It was a wonderful day outside today. When I mean wonderful I mean windy and a bit cold, but that's just me. I also love it when it rains that's another story altogether. So I sat outside in between classes a friend joined me a few minutes later. We spoke for a bit just catching up because we hadn't seen each other in a while. When someone just randomly sits with us.

Now I'm a very paranoid person and I get nervous so I was already itching to leave when I looked at this boys face and neck and chest and arms and I swallowed hard. This boy was crazy hot. I mean brad pitt had nothing on him even the way he looked in fight club. He introduces himself, his name is Chaz and as it turns out his frat buddy's asked him to get my friends number. She was already writing it down for him even before he asked.

So we all get to talking and we find out that he frequents a local gay bar. I was like hmm potential, no you have a bf a BF! He tells us that he has a brother who is gay and since he's new in the area he visits his brother. His brother works at the bar. At this point I'm dying and fighting the urge to jump on him when his brother shows up and he ends up being one of my former friends. I'm like shizzle I need to find an excuse to leave. So I say this in one quick sentence, "Hi how are you, sorry I have to leave, class is starting see ya later."

I walk a few steps and then Chaz yells, "Wait, I'll walk with you." Once again I'm like shit. So I stop and wait for him to catch up. We walk for a few minutes and we talk about school and such when he asks me if I'm gay. I tell him that I am and i share with him the experience I had on the train with the christian lady. He laughs and he shares a funny story and then he asks me if I would like to go for dinner sometime. So I'm like damn they never asked me out when I was single. I let him down easy, telling him about my bf and how much I love him and how much I love him. He smiles and says, "Oh I'm straight. I just thought that you were a cool dude and maybe since you knew alot about music we could hang out somewhere in the city and see some bands."

The only word for that is embarassment.

GREEN embarrased.