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So just like everyone else I'm dealing with this insanity the best I can. I'm pretty lucky so far. I still have a job and so does my husband. My kids are safe, even though one is 350 miles away. 

I still worry though, I can't help it. My mom is 89 and has dementia. She lives with my brother and SIL, not the most ideal situation. My SIL is kinda controlling and basically it's her way or the highway. That doesn't always translate well in a mind scrambled by dementia.  Patience is not her strongest suit. 

My younger child should be enjoying the last few weeks of his high school life.  Instead he's stuck at home,  mind fried by electronics,  both school induced as well as video game induced. He does play guitar, but that is more like therapy for him

You see we found out last fall that he had been molested by a trusted family member when he was three or four. He repressed these memories for years until his brain said no more.  He had always been a handful and his middle school years were torture for us as parents. We have since found out that he contemplated suicide several times.  It tears me apart when I  think of it. 

He's in therapy now and has been since the fall which is when we found out after the shit hit the proverbial fan. It was rough. His therapist is working with him via a Skype type program. My husband and I have been going to group therapy once a week for "non-offending caregivers" and it's helped a lot.  But now it's on hold. We'll just have to deal with stuff on our own for now. 

Which brings me to my main point. GA provides a much needed break for me. I can lose myself in someone else's world for a while and immerse myself in a story. I'm an impatient person and don't usually read stories that are in progress. But when I  do I really enjoy watching them unfold. I enjoy being able to comment and also reading other people's perspectives. 

I've finally been able to focus on writing again.  It was tough as I  was trying to finish up 'A Decision for Jarren' when all the stuff was happening with my son (DCFS and CPS were involved). But now I  have a clear vision and have been writing as much as I  can. It's going to be a two part story, 20 chapters each and I'm trying to stick to roughly 5000 words per chapter. I'm halfway done with the first book and hope to be able to start posting by the end of the month. 

So thank you GA for being here and giving me an outlet where I  can take a little break and just enjoy something. You have the best authors and the best readers in the world.

Thanks for letting me vent. 

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Time Out

I just had a really bad weekend. It started on Friday and it was one of those days where nothing seemed to go right. Work was annoying, people not listening and not doing things that they said they were going to.  My lunch hour I tried to work on editing a chapter and ended up some inserting a three paragraph header onto every page. My 180 page story became almost 300 pages and was all messed up.  It didn't get any better at home. My husband knocked over a glass of Powerade onto the ti



Lessons learned

So this week I discovered that I may have jumped into the deep end of the pool without my water wings, now I'm learning quickly to swim without them. I'm sure as Hell not gonna sink! I decided to jump into writing a story with a strong BDSM theme. Five chapters in I've discovered that I need to rewire my brain and how it can relate to the material.  I did do a lot of research, and not on porn sites! I have since learned that I still have a lot to learn, which is ok by me. Part of



Things that make me go hmmmmm..

I guess my mind  works differently from a lot of people. Everyday I come across things that make me tilt my head like a German Shepherd and go hmmmm...  (Or in many cases WTF?) I don't  understand why people are wearing masks and gloves while driving alone in a car. Hmm.... I don't understand why when you answer your work phone 'Thank you for calling XYZ, how may I help you' and you hear "Is this XYZ?" Hmm... I don't understand why you post notices all over the place that you



Stuff on my mind

I'm trying to get the hang of this blog thing. This is my second attempt. I have no idea what happened the first time.   So anyway, I've had a lot on my mind lately and I'm not sure how to sort it out in my head. It seems the whole world has flipped upside down and we're living in an alternate universe.  My world had already been in turmoil before all this other stuff happened.  There's nothing more shocking than to find out your child was molested by a trusted family member when



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