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An incredibly sad weekend


This weekend was particularly sad for me, but to understand just how sad and why, I have to go back a little.

 

First of all, I want to tell you about my dog. She came to us 13 years ago as the runt of the litter, and right from the start she seemed to have a charisma about her. She was also a born nurse. Just after she arrived as a puppy, I got sick and had to go back to my mum to recover, and the whole time I was there she never left my side. She cuddled right into me when my fever was causing me to hallucinate.

 

Fast forward 10 years and I am moving to London. In the interim, my mum has gotten divorced and escaped an abusive (mentally) marriage. She came to live with me, but when I got an offer to move to London I had to leave my mother on her own. But that was fine, because I know our dog would look after her.

 

On Thursday morning, at 1am, I got call from my mum in an incomprehensible babble. Through her tears and cries, I heard the word "dead" and initially my thoughts turned to my Grandma. AS it was, my dog had a massive heart attack and died. My mum was distraught. For a long time, our darling dog had been her companion and her friend. When lonely nights closed in, they were a team.

 

And of course, I felt less guilty for leaving.

 

I got the first train I could up from London (London is approximately 2.5 hours from my hometown). My mum was obviously devastated and Paya and I have spent a lot of time trying to pull her through.

 

Combined with the stress of work at the moment, extra trips home mean that I will not have much spare time. At the start of last week I was in Vienna. I was in Belgrade at the end of October, and possibly will be there next week. I have spent over 30 hours in the last 3 weeks on planes, trains or other transport.

 

All this does nothing to ease my guilt that my mum is now alone.

 

West

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Cia

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That is sad when you lose a pet. I'm sorry hun. :( Some people find a new pet helps ease the sting of losing a loved animal, and others can't handle it. Even if you're traveling and busy, I'm sure you're doing the best you can for your mom and what she needs from  you.

joann414

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As I've said many times, loosing our little four legged buddies is devastating.  My heart goes out to you and your mom.  Hugs to both of you

Bleu

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Sorry to hear about this. Hugs to your mum and to yourself and Paya.

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