Meeko

I was lying on my bed with him, staring at the ceiling thinking how great thinks were going, and how this was going to be the best 4th Of July I've ever had, and then the clock strikes 12:00 making it officially 4th Of July, and everything slowly starts to go black, I can feel my body shaking but I can no longer feel him next to me. I keep blinking my eyes and I start to see green gas floating around me, I feel my body shutting down, I hear him screaming besides me and I try screaming out for him but nothing comes out, I keep trying, and I feel something hurting me, and that's when the thought that N. Korea must have fired a nuclear missile and that it was now killing us slowly. Pain's shooting throughout my entire body, and then everything shuts down, and I'm lying in my bed, dead. That was more or less my dream last night just as i went to sleep. I'm sure everyone heard about N. Korea supposedly attacking Hawaii on 4th Of July right? we'll it's something that bothered me slightly, I mean I'm 100 percent aware that anything could happen at any second and that I won't be alive forever, but it never stops you from wondering just when that day will finally come and how. Does anyone know exactly how painful it could be to die in your sleep? I don't but I only hope it's nothing like what it is in my dream. I never let things like this bother me, or scare me for that matter, but this dream made me realize how scared I really am, even if I don't admit it, I really am terrified. Which is why I slept with my TV and the lights on, don't ask but having the TV on helps me sleep when I'm scared. I still have a bruise on my face, but it's slowly fading, *sigh* the things I do for woman.

I would have asked him, what about the straight couples who can't have kids because of whatever reason, should that mean they aren't allowed to raise kids either? I only ask because I have a boss who has always wanted a child of her own, but because of personal reasons isn't able to have any, and it's really sad because we all know she'd be a great Mom. =(

They suck, just like you =P I drive a Nissan Sentra =( I want a Toyota Highlander, fully stocked... *Drools*

Good Luck!

Sooo it's technically not your birthday yet in Hawaii so I'll wait till tomorrow to post =P

I got put on timeout today I just wanted to pet the elephant, that's it I SWEAR!

Wasn't there another story that you claimed to have written while drunk? I must say Cliff James, at this rate I may have to buy you some liquor and send it over. Not that your writing is better when your drunk, but more differen't, still great don't get me wrong, but different... None The Less, WRITE MORE! -Mike

you reall think if we give N. Korea supplies they'll just back off for another 5 years? I HIGHLY doubt this, N. Korea has been a problem for a long time. I come from a family who were all born in N.Korea and I'm sorry but I look forward to getting in there.

Cousin =/

She told me I couldn't take a shower this morning because I was just going to go out in the sun get all sweaty, come home and shower again... And then proceed to tell me that I'm wasting all of her mom's money, when she's the one sleeping with the a/c on all night long... Way to make me feel like shit... So Fine I say I'll go shower at my own house, but no that won't work for you either... I don't mind spending all my time with you because I know you're only here for a week. I don't mind driving you around all over the place because your on vacation, and only here for a week. I don't mind sleeping on the floor of MY room because you're scared of the geckos, and your only here for one week. When when you tell me I can't take a f**ken shower... A SHOWER I will lose it and all of the issues I had with you, but had the decency to bite my tongue and just deal with it because you're only here for a week, will take over and all the rage and stress will get the upper hand and cause me to yell and scream and say "f**k This" really loudly and then storm off to my own house, where I rant to my dad and tell my Dad to shove it when all he says to me is how I look like a hobo cuz my shirt don't match my shorts... In other words I got a phone call from a job I applied at this past week. I go in on Wednesday after Summer Fun, for what? Who knows, I'm guessing an interveiw, and I'm hoping they don't mind if I'm not properly dressed, I mean they are making me go straight down there once I get off work from Summer Fun, so no shower, nadda. Maybe I'll bring a change of clothes. Maybe. Hmmm what else... Summer Flings are good. Then again I wouldn't call me drooling over my co worker from last year a fling, but a boy can dream right? Lalalalalalalalalalalalala dadadadadadadadadadada mamamamamamamamamamamamama mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Here's a picture I think you'll all enjoy. (ESP YOU GOAT!) Night!

Dear Cliff James I LOVE YOU. That story right there made my entire f**ken day! Thank you.

I recognize carrots and bananas right away too! How old is your youngest? She sounds like fun.

I'm thinking like Child Protective Services, but I'm still unsure.

I think it's more parent and I highly doubt the moms in the military.

So there's this boy that's been hanging around the park this past month. (May) After about the first week of seeing him come in and out of our building to drink water etc, I made it a point to say Hi and etc, just because I make a habit of knowing all of the teens who hang around the park. Believe it or not their good kids, and very helpful. So we always make it a point to get to know them if they start hanging around a lot. Anyways so he would come in, say Hi to me and we'd talk for a little, mostly me just asking him basic questions, how's your day, etc etc. So it's not a surprise that Hawaii has this BIG city event during the summers that it's pretty much like a Summer Camp program, for kids 5 - 12 and from the hours of 8 -2pm. Best part is it is mostly funded by the city, there for the parents pay mostly only the costs of the bus, and fieldtrips that we take the kids on which this year ends up being like 50 bucks. So anyways this boy we'll call B (I'm not feeling very creative right now) hears about the program, and literality cheers up, and gets very excited. He asked if he could sign up and of course I told him sure, and to have his mom or dad fill out the form I gave him and bring it back with said money. So after that night he didn't come around for about a week, and sadly with all the craziness going on I forgot all about him. So when he finally does come around the following week, I asked him if he brought back the form. Well that one question seemed to have single handedly ruined this kids day as he told me about how his mom wouldn't be able to afford it etc. Now I've seen my share of good kids, but from the little time I spent with this one, I learned a lot about him. He was smart, really smart, bright, and an all around happy and well mannered 10 year old. (He keeps calling me MR I"M NOT THAT OLD SHESH) There are A lot and I mean a lot of kids in our program who don't really want to be there, but their parents don't want to have to watch them, so they toss them to us even though the kids miserable and not even giving it a try. Then there's this kid who really really wants to be in the program seems like he is in need of a good fun, and is unable due to funds. It shouldn't have bothered me, it happens some parents struggle and just can't afford things like this for their kids, when their worried about getting food on the table and etc. And I know I can't help everyone and that it's just a part of life and blah blah blah. Yet I still found myself donating the fifty dollars anonymously out of my just received paycheck, to the kid, to get him in the program. Sure I'm not rich, I don't have a lot of money or parent's who are loaded. But what I do have is a decent place to live, a car that gets me to where I need to go, great food to eat on a daily basis and family and friends who love me, and from my point of view, that makes me rich. So what's fifty dollars? At least I know it's going to a good cause, besides it just means less money for alcohol and that is ALWAYS a good thing. So with that being said, I'm official changing my degree from Education to Social Working. It's something I've been thinking about for a very long time, and even though everyone keeps telling me I won't last because there's just too much stress involved, I figure it can't hurt to at least try. I'll try and help as many kids as possible, I owe it to them. In other news... I finished a short story that I submitted for the Carpe Diem Anthology theme. And guess what, this kid was my inspiration, funny how that works right? Good Night To You Gay Authors. From your favorite Raccoon.

Mystic, whether you like it or not we're just trying to help you.

When it comes down to it, it's your choice and your life and what you do with it is all up to you. But just remember that everyone here is just trying to protect you and keep you and the 14 year old safe, that's all. We were just trying to help, remember that. That being said, take their advise or leave it.

I'm willing to bet they are even better then the jabawakka's. I'd love to see the two of them go at it.

Take them home, to the nearest cliff by your house, that's what I'd do =D

Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? - It is a requirement. We LIKE this a lot, it's a MUST. And sarcastic much? =D

I'm not even part of your team and I told you this, hahahahaha. Directions and all =D

No one could have said it better then Viv just did. Bravo.

*Flees* Jan buddy, you suck hahaha. DONT EAT MEEEEE =) Congrats!

Dad's family is in town, and I learned quite a lot about his side of the family. You see he doesn't have much living relatives left just his sister and her two daughters, both of which i saw today for the first time in about 10 years. It was a good get together, filled with lots of old memories and interesting facts about my family history. Guess what, Apparently I'm 1/6 Cherokee, and the only one stuck with brown eyes, (Darn you mom!) I always wished I had my dads blue eyes, ever since I was a little kid. Oh and I'm related to some famous bank robbers, how awesome. I did some pole dancing while we were walking on the street back to our cars, it was random and i was only caught by one person who ended up doing it too, good times. So I should be in bed, since it's 5am, but I just got home. I've been saying this in past blogs, and I know I'm just going to be repeating myself, but within the past week I've met like 20 new people, all from clubs and mutual friends and the likes. I'm totally broke again because I've been going out every single day for the past what month now? My summer contract starts in two days! Ahhhhhhh and the next two days is already planned out to the early morning hours, wonder how much longer I can go like this. Sleep won't be coming for me this morning. What to do instead, hmmmmm *Edit* I'm dancing in my chair *Spins in a circle* Weeeeee

Chase The good thing about GA like you said is that we're more or less kinda like a dysfunctional family, in a sense. *hugs* Because I know you need some.