't have to explain things about my athletics frustrations because they get it, they've been there and can talk to me about those same issues from my own perspective instead of just a counselor's perspective, which can feel patronizing at times. It's only been a couple of sessions, but it seems to be helping? I have some more motivation to do things that I need to do for work and for school. I'm not lapsing into melancholy each night and questioning everything I do. I still have a LOT to work through though, and it's nice to have someone who can help me work through things. Anyways, that's me. I guess this is my new project now, fixing myself. Yay me.

Yes, the weather really does need to just figure itself out and decide what it wants to be. Who's to know? CDC isn't great at giving me information on a timely schedule. But I think I'm okay? Will know for sure in a week and a half when I get new test results in. Until then I'll just stew here and wait for my first session of counselling next week. Ooooh, graduation! Yes, I can't help but notice that all the kids I teach have a severe case of senioritis. I hope your youngest hasn't gotten too severe a case! Soon the lazy summer days will be back upon us

Hello hello Berty! That's good to hear Pagey!

I'm doing alright. Had some bad medical news lately so I'm stressing out, which is just making things worse. How are you m'dear molly?

Good luck and good sleeping to you!

Hi there, how's everyone today?

Hello everyone, how are we doing today?

It is hard to stay motivated these days, I understand your lack of willingness to engage with the material right now.