I don't see why JP is now trying to blame himself about the Jeff deal. He had been really, really good to Jeff over the last 5 months, rescuing him when he was tossed out. Carrying him to Chicago, buying him clothes, introducing him to the Head Coach at Northwestern. giving him $500 for his help in moving and painting. Back in 1962 not a lot of people made that kind of money with room and board included in 3 months. Andre he had known for years now and was his best friend and really the love of his life. Anyone in their right mind would have stayed home in Chicago to spend time with a person like that. There is the possibility that might have been the last time that JP might ever get to see him again. Andre was heading into very dangerous place. But JP should not feel bad, or guilty for his decision. If he can't make Jeff see that, he isn't worth that then Jeff isn't worth the time of day.