mastershakeme

I don't want to do 38 more chapters. No thank you. No, just trying to close this story. Goddamn it's time

Yay! That's basically exactly the note I wanted to end on, ok, just good for me, that's what I wanted I guess 😂

I feel like this was a hard chapter for me. Whether it was Shaun's choice, or my own mental health that was messing things up, I'm not sure. Just... glad to finish it.

Where? Too much snow 🌨️😂

I'm not sure what to say 😂

Shaun stared up at the ceiling. He hadn’t slept. Not really. Jesse was sprawled half on top of him, warm and heavy, one arm flung across Shaun’s chest, breathing slow and even. Shaun’s own arm had gone numb hours ago, but he hadn’t moved. He’d been lying there for what felt like forever, watching moonlight fade into the gray light of dawn, his mind running itself in circles. It had been about four hours since he’d crawled back into bed. Five a.m. now. Maybe later. From d

It's been a nightmare for two weeks. Two weeks of emotional rollercoaster ups and downs! I've been an absolute monster. Sorry. But I have been. And my boyfriend.....he's been a fucking rock. I don't know how he's even still here. But Joey's just chilling on the couch like nothing happened at all. And I love him so much for it. I love him because he never judges me and he always stays for the bad parts. Its different from the love I had before. This one... it feels more secure. My grandma, the lady who worked at a kids bookstore when I was little and who is most likely the #1 reason I love stories so much, the lady who loved me through my worst, the lady who taught me what unconditional love was, she gave Joey her blessing, too, right before she died. I remember her watching us cook together in her kitchen. We'd only been a couple a few months at that point and we were bumbling around, me snapping and impatient, trying to be perfect like always, and him, fucking up and laughing anyway, totally unbothered like usual 😂 We were still learning each other, but grandma was smiling and she said she thought we worked well together even in all that chaos. She died a month later and everything changed dramatically. For the worst for a while. For a long while. Then slowly, it got better again. So I guess it's just another rough spell. I guess that happens in life. Things go up and down. Things get better than worse than better again. That's what everyone says, right? I could just cry... Joey's not very good with words, but he's romantic in his own way. He says the same thing every time I have a bad spell, "I'm not going to give up on you," And really, that's the most romantic thing I think I've ever heard. So next chapter on PBAB has been slow going 😅 Despite my cheerful predictions weeks back. Fucking kicking myself for saying that shit now. I said I was superstitious, but I basically jinxed myself publicly! Ha! ~13k have been written in two weeks. And honestly, who knows if it's any good. My mind's been so fractured. I've been so upset. The good times have been so brief, they were like fever dreams.

Oh, and Twinless is REALLY good and psychological. My idea is NOWHERE close to as good 😂 This movie tricked me!!!!

I'm watching Twinless and OMG! Good premise but then THEN things changed!!!!! Anyway, I got an idea and it makes me happy 😊💡 I am alone and laughing maniacally 😂 feels good 😁

Just lazy and chaotic like usual. Who are we kidding? Me blaming Chrome 😂

@drpaladin I have Chrome with a native spell check installed but there's also Grammarly. Browser's a mess. Also, laziness

I'm going to die right now! That's just me trusting spell check! Argh!!! buries head in sand!!!!

Since I don't actually know you or have seen you in person, maybe. Looking into my mystical ball... 🔮 Something about you makes me strive for perfection. Why is that? Why do I get scared when I see your comment? That is what interests me. Man, I love this site. I feel so lucky I'm here 😭 The internet is a lonely place, but you guys really are a community here. It's really cool.

See, you say that... but that's not the vibe I'm getting 😂 You are definitely a character.

So are you really rigid and strict? What are you??? You spark my interest so much. Stop it!

I hate my humity. Not kidding. It's still the new year and I'm happily planning my projects for the year! But... I'm pretty sure I can't accomplish everything! It's impossible! PBAB - I said I'd finally finish this beast. It's what I ended the year working on and it's what's on my desk now. It is so so close to the end. But it's also about to go over 700k! So, when will I ever find the time to go back and edit? Probably NEVER! KTM - I left it halfway done in October 25, around 200k, but I hit a plot point I'm not emotionally ready to tackle, so.... it's just gotta take a break. Sorry everyone! Arcum Nights sequel - SUPER excited to do a next gen sequel. It's my first sequel ever! OMG I've got such great, dramatic ideas! So much delicious conflict!!! I wanna start as soon as PBAB is done!!!!!! ARGH!!! But I also said I'd do a self-published book, and stop shooting myself in the foot all the time! I've got several standalone novel ideas, but it feels really distant. And that's crap. (I was thinking maybe sci-fi, either aliens or scary advanced AI. Two ideas!!!!) Oh, and I think I should challenge myself and do a sports fic. Because those seem pretty hot in gay fiction, ya know. I said I'd do it last night as a challenge when I was looking at Heated Rivalry. But, yeah, I'm already clearly overloaded. (The only one who heard me say this was my bf, so... yea.) Do I also have time for the short story anthropology??? Cuz I've got an idea!!! It's not due til October! Yes, but NO! Can I please exit my body now and focus on my work? I don't have time for human things like eating/sleeping/mood swings/pain/dish washing! Maybe trying to plan out my year was a bad idea. It's certainly exciting to think about. I suppose more ideas are better than none. But, really, I'm just thinking all the time now "I should get to work. I should make something. What I'm doing right now is pointless." Real life kinda makes me mad, too. I'm in fantasy land all the time. Like, I'm BUSY! Am I in fact setting myself up for failure??? Because I am a human. I have to take breaks. I've been breaking all week and I'm not super happy about it, but I HAD to. 😭 I just want to meet all my goals! UGH! I NEED TO FOCUS!

Awww! Such a cute image!!! I had an apartment like that once, all empty, but full of love ❤️ And I will be back to this thread if my laptop gets wet. And I will be pointing fingers 😂😆 Going to knock on wood right now!!! I am very superstitious

Of fucking course

Yeah, Galaxy S24+. It's waterresistant 😂. I have the security plan. Replaced for a 100! Electronics are the only thing I'll spend money on, screw clothes and purses and stuff.

Ohhh, so the reason my phone is so adverse to water is because it's android 😒 I was trying to watch movies in the shower cuz I'm dumb and one day, the port said it was wet and it never functioned the same again. 1000 dollar phone now a brick. I'm so jelly!!!!! But at the same time, I like all the weird apps I can download with android! I'm just... really stuck on Samsung for some reason. but omg that watch ejecting water sounds cool. Might have to look that up. I've always thought the watches were a little extra, but.... COOL FEATURE. and when I saw this post, I looked over at my laptop... I had two giant styrophome cups with sprite sitting on top of it. So, yea, I don't know how I've avoided the liquid in the keyboard, but, now I feel like it's gonna happen for sure.

Not yet. But it's coming!

I was in the shower yesterday missing my phone... I am a fish but I like electronics too! They need to make them be friends!!! Faster!

I'm kinda laughing just at the idea you've had this happen twice! I'm not saying I don't have beverages around my computer, but, I haven't spilled-- OK, I'm shutting up now! Not gonna spill 😂

I mean, I played along with some Indian call center guy for a bit. He wanted me to let them in my computer by putting in some code... But I kept getting it wrong! Over and over. The guy was really upset. Good times 😂

I got them to hang up once because I was "childish" 😂 they actually lectured me.