James Albert

I'm gonna wait for Graeme to add, since there's nothing difficult about it. =P

My first crush was Rachel Weiss, or at least her character in "The Mummy." I liked her extremely British personality. But, when I realised I was gay, i must say my first celebrity crush must have been...erm...Ben Affleck i think (I'm a little ashamed now) i like him in "Dogma" (at least until he went on a killing spree)

Have to say MSN, seen as though i don't use yahoo messenger White or wholemeal bread??

I agree with everyone else, that was really very brave of you. My friend use to have a really big crush on her best friend, they were really close, and you could tell that there was a chemistry. She wasn't brave enough to tell him about her feelings untill he came out as gay and she knew nothing could come of it. I suppose a lot of people get into these kind of situations, but only the few brave people actually come out and tell their friends. Whats even braver is that you came out as gay at the same time. I admire you, i really do.

I hope someone contributes to the story soon, i'm missing my usual installments =(

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just reading the latest (Y)

Thanks, i get the whole ratio thing, what i was asking was where do i find out how many views the post has had, i think i'd probably have to look in the lounge next to the topic right?? Well i had to post anyway, dont want to spoil the game.

My boyfriends visiting as he does most weekends, i'm really excited

I use the term "heart" loosely. I dont mean to directly refer to the organ in our bodies, i use it as a term of a place where our feelings are, if you believe that you feel with your head (as i do) then thats where i was referring to. I used the term heart because most people relate it to feelings, and i wanted to relate it specifically to feelings, not just thoughts.

I thought Bondwriter had further contributed to the story, so no new add again. Can someone tell me how we're doing on the replies:view ratio?? i'd much appreciate it, i'm sure after i've posted this i'd find a way to find out for myself, but anyhow

I can't say i believe that home is where the heart is. I have lived where i do now my entire life and have resented this for a long time. I suppose it could have something to do with the specific location, but i think that i am simply bored with my life here. Every day i recognise shared identities with the previous day, and in turn, the one previous to that, and these are not simple things such as, the way i brush my teeth in the morning or the bed i get into at night, but are very specific things such as, the person i see on the street, the time my phone rings at night and so on. Another contribution to my great dislike of my current location is that, a lot of people know my name and my business around here, there is not place you can go and simply be anonymous to everyone, a thing i find great solice in. I would love to leave my home and find somewhere new and exciting where i can start all over again, and am saddened by the thought that i will constantly be tied to this place because the majority of my family live here and love it. I think i could find a home anywhere but here and so in conclusion to my little rant, i suggest a simple phrase reversal in that, home is not where the heart is, but instead "The heart is where home is."

I think this forum would provide a lot of help to everybody. I myself have found it helpful in changing my own outlook on the relationship i'm in. I'd like to thank everyone who has posted, its been very interesting to be able to see all of the different perspectives. However i do have one question, which again relates to the topic of alcoholism. My boyfriend drinks alcohol, not a lot, and he's not been drunk since i've known him. However, i keep pestering him about his drinking, it worries me that he might one day become addicted and ruin both of our lives (although this is very far fetched.) He has done nothing to change his habits except reassure me that our future is safe and he will never allow it to get out of hand. So then i suppose my question is, should one person give up a luxury that they are used to for the sake of another persons paranoia?

Was reading, felt obliged to add, going now, bye