I saw this around 18-19, when I was surfing the web for gay related items. It was part of a series of Shorts called Boys' Brief 2 from 2002

It still haunts me today at how dark and how tragic this kid's life will eventually become, continuously searching for "him", his abuser through pain and sufferring in a perverse need to be with the same abuser's grasp:

http://www.veoh.com/watch/v20430786JdHB7hkx

The Director/Creator of the short is now a Director for Game of Thrones

Here's my one and only Warning:

DO NOT WATCH THIS SHORT IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO HAVE NIGHTMARES RANDOMLY OVER YOUR LIFE OF THE TRAGIC REALITY THIS KID IS FACING AS HE GREW UP. I ADVISE ONLY MATURE AUDIENCES, NOT JUST BY AGE, BUT BY YOUR MINDSET

This is so fucked up, but it is amazing as a short film.