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Thank you, it's something that was in my head one morning when I woke, I'd written it even before having coffee I just had to get it out.

Yeah, I know. I've only just woken up, but something feels different. My face feels numb but why? Never mind. I'll get up and shower. That will make me feel better. Why do my arm and leg feel so heavy? I've never felt this bad before. Just stand, get out of bed. This isn't good. It feels like something is pressing on my chest, making breathing difficult. Why is this hard today why? What's happening? Oh god. I'm going to fall. …..... My head hurts. Why can't I move? Why is my breathing

A short about death, The Last Goodbye, as possibly seen from being on a different plane, not the living plane. Not so much a story as an impulse written on waking, something I need to get out of my system. Was it a dream? A vision? A communication from beyond? I don't know, maybe you do.

A little bit of seems to be creeping in in the letter writing, that's good as that is a natural progression. The change of direction of topics is typical of young teenagers and makes more realistic. I don't know if that was intentional but adds to the character dimension.

The cute nervousness is still coming across in a good way, and I like the little clues that they are giving each other that could lead to recognition. Is this the start of a new and real friendship?

I like the opening concept of this style of story telling, the nervous awkwardness is there just the same as meeting someone first time when face to face, I'm looking forward too seeing how this progresses.

All good coffee's, but you can't beat Lavazza made fresh with cream and demarara sugar mmmm it's delish.

I hope the headache passes soon, take care

I guess you're wearing the boots, I'd be out making snow angels, lol

wow, hope I'm not on that list I'm usually a good boy lol

sorry about my reaction to your comment, it's just that I can't help but chuckle at some of the banter in here, lol

Hi everyone, sorry I've not been on for a bit I've just been down a lot and trying to deal with it all. As they often say things get worse before they get better, well now I getting to grips with things. I've just popped in to let you know that I haven't forgotten anyone or the support that you all have given me, and there are a few things that I've had to put right on the site. I'll be back on from time to time and hope that you're all ok.

Hi @Hasren, @Reader1810 has given you the answer that you need but I feel that I must make a comment about your post, please don't refer to yourself as a 'no nothing newbie' , nobody on here is a 'no nothing', your just a newbie and a welcome newbie too, welcome to the site.

I don't have the words to express how I feel, but thank you from the family and myself. ❤️

beautifully written, and in a way you did write together as you wrote it with moggy in your heart.

Victor you are right to be angry and it is a healthy sign that you are, with help you can channel that anger into determination which will begin your path to being a survivor. You were sexually assaulted, do not doubt that, acknowledging what happened takes you further along the path to recovery. As for being wrong about being sad that this is your first sexual experience? No it is not wrong, it is natural to feel that way. Maybe it would be helpful to try to look at it from a different angle, this was not a real sexual experience, it was assault and it is natural to feel sad about any assault. A real sexual experience should be a loving one and should be experienced with full consent, he did not have your consent and so he stole from you, if you can see it as the theft that that it was it may help. Is it considered sex? No it most definitely is not, as @Valkyrie has said it is rape and assault, as such like I have already said it is also a type of theft. As also previously said it should be reported to the police. It is natural to think about this or any form of assault, do not doubt that, with the right help you will think about it less, but it does need help and time. By telling us about your feelings and what you been through you have already taken the first step to recovery and being a survivor. Seeing the Psychologist will be your next step, the help that you will receive there will help you find the strength to complete your journey. If it helps then remember that you have our support and you are welcome to ask for and draw on that support any and every time that you need it. I wish you well and wish that I could be of more help to you.