"Everything I do or try to achieve, I fail miserably at. Why?"

Because we tend to only see our failures and not our achievements.

"What's so wrong with me?"

Nothing.

"Is it my personality?"

Nope.

"Am I just not good looking enough?"

Don't know. Haven't seen you yet. But I doubt it.

"Am I an asshole and don't know it?"

We are all assholes sometimes.

"Am I stupid?"

No.

"I'm just not comprehending why every time I find a boy I like they want nothing to do with me. Another thing, why do they always let me get my hopes up first? Why not just go ahead and tell me that I stand a snowball's chance in Hell? WHY? What is the reasoning behind all of this?"

The reason is: The boys you find are not good enough for you.

"So I officially have reverted to my emo form. Expect every blog entry to be a whiney, bitchy, moany collection of dumbassery. It's gonna be that way for a while, I think."

Does that include wearing black cloths and looking cute?

"I will never be rich. I will never look the way I want. I will never have a decent boyfriend. I will never be content. It's just not going to happen for me. After realizing this, I've been asking myself what I should do. I can't come up with anything. I don't have any drive. There's no motivation for anything I do anymore."

Money is not everything. And never say never! You are only 18. I am sure you will find a great guy soon.

"I'm not going to be writing for a while. Maybe once my pissy mood blows over and I have classes under control and finally have everything figured out, then I'll be back. No clue when that will be."

"Sorry about being such a downer. It's late, and I had no one to talk to, so I came here. Maybe just spitting out all of my frustrations will make them easier to deal with and get over. It usually does."

That's what we are here for. Besides it gives me a reason to write comments no one wants to read

"Love you all, see ya."

Cheers

Tob

I will never be rich. I will never look the way I want. I will never have a decent boyfriend. I will never be content. It's just not going to happen for me. After realizing this, I've been asking myself what I should do. I can't come up with anything. I don't have any drive. There's no motivation for anything I do anymore.

You may never be rich, or look as 'hot' as you think you need to be, but there are people out there (some your own age ) who will find you attractive.

You ask what you should do. I'd suggest learning to like yourself. Yes you may have some faults, but you're a decent guy. Others see that, you should do.

And also, quit worrying about all this B.S. If you need to distract yourself, throw yourself into your schoolwork

Decent boyfriend and such will all come soon enough

It has nothing to do with you not being good looking enough, or being an asshole or stupid or any of that other nonsense. From what I can tell, it has everything to do with you being a nice guy and the guys you've met being mediocre. Boys are MORONS. If they know you're interested and available, they purposely keep you in the "maybe" category, a backup, always a last resort. Why? I have no f**king clue. Mind games? Everyone is after the asshole who doesn't like anyone but them.

You've heard it a million times before, but what you have to do is start putting yourself up on that same goddamn pedastal that these boys put themselves up on. You have to know that you're good enough, and that others have to prove that they're good enough FOR YOU. If you don't like yourself, how are other people going to like you? You need to project that mentality that you know you're good enough. You're a decent guy, you're obviously intelligent and attractive. Don't let others make you feel otherwise.

And don't look for a decent guy. If you do, you'll "find" him in worst of guys. It'll happen. It may take awhile, but it'll happen.

Jammmiiieeeeeeeee! You're not a failure there are probably many attributes and skills that you possess that doesn't make you a failure as a person. Keep trying to do what you're driven and feel passionate about doing. You will hit walls and take steps back and fall short.. everyone does.. I've fallen on my own face SO MANY times.. lol.. What every "young" person wants is love, and they want it.. "now" and that's not how it works at all.

So hang in there, hopefully you have a lot more experiences to come.

Krista

Boys are stupid...my boy's not stupid...but I still can't figure him out

Anyway, the majority of them are wacko so I'm sure it's them and not you

Yeah, I just get very frustrated. Things start to annoy me and I can't stop thinking about them, but eventually I get over it.

I'm mostly over what had me in such a pissy mood the night I wrote that. It still kinda stings, but I've kind of thought about it and come to the conclusion that ya know what, I just don't care what that particular person thinks about me anymore. His opinion matters no more than anyone else's, because he hasn't earned enough of my respect and trust to have his opinion actually matter. So there.

I'm glad you're feeling a little bit better dear, hang in there.

Krista

Oh, I thought of doing lots of moral but finally decided otherwise. Sending you a few jokes to cheer you up!

There is a factory in Northern Minnesota, which makes the Tickle Me Elmo toys.

 

The toy laughs when you tickle it under the arms.

 

Lena is hired at The Tickle Me Elmo factory and she reports for her first day promptly at 0800.

 

The next day at 0845 there is a knock at the Personnel Manager's door.

 

The Foreman throws open the door and begins to rant about the new employee.

 

He complains that she is incredibly slow and the whole line is backing up, putting the entire production line behind schedule.

 

The Personnel Manager decides he should see this for himself, so the two men march down to the factory floor.

 

When they get there, the line is so backed up that there are Tickle Me Elmo's all over the factory floor and they are really beginning to pile up.

 

At the end of the line stands Lena surrounded by mountains of Tickle Me Elmo's.

 

She has a roll of plush red fabric and a huge bag of small marbles.

 

The two men watch in amazement as she cuts a little piece of fabric, wraps it around two marbles and begins to carefully sew the little package between Elmo's legs.

 

The Personnel Manager bursts into laughter.

 

After several minutes of hysterics, he pulls himself together and approaches Lena.

 

"I'm sorry," he says to her, barely able to keep a straight face, "but I think you misunderstood the instructions I gave you yesterday........"

 

"Your job is to give Elmo two test tickles"

Miss Beatrice, the church organist, was in her eighties and had never been married.

 

She was admired for her sweetness and kindness to all.

 

One afternoon the pastor came to call on her and she showed him into her quaint sitting room.

 

She invited him to have a seat while she prepared tea.

 

As he sat facing her old Hammond organ, the young minister noticed a cut-glass bowl sitting on top of it.

 

The bowl was filled with water, and in the water floated, of all things, a condom!

 

When she returned with tea and scones, they began to chat.

 

The pastor tried to stifle his curiosity about the bowl of water and its strange floater, but soon it got the better of him and He could no longer resist.

 

"Miss Beatrice", he said, "I wonder if you would tell me about this?" pointing to the bowl.

 

"Oh, yes," she replied, "Isn't it wonderful? I was walking through the Park a few months ago and I found this little package on the ground. The directions said to place it on the organ, keep it wet and that it would prevent the spread of disease. And wouldn't you know, I haven't had the flu all winter."

Several men are in the locker room of a golf club.

 

A cell phone on a bench rings and a man engages the hands-free speaker-function and begins to talk.

 

Everyone else in the room stops to listen.

 

MAN: "Hello"

 

WOMAN: "Honey, it's me. Are you at the club?"

 

MAN: "Yes"

 

WOMAN: "I'm at the mall now and found this beautiful leather coat. It's only $1,000. Is it OK if I buy it?"

 

MAN: "Sure, go ahead if you like it that much."

 

WOMAN: "I also stopped by the Mercedes dealership and saw the new 2007 models. I saw one I really liked."

 

MAN: "How much?"

 

WOMAN: "$65,000."

 

MAN: "OK, but for that price I want it with all the options."

 

WOMAN: "Great! Oh, and one more thing. The house we wanted last year is back on the market. They're asking $950,000."

 

MAN: "Well, then go ahead and give them an offer, but just offer $900,000."

 

WOMAN: "OK. I'll see you later! I love you!"

 

MAN: "Bye, I love you, too."

 

The man hangs up.

 

The other men in the locker room are looking at him in astonishment.

 

Then he smiles and asks: "Anyone knows whose phone this is?"

A company, feeling it was time for a shakeup, hires a new CEO.

 

This new boss is determined to rid the company of all slackers.

 

On a tour of the facilities, the CEO notices a guy leaning on a wall.

 

The room is full of workers and he wants to let them know he means business!

 

The CEO walks up to the guy and asks, "And how much money do you make a week?"

 

Undaunted, the young fellow looks at him and replies, "I make $300.00 a week. Why?"

 

The CEO then hands the guy $300 in cash and screams, "Here's a week's pay, now GET OUT and don't come back!"

 

Feeling pretty good about his first firing, the CEO looks around the room and asks "Does anyone wants to tell me what that goof-off did here?"

 

With a sheepish grin, one of the other workers mutters, "Pizza delivery guy from Domino's."

Sorry, didn't find any joke on emo! Got any?

Ieshwar

if you pull your own hair endorphins flow.

and if that's not true, we can pretend.