Jeff Burton

@spike382 is he always this paranoid?

Me bully? Never.

See, I was almost feeling sorry for it. But I knew all I had to do was wait to feel vindicated again #teamspike 😂

#teamspike

Yeah this wasn't bad for a total accident lmao.

It's more like Ben's mental state is the autobiographical part. I just wove the back story so all the emotions, made sense. My actual story I don't feel is as tragic as his, (maybe if I wrote it and people read it they'd probably disagree) but what I went through mentally is exactly the same for the most part, except I left some stuff out because it was pretty dark.

I picked apart the quote so I could respond to them better. 1. I appreciate this one, sad part is everything I wrote in chapters 5, 6, and 7 on Ben's mental state I wrote from direct memory. The scenarios were way different but the bone crushing stuff yeah that was me. I have found quite unfortunately is that the stories that have the best descriptions of that kind of trauma the authors went through it themselves, I am no different. 2. This was intentional from the get go, I really wanted to include Ben in some of Chris's stuff in LIS but thought against it since it's seen primarily through Nathan's eyes. 3. This chapter could have actually been worse. I dialed it down by half the original version I'm saving for another story down the road. 4. He is so much like me, I get mad at him. I just want to yell at him to stop and think, then I remember he doesn't know any better just like I didn't. This character makes me hurt sometimes. Eventually I'm going to do a story touching on the theme of abusive relationships because that too is something I need to get over. That ones going to be rough.

When I was 19 I was in therapy (again) and my therapist asked me "if you could associate a story or nursery rhyme with how you feel what would it be." and I answered honestly. "Humpty Dumpty." The look he gave me when I recited only the last line "all the kings horses and all the kings men couldn't put humpty back together again. That's how I feel." I was a smart ass, part of me still is. I'd like to think it isn't still true but some days, it is. I have no idea what part of your comment made me think of that but there you go lol.

I do too she's literally the only author I've read that can spend four pages describing something to the point that I forgot the characters were in the middle of a conversation lmao.

I can finally answer this question. Yes.

I KNOW RIGHT! If I was visited by the dead ghost and they showed me something better believe I'd be looking the second I woke up lol (after I changed the sheets because I pissed myself)

Probably not because Life in Suspension started 2 months after this Chapter give or take. Plus the LIS Chapter I'm working on is just so darn cute I'm still trying to find a way to make someone miserable (GOD I HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT)

Oh I've been waiting for you to comment. You are absolutely correct. Technically I could have ended it after Chapter 7 as well, and I did think about doing just that. I'll see what I feel like doing for chapters 9 and 10, I know I wanted to make it to at least 10 before I attempted to wrap it. I'll think about it and if suddenly the story status goes to complete, well there's your answer.

I swear Comicality is the gift that keeps on giving even after he's gone. I wouldn't be here doing this if it wasn't for him, and another. @empath You are most certainly welcome. My other stuff tends to make people cry for some reason so be warned. Also I do my fair share of stalking as well

Nathan's cameo was just to add some gasoline to the fire, I actually wish I had mentioned Ben's name earlier in the other story but couldn't because it would spoil some things that are coming. Speaking of Nathan, that story will be next to get a chapter update.

Yes you did. All of my characters will end up running into each other in unexpected ways especially once the timelines start matching up. And yes poor Gavin. He himself is going to need a therapist if I keep slinging my mentally challenged characters at him.

I'm saving my comment replies for when you get to the current chapter lol.

Unfortunately this is what happens when you have zero support at that age. Sometimes I wonder how I managed to cope with it all, then I remembered that I didn't. Ben certainly has more support than I did, now if he could only open his eyes and see that.

Also James I have no idea why I'm so stuck on this quote lately, the first time I read it I died laughing and now I just keep coming back to it for inspiration.

You couldn't find a better place to be than here. No two roads we walk are the same, so our only want and wish is for a safe journey to our destinations.

I didn't get much sleep that night, and what little sleep I did get just wasn't enough. In my bouts in-between sleep, I tossed, I turned, the sinking pit I had been feeling in my stomach growing exponentially. I felt horrible about what had transpired between me and Alex, yet I didn't know the cause. It was like some monster had completely taken over, and had shoved my own consciousness, my own being aside. I remembered the phone call with Josh that previous Saturday and felt the same sinki

I swear every chapter makes me ask even more questions than the one before. If I had come across this as a finished product it's a story I would literally read in one sitting, because I wouldn't be satisfied till I got my answers. Damn good job man.

Morning Al