the moral of the story? :-)
just kidding. loved reading it. it may not offer any remedies, any solutions, any causes even. but well put forth. especially liked the following portions:-
"It's not about will power. There is no will or power."
"It's all bullshit of course. Once I had the bright idea of taping the intellectual conversations that I was a part of high and it it just sounded like a bunch of f**ked up people babbling."
"The coke whores are gone and you are the same self-doubting, pussy, wimp that you always were. You are just a lot poorer for the experience and... you want more."