Rilbur

I think the point is that everything is based on having a name, and being able to read / write that name. Our entire society is practically based on that!

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He didn't? I thought Voldemort's powers were there 'to stay'...

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I've never really liked the way she defined those three spells are 'unforgivable'. Crucio I can understand, but Imperio and Avada Kedavra I don't. Various 'lesser' forms of control are clearly legal, so why imperio got chucked out I don't get. And for the killing curse... dead is dead. Does it matter if I do it with the killing curse, sectumsumpra, or some other spell? Even Crucio I can see a 'valid' use for (I can't imagine a better way to distract an opponent in battle than raw pain).

The conversation in question was sparked by my 'staunch' support of gay rights, so I was able to duck it pretty easily. The ironic thing is that I was a late enough bloomer (seriously, really late bloomer) that had it happened just a year or two earlier I wouldn't have even realized that I was 'lieing'... I'm still re-evaluating my sexuality, and usually finding myself further and further towards 'gay'.

As I've said elsewhere, I have done my darndest to try and separate my porno writing from my Rilbur persona... But what the hell. Please note that this story dates right back to my 'resumption' of writing after a several year hiatus / writers block caused by severe depression (parental divorce, being forced to move, sudden internet deprivation, and other generally 'sucky' life changes just had me by the balls...)

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I'm not 'afraid' of anything. I have two stories posted, with two more chapters coming on one before it's 'caught up' and has to wait for the next CastleRoland posting (whenever that happens). I also have some 'pornographic' work which doesn't go much of anywhere; the one story that did get a real couple of chapters put out is up on Nifty, if you know where to look. Ironically, it was originally intended as a stand-alone short story (emphasis: short) that got more chapters becuase everyone ticked me off because they didn't get that the entire story was a wet dream. (A 'WTF was I dreaming?!' type wet dream inspired by a real life 'WTF?!' dream of my own... then elaborated beyond all recognition) I don't connect the two identities on Nifty, mainly because I hope to make the "Rilbur" name into a 'good' one. So I'm not going to burden it with pure smut... simply because most people (for some insane reason) look down on it.

One option is to do the "regular" story, and offer an "X-rated" version. There have been times when I've been tempted to do that with Guardian, but it hasn't really been necessary. Heck, I suspect the scenes in question are better with the sex toned down, or so people have said. (I'm thinking specifically of the rape scene, where several people told me they think the 'toned down' version is better because of the way it focuses more on the emotions Jason is going through as he's being raped).

Yeah, well, I've always tried to go in the opposite direction... I have a big enough foot-in-mouth problem without making the situation worse!

Strangely enough, that's too of us! Maybe that's because the videos out there aren't half as imaginative as the written works (most gay porn is incredibly cliche... and almost always runs in the same way with very minor differences), but I think a larger degree of it is the fact that the written word is more... involved. When you see something, you're wired to recognize "them, not me"... when you're reading, you're free to emphasize to a larger degree with the actors and 'enjoy' the experience a little bit closer. I just can't seem to keep going on my 'pornographic' work. I've got some, it just... never really goes very far. Especially if I try to avoid inserting 'storyline' in it.

I try to avoid the cliche, trite phrases that 'everybody' knows, but right now I think they fit what you need to hear. Don't let your hatred destroy you. Don't let your revenge consume you until you are the very thing you hate. Revenge is a dish best served cold. You want revenge? Under the circumstances... I agree with you. Just do it right. Hit them where it hurts the most. They want to deny you? They want to make your life miserable? Don't let them! Wait until you're position is strong, then strike, and strike hard. Make them -- force them -- to acknowledge you, and have your revenge by living and living well. Be happy. Be well. If they truly hate you as much as your statements imply... Well, there's a scene from Babylon 5 that seems to strike at what I'm aiming for: "One of the perks of being Emperor, or President in your case, is not the so much the people who are pleased to see you in office. It's the people who are furious that you are even alive, no less holding a position of power! Knowing that every day you succeed they die a little more inside makes the endeavor eminently satisfying... hmm?" Live, live well, and make sure that when the time comes they know it. Trust me, that will be far, far worse for them than anything physical you can do. The mental is to the physical as 10 is to 1. And the mental anguish that will cause them... Well, either you understand what I am driving at or you won't. But just think, the best benefit of this is that they are the ones likely to go to jail, not you! If, as you've implied, the manipulated the official records to try and erase your existence... well, the civilized world over, that kind of thing is a crime.

That's pretty much exactly how I see it too I'm lucky that, so far, I haven't had to 'lie' about my sexuality... just avoid pointing out that there's a difference between asking if I'm gay and asking if I'm straight

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For a good 10 seconds, I couldn't figure out if that was a photo of a tatoo or a real tarantula. The thing that clued me in was the lighting -- the tarantula isn't reflecting the like like it should it if were real. That is a nice tatoo!

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Another fun chapter... though I don't think I dare say anything about wanting another one, for fear of the controversy I may set off!

Open Office can read, but not save in, docx format. It won't associate itself with the format, however, so you have to manually open the file every time (annoying, yes!)

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As far as insurance goes, if there's any kind of public insurance program in the area that'd probably be brought into play. The problem is the whole "I don't have a name"... so how the hell does he sign? I have no fricken clue. I bet you they have to have some kind of special program with special rules for that kind of situation.