thatboyChase

bold makes me lol, most bodybuilders thighs touch and they are at their optimum of body fat etc. but then again,I have no idea what "thighs" touching means, it sounds kinda gross hahaha. you should go to the gym, or at least run and tone up, you don't need to get buff, there is a gigantic difference. I can help you with this, if you want.

are you serious right now with the thing on the tv in the background

Get well you, we still need to explore more Elijah together.

I get a boner at 0:52 and onward

its pretty late, I should be asleep. i've been legit sober for about 2 days now, no weed and I don't drink enough (right now) to even count that. the reason for that is I have zero money and neither do my friends so we can't pinch a sack. if I had money I would clearly purchase, but---- the feeling is nice to be 'sober'. I say that loosely as there are people in the world whose sober days are way more intense than my pussy crap. my head feels pretty heavy but its nice to know i just haven't done it. it gives me satisfaction, maybe even a drop of happiness. my parents have been gone for about 2 and a half weeks now and holy shit is it boring. I guess I don't appreciate my parents enough because I want them to come home. yeah screw their silly rules and regulations, i like having other warm bodies around the house. granted while they were away the mice were at play. plus I had to do laundry and clean the dishes and take care of the cats, ugh work to be done by women (my mom). they come back thursday. back to satisfaciton, men satisfy me. they sure f**king do. lately (the past 3-5 months) I have found myself heavily picking apart my relationships with friends and categorizing them. I keep telling myself that because I am slowly getting older that I need to view things different instead of looking at it like a kid I guess. Sometimes I'll have a train of thought that will just plow through my brain for no reason, out of the blue. and to be honest I sometimes confuse reality with other things. to me thats more interesting than professional response of you might need help. I daydream so much now, I almost want to go to sleep so I can chase my dreams because I haven't had a solid dream for a while now a LONG while. I know dreams are very whimsy and you can remember and not remember. I read that smoking pot ruins your REM sleep cycle. anyways, I daydream and it leans heavily to sexual shit. Even while I'm out and about, undressing people with my eyes, christ I do that all the time now even to my friends. I look at my friends now I want to f**k at least a few of them. I try to think up situations in which I could pull that off to, weirdo<---. I haven't gotten ass in a few weeks, maybe that could be it, but I sure am horny. i'm horny for like, physicality. throwing someone up against a wall and eating off their face (see: making out) latenight hook-ups. I'm suprised I haven't looked at craiglist, thats pretty shady but I know better. And I wouldn't say I am desperate, usually my pickiness is unfair. my mind has just been going in all sorts of directions lately and its fun and slightly frightening at the same time. I wonder if anybody else has this, but; I have a friend, he and I hang out often. I think he is so delicious. I undress him with my eyes all the time and I'm pretty sure he is clueless. Who knows, but I just look at him, something to look at, to day dream about. I'll probably never get some, and come to think of it when I try to think of him in an intensly sexual way, it usually just drifts away. I have no idea why. I know it'll never happen but I don't care that it won't. He and I have kissed before, but that was in passing, I'm pretty sure he still remembers though which kind of gets me high. I do think of others in blissful euphoria, wrapped away with me in bedsheets, but this one with its feeling came to mind first. I just like to think about it, I like to think to that point were there is a connection but I sever it because... I don't know. I don't see it romantically, which is all fine and dandy. Many of you look at people on any given day and have some sort of sexual fantasy played out in your mind. I think I'm running in circles trying to explain this as the exact feeling is hard to describe. Certain things he does will annoy me but ONLY because I look at him in a way beyond some sort of friendship. You know, those little stupid things back in grade school when the boy or girl you were crushing on sat across the table from you instead of next to you and you get that slimy feeling in your stomach, like that. Perhaps it is not as dire as it was then back in grade school, but the feeling is still there. It annoys me when I feel it because I know it is connected to me wanting his ass all for myself. Its a bit twisted and selfish actually, now that I think about it. I don't lose sleep over this, no. Its just a game I play in my mind disproving my affections toward others, trying to figure myself out, the best person who knows you is YOU right? this is just one of the various things I want to sit down with somebody and just talk to them about, I think that would be a therapist/shrink whatever, but I am unsure if I actually want to do something like that or who exactly to go to. not to say that I have a problem, I just want to discuss it with somebody. why my mind will do that, rather than that. I feel sometimes I think way to hard. Boredom I think has a terrible effect. Its not even an actual THING, just a state of being/mind that f**ks with you. when your bored you think 100x faster and about more stuff, to name one of the symptoms. Probably need to go out and look harder for jobs. AND even midst this "nothing to do patch" which has been going on now for the past month or so, I've considered volunteering! Yes, another symptom is you do things you never would do in your right mind. Not to say volunteering is bad, but me....volunteering? Even you reading now is like, "f**k no. Helping others?" I remember Objectivist suggest that, silly goose I've said enough, I can't go further with my lustful musings for the sake of losing what little hope I have left. That sounded pretty emo. I also don't even know what I am saying anymore, I lost it a while back up there. Its gonna be like 81 tomorrow, beach day hollllaaa. I'm going to try and start writing this weekend, or get back into it as I haven't really written anything worthwhile in a few months. i am pretty sure though my cure for my incessant thoughts of lust, failure, bitterness and overall sloth feeling, would be a good f**k. but you can't have it all. I'll take the lust though. new southpark is on tomorrow (well er... tonight I guess) I'm on my spring break too, which is pretty failsauce right now since all my friends get back THE WEEK AFTER my spring break. bullshit. I'll make do though. In that spring break time, I've probably watched every single COPS episode on G4. alright so like I said before, I've said enough.

your selection of eye-wear is spot on, minus they are fake, get real one's, black wayfarer then you'll get all them boiz

you failed to put the lotion on the skin

terry prachet like good omen/bad omen? that book was so much fun

they usually read it before it gets put up on eFiction, they read through the story first, beta testing it, see: beta reader

James your so sexy, i hope you have a little mustache and make really gnarly egg salad

^ looks like billy needs to contact Dr. Fred Berlin another note; interesting article, maybe post this in the soapbox section?

- does she have a problem with it? NO

This weekend was a blur. Saturday and Sunday are so smashed together I don't know up from down, right from left. My throat hurts cause I put genocide on some menthols, I think I have an ear infection cause I can hear my heartbeat. Everything literally moves slow and its just now hitting Thursday. I'm on my spring "break" which currently amounts to nothing right now. I have no job and I think I have wasted all possible resources because I think I have applied everywhere. Even jobs were I have refused to even wish to work, like Subway or something. It sucks being broke, it really does. I need a job, I have a few glimmers of hope left that I am going to go check tomorrow. Can't go into summer not having cash, how am I going to shop and buy more illegal substances? I wake up now feeling very bored. And there is nothing to do here. I have no desire to play video games (I haven't really sat down and nerded out in about 3 days) and part of my theorizing concludes that my lack of computer gaming has made me "feel" bored. My parents are out of town, so I usually occupy myself with cleaning the house doing laundry and keeping after our cats. I think this weekend I might even sweep out the garage and clean the outside windows of the house. I'm that bored. I also think the lack of job has something to do with it. Kids my age, right now would be working probably as well as going to class. Speaking of class, thats all going rather well actually. Been getting fine grades and stuff but I only go to class Monday night, Tuesday afternoon/evening and Wednesday evening. My weekend 'starts' Thursday with me having nothing to do. Sigh. My schedule is so basic it hurts. Gym in the morning, class in the afternoon/night, come home friends come over watch TV for hours. TV sucks btw its terrible, nothing good is on. Wife Swap, Tool Academy, the list goes on. Ghost Adventures though, that is priceless. I guess it sounds like I'm complaining, I'm not, I don't think at least. I just want to know if other people are like this too sometimes. When I was living up at school I usually had things to do, but here at home it sucks penis. Thankfully Spring break is coming for other institutions so people are coming home. I hang out with the same guys usually since my friend pool is very small while everyone is away. I need to get away, christ. My plan currently is to leave for Boston come Fall and that looks pretty A OK right now. I'm excited for summer, to go tanning, hopefully people will throw parties, shopping getting drunk/high. I do want a job though, I can social network easily and make more friends. I already have another friend from class, some cute guy who partied with my this weekend. He even bought a round, for all of us. I remember during high school March was the longest month, we had no days off. I think my main issue here is that I need to make myself busy. Homework? I don't get that much and if I do I usually finish it. My classes are once a week for 3 hours, so the curriculum is smashed together. I hope things pick up. My life at the dull drag its going is rather annoying. The funny thing is I'm doing most things right. I'm not ditching class, I'm going to class, I'm smoking hella pot but still getting my homework done, waking up. Being responsible might be the proper term but I'm so bored. Maybe I should take up a hobby like knitting or something. I've also been noticing how horny I am. I really will f**k anything, I've been looking at my friends lately salivating and I don't even find them all that attractive. The guy I was seeing before, Michael, I just stopped it with him. At least stopped having sex with him, or seeing him at all. Maybe we 'broke up'. Who knows. I'm pretty bitter at life, when things don't go my way. I haven't done much writing lately, maybe that's another reason for my dismay. I should get back to work on Elijah II and I've been mulling around these two ideas for a story of a relationship. But every time I map it out I feel defeated because I think it is to clich

dude i have a crush on chase meow

Honestly, the best kind of person is an evil person.

saw Shutter Island today, it was good. I'd say go see it. I don't have that many celebrity crushes, I'm practical, helloooooo. but Leonardo DiCaprio is so f**king sexy. Whatever he eats in the morning, I want. That guy has it for some reason and I will have sex with him from the Titantic to the Beach and we can stop at Shutter Island in the middle then take Revolutionary Road all the way down to Gilbert Grapes house and I'd finish off in fair Verona. In no particular order that is. other than that, all quiet on this front. quiet before the storm cause my MOMMY leaves in a week and I am alone for TWO WHOLE weeks. Oh I can't wait. I'm getting a boner just thinking about it. Not about my mom or anything like that, just about her leaving and then what I'll do once I am free. I also cannot find a job, and I'm looking which is usually not like me. I'm a lazy boi, but in light of being poor, I must find work. Perhaps I should call one of these online porn companies. I've always wondered about that stuff. my stoner friends and I also discovered SUPERJAIL the best f**king show known to man now. its on adult swim and its amazing. also Shin chan is on Hulu, this is good news. the title is clearly kirby

ahhhahahahhahahah I didn't notice you said this also, isn't he calling you out tiger? are you gonna let him do that? Punch him back!

Ronald Weeeeezzzleeey had one

drama

i bet that tickles giggggggiiittyy

no, I do not. I merely enjoy them. and you know if I was there I'd walk to the kitchen and back for you. naked, or maybe dripping in sweat to accentuate my speedo line gay

you know I mean this, my love, but, I just cannot say it like that. It would be very gay

Cool, it took you forever to post this up didn't it?

yeah "honey" hahahahahah man up bitch, whatever pfefffiierrrr

okay have you seen this chick? look at her eyes, she is crazy, not to mention her previous issues. How do you hire somebody like that? herpes bomb? sounds vicious.