Today, I posted 2 short stories in a new series, my first in 4 years. Comforting Touch is the combination of an idea I received from a vivid dream after Thanksgiving and my own life experiences.

I admit I am very rusty at writing nowadays. While I still have ideas and inspiration, I need the patience of a good editor like @Talo Segura

For those who have known me or met me from GA, you know who Ben is and if you've ever wondered why he is still single, I think this story will explain it. Being gay is one part of sexuality, the other is the method attraction.

Demisexuality is not something we talk about on GA much. Part of its application is known but not truly understood in fiction, too. A Demisexual being passed off as being "romantic" to me is kind of offensive, but I don't blame people for being ignorant about the complex emotional connections and needs. I don't know if the Demisexuality that I describe in my story is unique or if others share it with Ben, but I just want to put it out there in case anyone else is lost in the nebulous world of sexuality.

Ben has related to world through his visual disability, too. He has a measured routine, a scientific assumption based on results, and consequently attempts to gauge life through both the physical and emotional experiences under similar auspices. He may seem controlling at times, but it's not control he seeks just understanding and relating in his own way to someone he wants to connect to. Most of all to remember about Ben as the story continues, he is human and can be selfish, prone to make bad decisions, and generally tries too hard to give support.

The biggest difference in my story series to other gay romance stories is probably the concept of being completely open; Ben doesn't like filters and doesn't like nuance as he has to deal with that in his professional life. In a relationship, Ben and Jason are pushing for complete open communication, no secrets or hidden agendas. Being disabled, Ben needs this approach, which Jason realizes, because it's a matter of absolute trust to coexist in Ben's world. If there's even a little hidden agenda, their relationship will fail immediately as Ben noted with his past boyfriends. They both must make the sacrifices and compromises of privacy in order to be together with each other.

To some, it may be mistaken with BDSM rules and mastery concepts, but even though it shares some aspects, it really is a unique form of relationship. Personally, it's my ideal version of romantic relationship, reflecting on the concepts of Trust through complete openness.

Lastly, if there are other gay Demisexuals on GA, you can counter me as you see fit. maybe I am not representing this part of the spectrum well like I am merely a lone voice in the wilderness. However, if you find yourself comparing your beliefs and your instincts with Ben's aspects in the story, I am more than willing to listen and talk. No one should feel alone for who they are.