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    Cia
  • Cia
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  • 09/19/2012
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Stories posted in this category are works of fiction. Names, places, characters, events, and incidents are created by the authors' imaginations or are used fictitiously. Any resemblances to actual persons (living or dead), organizations, companies, events, or locales are entirely coincidental.
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Never More Lonely - 1. Chapter 1

You are the sunshine
of my dark, lonely nighttime
bright my desire
 
I snort and glance at the computer. Where is he? I know I'm going a little crazy. Hell, I’m writing poetry, the last thing anyone would expect me to do.
 
Maybe it's the fact that my inspiration isn't someone I know in real life. My sunshine is someone I've never even met. I scowl. What face to face we do have is late at night for me, early morning for him.
 
We started talking after I noticed some book reviews he'd written that mirrored my thoughts. We began bonding over books, then movies, then I told him about a local pride event I went to where one of my friends met a man he'd been chatting up online. He turned out to be in his late fifties and totally skeevy.
 
He laughed and then, with a hesitation I could somehow feel in his written words, he offered his skype information. 'Just so you'll know I'm not skeevy,' he'd said.
 
He is definitely not skeevy.
 
He had these geeky little glasses he hides behind but when I gave him a wolf whistle he'd laughed so hard tears came to his eyes. He took off those glasses to wipe them away and then ran his fingers through his hair.
 
My mouth was too dry to whistle after that. I had a thing for the geeky type but he wasn't geeky, not really. Sleek was the word that came to mind.
 
I was thankful my computer only showed from the waist up because I was sporting some serious wood.
 
For some reason he hadn't shown up for our nightly chat for the last two days. I miss his voice yawning over his coffee while I had a nightcap. I have to be up early to get to the job site and need to sleep, but still, I’m waiting.
 
I log off around midnight. I scrub my hands over my face as I sit on the bed. My shirt falls on the floor when I miss the hamper but I leave it there. Who is going to care? My face hits the pillow and I drag another close, holding it tight. My eyes burn.

Bang.
 
Bang.
 
"What the fuck?" I push up to see the alarm clock, groaning when I see it’s after two. "Somebody had better be dying."
 
I stumble to the front door.
 
"Who the hell is it?"
 
"Cooper."

I blink. No way.
 
"Owen? Are you there?"
 
It's his voice. I fumble the lock back and open the door. It is him. He looks tired and his clothes are wrinkled.
 
"Hey." Fuck. I'm an idiot. The first time we actually meet and that's all I come up with?
 
He smiles shyly. "Hey mate." His voice sounds even better in person. He stares at my bare chest as I devour the sight of his trim body from head to toe, then clears his throat. "Can I come in?"
 
I’m an idiot. "Of course." I move back, holding the door so he can wheel in his suitcase. "Sorry. I was sleeping."
 
Cooper laughs and I'm suddenly glad for my loose pajama bottoms. "People usually are at this hour. Sorry for showing up so late, my plane was delayed."
 
I flip on a light and we sit down on the couch.
 
"What are you doing here?" I blurt out. I smack myself in the forehead. I need a filter.
 
His eyes really do twinkle when he laughs hard. I blink and realize my earlier poetry wasn't an aberration, simply another symptom for how gone I am over Cooper.
 
"Would you believe work? I'm here to organize the newest branch of Bree-bard Unlimited."
 
We still haven't touched. "Why didn't you tell me you were coming?"
 
Cooper rubs his neck. "Well, I wasn't sure …"
 
I have to know what he isn't saying. "About?"
 
Well, us. I mean, we've been chatting for a year and we've said how great it would be to meet face to face. But if it was just a visit, could we do it, you know? Could we resist this between us and stay friends, because I don't want to lose that?"
 
I cock my head. "What made you change your mind?"
 
"Well, I'm going to be here for a month," he blushes and waves his hand around, "well, not here … necessarily. But here in the city."
 
Of course he'll stay with me. "So a month is long enough for you?" It isn't for me. If Conner lives here though …
 
But he doesn't.
 
"It could be more. If I want, I could stay here."
 
Silence falls over the room so profound that it's almost like the room is swelling with noise I can't quite hear. It nearly hurts. My heart is racing.
 
I lick my lips. "You … You would do that?"
 
Cooper's eyes follow my tongue. "For us. I mean, I don't have to give the company an answer until the office opens. You don't have to commit to," he waves a hand between us, "right this second."
 
What? I blink. "I haven't gotten off with anyone other than my right hand in eight months because I'm too busy waiting to chat with you to go out. Committing isn't a problem," I say in a rough voice.
I watch his eyes melt behind those ridiculous glasses, turning warm at the idiocy I can't seem to stop spilling from my mouth.
 
"So that isn't for me?" He glances down. My pants are pulled tight and the stiff bulge is blatantly obvious.
 
That's it. I've been waiting for so long for him. I slide forward, capture Cooper's face, and pull off his glasses. His lips are as soft as they look and the taste of his mouth makes me moan. I sink one hand in his hair. We kiss until we are both senseless.
 
Gasping for air, forehead to forehead, we stare into each other's eyes.
 
"Stay," I tell him.
Copyright © 2012 Cia; All Rights Reserved.
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LJH

I read this story because the title Never More Lonely hooked me. Then the first word of the first paragraph hit me, and I couldn't stop reading, not for a second. It tells the story of Owen who met Connor online and this line sums up the entire story for me. Maybe it's the fact that my inspiration isn't someone I know in real life. My sunshine is someone I've never even met.The pacing is fast and there is an element of suspense to the story. When I heard the bangs, I really thought there could be robbery or a murder taking place next door, but boy was I pleasantly surprised. The story grabbed me emotionally, and as you well know, emotion does it for me. I didn't cry or anything like that, but my beaming smile made even my yorkie smile, such was the effect.

A great flash. It has all the elements of good story telling.(Anything less from Cia would be a disappointment). All the elements are there. Plus, I felt it was a good character building exercise. The descriptions of Own and Conner mix well with the dialogue and narrative.

First Impressions: I loved the strong, fast pacing. It held me glued to the screen straight through.

Characters: Both are equally well developed and realistic. Intense personalities.

Plot: Strong, well planned with a beginning, middle and end. realistic.

Dialogue: Authentic. It gave me details of place and character.

Content: Well, placed. Precision and clarity abound. Easy to follow. It catches and hold the reader with flair.

Emotion/Imagery: Strong emotions from me towards the end, adds drama and realism to the characters.

Likes: Skeevy, geeky,sleek,

Suggestions/Typos

Well, us. I mean, we've been chatting for a year and we've said how great it would be to meet face to face. But if it was just a visit, could we do it, you know? Could we resist this between us and stay friends, because I don't want to lose that." (needs an open quotation mark)

Final thoughts: A delightful, interesting read that I would certainly reread (and I have). Amazing characters by the way!

Thank you for sharing this, Cia.

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On 09/20/2012 05:42 AM, LJH said:
I read this story because the title Never More Lonely hooked me. Then the first word of the first paragraph hit me, and I couldn't stop reading, not for a second. It tells the story of Owen who met Connor online and this line sums up the entire story for me. Maybe it's the fact that my inspiration isn't someone I know in real life. My sunshine is someone I've never even met.The pacing is fast and there is an element of suspense to the story. When I heard the bangs, I really thought there could be robbery or a murder taking place next door, but boy was I pleasantly surprised. The story grabbed me emotionally, and as you well know, emotion does it for me. I didn't cry or anything like that, but my beaming smile made even my yorkie smile, such was the effect.

A great flash. It has all the elements of good story telling.(Anything less from Cia would be a disappointment). All the elements are there. Plus, I felt it was a good character building exercise. The descriptions of Own and Conner mix well with the dialogue and narrative.

First Impressions: I loved the strong, fast pacing. It held me glued to the screen straight through.

Characters: Both are equally well developed and realistic. Intense personalities.

Plot: Strong, well planned with a beginning, middle and end. realistic.

Dialogue: Authentic. It gave me details of place and character.

Content: Well, placed. Precision and clarity abound. Easy to follow. It catches and hold the reader with flair.

Emotion/Imagery: Strong emotions from me towards the end, adds drama and realism to the characters.

Likes: Skeevy, geeky,sleek,

Suggestions/Typos

Well, us. I mean, we've been chatting for a year and we've said how great it would be to meet face to face. But if it was just a visit, could we do it, you know? Could we resist this between us and stay friends, because I don't want to lose that." (needs an open quotation mark)

Final thoughts: A delightful, interesting read that I would certainly reread (and I have). Amazing characters by the way!

Thank you for sharing this, Cia.

I know I said it before, but thank you! (I also said I'd reply days ago, oops! Sorry!!)

 

 

I'm really glad you enjoyed this. I did want it to feel 'complete' in a way, so that if my readers on my blog chose the option of starting a new story each week, or continuing one for the duration of a month, I could go either way with this. I've not yet done so, but I do plan to use the weekly prompts to continue the story. I hope that the next chapter is equally as strong.

 

 

The elements you mention, the descriptions interspersed throughout the story, along with the emotional climx, were exactly the elements I focused on. You really do pick up on things! Thank you. It's gratifying to know that what I am trying to accomplish is actually working. As for the pacing ... well, I had 1k. Can't dawdle with that few words available. This actually was 1k on the dot (without GA Stories additions for the submission fields added) LOL. I used every word that I could.

 

 

Again, thank you so much for reading and for the lovely review. It made my day when I first read it and again when I've come to reply to it.

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On 09/23/2012 04:37 AM, unlikelyu said:
When i read this i already like it. First that come to my mind is how similir the situation with me.. an online friend for 4 years and going to meet face to face next month for the 1st time.. scared.. nervous to think of it.. hehe.. i want more n everything about them. can't wait for next chpter. Thxs Cia
Really? Wow! I hope next months go well for you!!
Suvitar

Last year I met some of my Facebook friends, some of them I had known for many years and never met before, everybody from different countries and it was so much fun. Some people in my real life didn´t think it´s a good idea to go to a foreign country to meet people I did´t actually know and others thought it was a great idea. I thought it was a wonderful idea.

 

There´s always a risk when you meet new people, you might not get along with them. Reading on to find out how things develop with Connor and Owen,

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On 06/06/2014 06:27 PM, Suvitar said:
Last year I met some of my Facebook friends, some of them I had known for many years and never met before, everybody from different countries and it was so much fun. Some people in my real life didn´t think it´s a good idea to go to a foreign country to meet people I did´t actually know and others thought it was a great idea. I thought it was a wonderful idea.

 

There´s always a risk when you meet new people, you might not get along with them. Reading on to find out how things develop with Connor and Owen,

There definitely is! I couldn't imagine going out of country to meet people, but having met 2 authors I've chatted with for a long time, online, it was a great experience for me. I'm sure it's not always that way, and dating is a whole other issue, but this was part of a way to explore that dynamic.
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