I need an editor. I thought I probably might need an Editor at some point but after reading some of the excellent prose on this site, and having read a lot of utter twaddle elsewhere it finally struck me that one of the main differences was Editor. With Editor good, without bad.

So now I want one, how to go about it? I know there is a thread about the subject, and having read it I'm no further forward. It seems to me that the relationship between Author and Editor is a bit like a marriage... And I don't know how to go about that either. Something else to get angsty about.

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I spent some time today with M, the guy I want to live with until we're old and decrepit. I sat in his room watching TV. He was lying on the bed and kept giving me these odd looks.

A whole raft of futures flashed through my mind. Obviously there was the one where we are living happily together (with the house, white picket fence, roses blah blah blah). But then there was one where he stays with the guy he's with at the moment (M is a career for A: a young man with cerebral palsy, who is very manipulative). I try really hard to be nice to A, when all I want to do is shout at him, tell him to F off and stop using my friend. M seems oblivious to all this.

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Ah well. These things are sent to try us.

Camy