Blue Dhalia

AJ isn't a boyfriend... not the type. But, I understand the excitement of that first good kiss! 💋

Yet again.. all of the chaos and noise in his world is silenced by the soft romantic beauty that is Brandon. I wonder if Billy realises that no matter how bad his life gets.. as soon as he mentions Brandon.. it all just fades away in his romantic little statements about the prettiest boy in school. 💜

Hmmm... I wonder what Brandon meant by that statement.. "Well, I really meant that, ok? I can understand why he wouldn't want me hanging around you and stuff. So I just...I wanna be a friend. Ok? I just like taling to you, Billy." hmmmmm... maybe Brandon secretly likes Billy and somehow thinks that he is with Sam considering that they are almost always together? 😉

Yet another perfect thing about Brandon.. and yet another reason why I would love to find my own Brandon. I'm feeling so much more connection with Billy in these past two entries.. he's a great guy.. just really unprepared for the world around him.

First I have to say "YAAAAAY!!!! Billy and Brandon exchanged numbers!!! The next level has been completed!!!" Now... I just have to say that you wrote the attempted suicide of Jimmy in a truly beautiful way. I'm not trying to sound like an asshole or heartless.. as someone who has made more than one attempt in my past.. you put so much caring and so much of a truly honest reaction from Billy in it.. it really was exquisitely written. I knew it was going to happen with Jimmy.. because I gave away a lot of my things to friends and fought my enemies and came out with big smiles and everything a few days before my first suicide attempt. That's an extremely difficult thing to write about.. and you expressed it beautifully from Billy's perspective! Very well done ❤

It's beyond obvious what is going to happen with Jimmy. AJ reminds me of a guy who seriously hurt me when I was younger.. he used me and then threw me away..so, I think Billy should run like hell from that charming little snake! I always get this little warm and beautiful feeling inside every single time Billy talks about Brandon. I seriously wish I could find a guy that makes me feel the way Brandon makes him feel inside. I've always longed for a man around my age that makes me feel like that. 💙💙💙 sorry.. just got a little carried away with the nice feeling.

Gotta admit that I'm proud of Jimmy finally getting some revenge for the tournament he endured for so long. But he's a lunatic.

Perfect chapter on all the ways that a teenager would react to every single moment! ❤❤❤

Aahhh... Brandon... the sweetheart. 💙

Billy Billy Billy... why can't you just grow a pair and go after Brandon already?💙

I love how he talks about Brandon.. I would be obsessed too if I had a guy like that around that I liked that much and he so obviously liked me too. 💙

With Jimmy.. you can't save them all.. just leave it alone. Simon.. he's just trying to work things out in his head.. leave it alone. And AJ.. RUN LIKE YOU'RE ON FIRE!!! And as far as Brandon... go for it! For God's sake he is perfection!!! And you already know in your head past all your bullshit worries that he likes you too!!!💙💙💙

RUN BILLY RUN!!!

If he only knew indeed. I would never be so damn dense! 💙💙💙

Run away from the hottie at the mall Billy!! Run away as fast as you can!!! That's always a dangerous road!!

I truly adore the way Billy talks about Brandon. Its just so beautiful and perfect.. like poetry.

I love how even though he got to see Jamie almost naked.. he still made his top priority thought all about Brandon. 💙 Sounds like me when I have a boyfriend.. even the hottest fully naked man on earth could never hold a candle to my man... especially if he were as perfect as Brandon.

First dates are never easy.. they're always clumsy and stuttering.. it's good that he had fun. Brandon would have been a better first date... but I think they would have both had heart attacks early on!! Lol. 😁💙

I agree with the comment above.. but my favorite "thought" was when he's describing how image is everything. I wish it weren't true.. but it is.. and not just in school. It's sad how many wonderful people are overlooked simply because they don't have some beautiful outer shallow features. 😔

I honestly love this chapter.. I hate that Brandon is being standoffish with Billy.. but I love the comedy of Billy's reactions to this girl! He's making out like he just accidentally parachuted into a full on war zone without a weapon and both sides are at war with only him! Lol. It isn't that damn bad. Lol

I understand how he feels completely about this situation. The crushing girl won't go away because she has a crush, he can't make her go away because he may get too close to outing himself, and the all too perfect Brandon is being chased away by the ridiculous gossip that Billy is now going to date a girl. Such a headache for poor Billy 😔

I have been there... had a few girls liking me.. and chased some male interests away. He'll be okay though... just a little speed bump. 😉

I've had that kind of dream more than once! If only I had my own Brandon.. wow.

His take on the internet had me laughing to the point of tears!!!😂😂😂 and there goes more of the "perfect Brandon" description ❤❤

Thank you so very much dear.. I'm just trying to handle it on my own. But I truly appreciate your offer.. really 😊❤