Hi Preston,
Sorry to see that you're not having a good time just now and I hope that things will get better for you. But there is one comment that you make that I have to disagree with you on, and I quote 'i sometimes wonder what the hell have I done during my life, and the truth is stuff all really', I have to say that you underestimate yourself. You have done something really good and positive with your life, you have written and produced some really good stories which I, and many others, have read and enjoyed. This means that you have made a difference to other peoples lives by bringing them some enjoyment. I'm sure that many others, including your followers will agree, so please take something from that, bringing enjoyment to peoples lives is an achievement to be proud of.
I wish you well for the future and hope to read many more stories written by you.
Chas xoxo