Acedias

Hey cool thanks glad you like not even I've read it in one sitting so you must be a fast reader hey ... Wot a place to get to in one sitting - a cliff hanger d'oh dontcha hate that? Worse is when the author goes on a sabbatical ... Dun worry I'm not doing that but. Thanks for the review!!

Mwaahaha yeah I was aiming for a shock at the end better stop doing that or else people will come to expect it ... hmmm. Glad you liked the desert romp, at least bits of it were based on a ATV day I did in carins but there was no hot boy just a friend of mine and she loved it where as I didnt like the dirt LOL ... I am not gonna answer your other points cause I don't wanna give anything away

On reflection you are probably right. Too much psychoanalysis and psych-text book lecturing. It was cut down from were I started but it was too slow compared with the pacing in other parts. Have to edit more next time. Hehehe ... as for your questions ... all will be revealed

Awesome a new reader yay! I can barely remember the first chapter but after just finishing the 12th It's occured to me there's probably more questions by now not less . Anyway thanks for reading and reviewing!

Hello!! I finished chapter 12 yay! Story link Turned out a lot longer than the other chapters so far but i couldn't break it up without wrecking it - I felt it needed to be read as one piece Anyways lemme know wot ya think

Blake was feeling cautiously optimistic as he arrived at work on Friday. He’d gone to bed the night before with a sense of dread for the coming morning, but that had so far proved unwarranted. He had managed to go about his morning routine in pretty much the same way as the day before, barely noticing the absence of the medication. Perhaps he really didn’t need it after all? He made a beeline for Nats who greeted him with her typical enthusiasm before launching into a tirade about a friend of

Heya ... thanks for the review! I'm so glad you like my story! Sorry to disappoint but it takes heaps longer to write than to read I next chapter is coming its just taking a bit longer cause its another long one. About 6000 words so far and still not done. Hopefully this week I'll post chapter 12. Stay tuned!

Thanks! I am rather proud of that bit Plenty more anxious Blake coming ...

Thanks for your review dude ... more dialogue huh? Probably due for some hey ... I'll work on that

Shucks - thanks Nephylim I am pretty pleased with the turn around ... since Blake has such chronic low esteem it was hard to come up with how he might go about dropping the medication ... i guess he had to see how Haze was worse when he wasnt real to apply the same to himself

I think the meds probably were helping Blake but they werent helping me write hehe ... Hard to write emotions when they're stunted and I think as you've noted from the start the story is all about the telling of emotions, so moved them on! But i guess it also reinforces the ongoing irony of the story that the only reason Blake has connected at all with Haze is due to his anxiety which also keeps them apart... and that taking that anxiety away didn't improve his relationship with Haze. As for whats next ... you'll have to wait hehe

Hmmm that's quite a thought provoking analysis Nephylim, it's like you know my characters better than I do! Getting my characters outta this mess is gonna be interesting. Hopefully you'll find the next chapter not as dark at least!

Thanks anyta! The double sided "be real" came to me when someone (I forget who it was ) suggested to me that Haze needed to be the reason the meds exited the scene. Didn't think about the driving under the influence implication ... But the wooziness was supposed to be limited to the double dose day before ... (note: the author does not condone driving under the influence)

Thanks Dark! Maybe Haze is pushing too much too fast ... But from my point of view it's too hard to write/progress Blake drugged up so needed to move that plot device along already hehe ...

Chapter 11 is posted ... Phew!! Story Link Dunno why it didn't come up on the story updates list .... Enjoy!

“Blake?” A voice, someone was speaking to him. “BLAKE!” “Huh?” he mumbled aloud. He tried to drag his head out of the clouds and back down to earth, hoping he would find it was Haze speaking to him, but also worried by the prospect of that at the same time. “Are ya even listenin to me?” No, not Haze, he thought. Just Nats. “Yeah, ‘course,” he said, aware of the effort it took to mouth the words. He knew he would sound more convincing if only he could stop slurring his

Hey Adamo! Thanks for reviewing my little story. Next chapter is written, I just gotta fix it so will post soon. Its got plenty of Blake struggling and heaps of Haze being a mystery so hopefully you will like hehehehe. I am so glad you are enjoying it :-)

Hey another new reviewer thanks dachcr! Im glad you are enjoying it - more tension on the way i swear ... and more cooking hehe

Yay! A new reviewer - thanks heaps for reading and taking the time to review Clara. The mean little twist you point out is actually proving a bit of a stumbling block I was saying to Anyta and Andy the other day! But its not insurmountable I am sure (else I got no story LOL) - Its funny how you mention being pissed at Penelope. I try to channel Blake when I write about him and I found myself seriously p!ssed at her myself hehe ... anger makes one feel powerful and in control, negates and hides feelings of anxiety and loss of control. People prefer to feel anger - but its whats left when the anger goes that is more interesting. I dunno if you noticed (maybe I wasnt obvious about it) but Blake goes from anxiety to anger whenever he is directly contemplated re his looks. What's that anger hiding?

Hmm I don't think the town exists but it might do ... From what I saw of the west coast of Aus they were all a bit like this. Every few hundred kms and another little town with an awesome beach. The water is awesome, I've never lived far from a beach myself and couldn't imagine not being able to go for a swim. Last time I went diving I stayed in a tiny town that had nothing else on offer which was fine until after a week of diving everyday I got an ear infection and couldn't equalize (= can't dive, can't adjust to pressure) so I had to spend the last four days in a beach cabin in a town that only has a beach with doctors orders not to get my head wet which was majorly sucky (I got to see the flying doctor which was cool though) Anyway I recommend to anyone interested that they learn to dive :-)

I know the dreaded cliff hanger huh? Guess I needed some uneventful time to pass (hmmm now who's idea was that?) haha actually I didn't mean it that way, its just how it ended up! Blake was off his game, but he also created the situation by avoiding things. Avoiding stuff never solves anything! ... except when its me avoiding stuff in my own plot of course .. like gettin these two together ...

Penelope turned out pretty awful in this chapter hey LOL i was getting pretty mad at her myself for a bit when writing it. Now I have to write my way out of this hmmmm ....

Chapter 10 is posted - phew! Link to story First time it went straight up without the moderating queue too!

Blake was thankful that Vicky hadn’t make her way over to join them until after the sun tanning was over, but he had been frustrated by her appearance nonetheless. One minute he’d been happily telling Haze about a dive that went awry in Fiji and the next thing he knew, Haze was gone. Unlike on previous occasions, Blake was actually watching this time. He’d been right there at the moment real Haze vanished. Or rather, at the moment real Haze changed into the other Haze, the more introverted Ha

Hi Nephylim, glad you find it easy to read and can relate to the characters. I guess they are a bit extreme but hey it's fiction :-) I'm also happy u r okay with the glacial pace ... Think I'll have to get a move on in the next few chapters or it will be 2012 before there is a first date!!