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I give up


Billy Martin

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As soon as I can finish Trials and Tribulations for those of you that like the story, I'm done forever trying to write again or open my heart for another person, ever. I can't allow myself to be called names that hurt and always have my love and commitment questioned every other week. As soon as I am done here, I don't think I'll interact online anymore with hopes or dreams. Sorry.

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Marzipan

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OMG, Billy what happened? Calling you with names? This is not acceptable. If you love writing, don't stop. Never stop. I mean... of course you can make a decision to call it quits but don't do it because of the stupid, ignorant idiots who think too much of themselves. Who's been bullying you? I feel sick to my stomach to hear what you are going through. Just don't give up. Plese pm me if you want to discuss this and maybe get some perspective. I've been hurt and doubting everything - even here in GA even if no-one has directly attacked me or my stories. I know how it feels to be hurt and dissapointed. THAT is one of the reasons I stopped writing and posting. My energy is directed to art instead, that is the main reason and a big outlet to my inspiration.

 

Now I'm thinking about returning to GA but I will need to work on my issues before I can do that, it just hurts like shit. I hope you won't give up on us. I know we haven't been talking more than passingly but I think you're great and don't give up your dreams because people are stupid. You need to find a way to grow a thicker skin, get perspective and have much faith in yourself to make it. Every time you put your work out, it's like your baby there. I KNOW how it feels.

 

Anyway, fight this. Don't give up if you love what you do.

 

Hugs,

 

Maria

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Arpeggio

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They only hurt you as much as you let them.

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Billy Martin

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This has nothing to do with the story itself. It's a personal matter including someone else who I will not speak ill of. It's their game to call names and accuse me of wanting someone else. They decided to move on, delete all their likes on my story, throw a negative rating on my profile to be yes, vindictive. I have never called this person a name in public or private. However, I've had enough for now.

 

I've been depressed and haven't been on much the last few weeks, nor have I written much of the story. A few weeks ago, I was asked to have T&T hosted on another web site. I agreed. What author wouldn't? A forum site came with the hosting so people that read it there could comment on the story. I agreed to set-up a profile. Because I took 10-15 minutes to do so, I'm accused of... never mind.

 

Sorry I started this topic :(

Marzipan

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Good for you Billy for getting hosted - no matter what the site. Keep your chin up. I won't comment on the personal issue other than you'll eventually get over it.

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Menace

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Never let your pride fade away just because of some hate. Keep your shoulders up, look forward to the future and forgot that event. Remember, you will have my peoples support from GA. You will have mine. Dont show fear, never loose the battle. We will always be there for you!

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SoullessCynner

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I don't know you, but I'm appalled that people are being so mean as to make your hopes and dreams feel worthless. That is not right. It's not okay. Why people have to be so mean all the time, I'll never know.

 

What some people don't seem to get is that being called names, whether it's in real life or online, is hurtful. More so for some than others, but still.

 

I'm sorry people are being jackasses. *Hug* If you ever need to talk, I'll be happy to listen.

 

Keep your chin up,

Cyn

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Cyhort

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I usually feel so weird commenting of blogs but I feel the need to say something here. First of I totally get where you're coming from. I've been there. I've had someone I really cared about and who I thought cared about me turn around and say horrible things to be for no real reason. It's probably one of the shittiest things that can happen to someone. But, as someone who was there and knows how much it sucks I hope you won't automatically think I'm saying the normal, feel better BS that people usually say when I say it'll get better in time. Because it will.

 

Having said that, you should do whatever you need to do to feel better. If that means leaving the site, then leave the site. If that means taking a break from the internet or forums or people then do that too. If that means taking a break from writing then do that too. Just don't make any permanent decisions while you're hurting. When you feel better if you still don't have the motivation to write then that's fine, sometimes that happens even without emotional drama. But for now just leave things open ended. Don't close yourself off from possibilities just because someone's being horrible to you.

 

And that's it. Um, sorry if that sounds like I'm butting into your life or anything. Definitely not what I'm trying to do. Just, feel better.

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Billy Martin

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Thank you. As for the other person, I'm sure, well, I know that some of my actions and inaction are the root cause of everything.

 

But what hurts was that nothing I said or did justified the things I was called and the actions they took. But I know there's nothing I can do nor want to do to control someone else. It is what it is, I guess.

 

No matter the outcome this time, I will not allow anyone to try and control MY life. I won't allow someone to demand to know if and who I am talking to. I will never again allow someone to talk to me like I was trash, because no matter what they say, I have NEVER done that to them. I may have walked away and stopped talking, but in doing so it stopped me from saying the wrong things, things I wouldn't truly mean.

 

Thanks for taking the time to show your concern for someone else. If more people were like those of you that commented here and wrote me, this world would be a lot better off.

comicfan

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Billy,

 

You know any time you need to talk I'm here for you. And if anyone has something to say about your work they should come talk to me.

 

Wayne

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Johnathan Colourfield

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I've never really spoken to you but it is unacceptable for people call you names. It's cyber bullying. If its a site member report it to the moderators and make it a site issue.

 

If its a personal issue, then just don't talk to them ^_^

 

Hope you are okay :)

 

John

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Billy Martin

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I've never really spoken to you but it is unacceptable for people call you names. It's cyber bullying. If its a site member report it to the moderators and make it a site issue.

 

If its a personal issue, then just don't talk to them happy.png

 

It's not something that should be reported. I would never do that to them, because it is personal situation. And Johnny :) thank you for your concern.

Billy Martin

Posted

Billy,

 

You know any time you need to talk I'm here for you. And if anyone has something to say about your work they should come talk to me.

 

Wayne

 

hug.gif You're an awesome person! It's not about the story directly, even if they deleted 15-16 likes they had on the story and it appears someone did a hit on my profile "five stars" thingy. But, I have a feeling everything will be alright in the end, one way or the other.

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