Musings of a Mongoose - 3. Mind's Prison

Mind's Prison:

These halls are haunted, these walls are screaming.

Each dream is a chain which holds me bound.

My life is distorted beyond your redeeming,

For the darkness persists even when you're around.

I doubt you could set me free,

'cause I'm stuck here eternally.

A prison of my own design,

No escape from the cell I create in my mind.

I pace and I pace and I pace every day.

No one understands how these bars block my way.

They all see my smile, but they can't read my eyes.

They can't see that I'm dying inside.

These halls are haunted,

These walls are screaming.

Though chained in my cell I'll never stop dreaming.

I can hear your voice if I try hard enough,

The jailors gave you a cell next to mine.

Encouraging me to never give up,

That I'll be free somewhere down the line,

I hope you can set me free,

And bring an end to this insanity.

The vision of my own demise;

The only escape from the cell in my mind.

Thoughts race and they race and they race every day.

No one understands how these thoughts block my way.

They all hear me laugh, but they don't hear my sighs.

They can't hear that I'm dying inside.

These halls are haunted,

These walls are screaming.

Though choking on stale air won't keep me from dreaming.

I awoke when they told me I'd have company,

Then you were there, even though I was not,

Prepared for a cellmate, no matter your beauty,

I preferred lonely misery, or so I thought.

But you can't set me free.

No, this prison is my destiny,

But there's a difference now, I'm no longer blind,

I can see that the cell only exists in my mind.

I chase after your grace in this space every day,

Because you understand how my mind blocks my way.

Your laughs, and smiles, your sighs and your eyes,

They fill me with light and fire inside,

These halls are haunted,

These walls are screaming,

But the ghosts and the pain disappear when I'm dreaming . . .

About you.

You erase all thoughts racing and pacing my brain,

Your touch and your breath can drive me insane,

But I want this, I need this.

I need you, and chains and bars be damned.

The stale air can choke me, but I'll breathe in your scent.

This stale cell can eat me, I'm done paying rent.

We're moving out, love.

Let's get out of here.

The cell no longer exists.

Today I left behind the haunted halls,

I stepped through the bars, and held out my hand.

You took it in yours, and ignored the screaming walls,

And we walked away together, like you always planned.

Together we'll be free.

This prison is a memory.

And we'll keep moving forward, and never rewind.

I'll never return to the cell in my mind.

I paced and I raced and I chased every day,

For unbound dreams and of lands far away,

For laughter and smiles, and a reason to fight,

For all the things in me which keep me alive.

To feel I was wanted.

To continue dreaming.

All I want is to continue dreaming.

Dreaming.

Dreaming . . .

Of you.