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Cute? Maybe. Innocent? Not a chance!

Either I'd remove it, or ask Jan to remove it, and make sure you didn't put it back. Don't ever threaten your editor or beta-reader Tim. We can do evil things to your stories!

I meant the goat not you. I'm a mammal. I'm large. And I'm fiercely predatory. Especially when it comes to other mammals in the primate family. I don't want to be written into LTMP!

Thanks Kevin. I'll be alright in another day or so. Although with Tim around it's sometimes kinda hard to stay depressed. He had us both laughing so hard last night at jokes that he got yelled at for waking someone up. We tend to Skype instead of IM which makes it worse. I'm not really perky when I go to bed. It's just that normally I hate the thought of wasting time sleeping when there's so much to do. After a good night of sleeping though I do hate to get out of bed. It's so comfy and safe. It's like when I get out I know I have to face all the demons in the world. When it comes to fantasies you may have anything you desire. Look over there to your right and you'll see your hot swim guy. He's just waiting for you to have your way with him. We'll see you in a few hours!

Sadly this is often because we have to learn how to defend ourselves. Especially when we're out!

I don't want to be written into this story Tim. Stop being so evil and go back to writing.

Sorry for keeping you up so late last night.

Yes, someone finally had the guts to state out loud what I've been thinking all along. I hope this it what winds up happening. But now that the word is out the mean old goat will probably find some way to bring harm to Joe. Also, how is Joe gonna get to these concerts? And what would happen if he did manage to show up? Can you imagine the anger, tension and outright hostility that would ensue? The former lead singer turned addict trying to capitalize on his former fame would be so pathetic. No, I like to think Tim is spot on accurate in his assessment of Joe's ultimate role. Something else had been bugging me until now. The irritated encounter between Jerry and Gunter in Rome made me suspicious about something. Gunter bluntly interrupted J/S and became a fount of knowledge about history. J/S was clearly perturbed by this. I wasn't sure why exactly. One thought was the two of them were working together and J/S reacted in much the same way he does with Vladimir who is an employee. Now it seems maybe Gunter might be a spy for the good guys, trying to learn as much as he can about J/S's comings and going and trying to make sense of what some governmental agency might think they know about J/S's plans. Or perhaps these same agencies might have placed Gunter with the band as a way of trying to ensure their safety. Maybe both. Either way I think Gunter is a good guy now. I hope we get to "see" more of him. As for Vladimir, I wrote long ago he was going to get caught. And now he has. Did he really think J/S or Dimitri were that dumb after all it took to put this operation together? Regarding Wilde. Eric is constantly showing his good intentions despite being the bad boy of the band. I would now like to consider myself a full-fledged member of SPiCE. CJ, all I can do is this:

Be careful Rose. Just cause we're gay doesn't mean we can't take care of ourselves, . Then again, who am I to talk. I just called you a sweetheart in another topic. Are we gonna be part of the all-night club Rose? It sure looks that way. Hey Hylas. Give Rose hell. She deserves it (that little demon) and she can take it,

I enjoyed our IM tonight. But please, get a headset so we can Skype! I'm still sleepless so I'm catching up on some favorite podcasts cause the hand with the IV in it is hurting real bad and I've done too much typing tonight so I needed some pain meds. You're such a sweetheart Rose. I think we can do great things together as a team. And I look forward to getting to become better friends with you.

The test didn't go well. Actually I never had the test. I had another passing out episode this morning and I hit my head on the wall. Was out for about two hours. Had to call 911 and went to hospital. They observed me all day. Wanted to keep me overnight. I got my psydoc to talk them out of it cause at that point my psy-issues were worse than the other stuff cause they wouldn't give me the psymeds I need despite hours of promises and I was losing it. Had to get back home where I'll remained holed-up while I recharge my mental batteries. Then I'll go for the test again. Tried to sleep after a brief chat with Tim when I got home. It's 66.8 degrees in here but I felt like I was burning up. So it looks like I'm awake for awhile. Another weird night.

Thanks Rose. I need my sleep tonight. Tomorrow is another doctor visit. This one is a tilt-table test in which you get strapped to a table and spun every which way while having your blood pressure checked. I hope I pass out at some point cause then that will confirm my theory that a rapid drop in BP is what's been causing me to pass out. It happened again today and I collapsed on the sidewalk in front of the pharmacy. A nice man helped me to my feet and walked me into the pharmacy where my pharmacist took over. BP was 90/40. After a while it got up to 100/60 and I felt OK enough to continue on to the doctor appointment. If it is BP-related it's a good thing cause I've had hypertension and that'll mean I can be safely taken off my BP meds. Yay!

It sort of depends what's in the tea. Your basic Assam tea with sugar and milk is wonderful. Once you start adding stuff like cardamom, cinnamon, ginger, star anise, peppercorn, cloves, nutmeg, chocolate, cocoa, vanilla, licorice or saffron then it gets kind of weird.

If I had an older man in my life there's no way I'd be getting any sleep. Twinks are fun but there's nothing like an older man when it comes to relationships. I'm looking forward to reading Mike and Winston if it's anything like the teaser in corvus' signature.

A vanilla shake is always good. The Vanilla Orchid is beautiful. Vanilla sex is never good or beautiful! The Grateful Dead is one of my favorite bands. Firefox is my favorite browser. Put them together and how can you not have a rocking avatar that can also bite you in the ass? Sappy? Nope that's not the word that comes to mind. Romantic is the word I'd choose! Coffee for power sex and hot chocolate for some awesome rubdowns! See, I managed to work drinks into almost everything so I'm still on-topic!

Thanks about my new avatar. I'm not so sure about the vanilla sex either. I think vanilla is way too plain based on what I've heard. BTW, you're a great guy Jason. Sacha is lucky to have you and visa-versa. Rose we have to be careful talking to you otherwise we're all gonna wind up in your stories. I'm still in love with my OC espresso techniques!

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Ah, so you're Sacha's partner? If so it's a pleasure to meet you. Rose is a darling. It's great fun getting to know her better. I'm once again having problems with sleep. It's now been two days without sleep and it's really taking its toll.

I think I'd be honored to be your beta-reader. Whenever you're ready just let me know. I would love to beta for so many authors here. If only there were more time.

If I can help in any way please let me know.

Thanks Rose. That took courage to post in public. I admire you for that. Hopefully one day you can address those things that are too painful right now. I've seen other authors do it, sometimes without realizing it until I get to know them better. It can be quite therapeutic to write about it even if you never post it.

Thanks Jan. There's so much good stuff to read here. I don't know how people manage to find time to read it all.

You've shattered an obviously erroneous assumption of mine. I would think that someone who works around coffee all day would get tired of it. Maybe even hate it. Clearly I'm wrong. Is it really an addiction, or more of a passion?

Thanks for a thorough and patient explanation Rose. You know, maybe it's my own internal prejudices that I don't like to admit, but I've never considered reading a male/male story written by a woman. Now I'm thinking that it might be interesting to try reading something like that. I can understand not liking to write about straight relationships. But I guess one of many questions that still lingers in my mind is why you don't write stories that involve lesbian or bi women leaning male stories? Is there something about that which makes you uncomfortable? Another question I'm left with is what you meant about "no actual pairings." Does that mean it's just gay friends? Or are there relationships and you prefer not to write about sex? On a certain level I prefer stories where the sex isn't explicit. CJ, for example, and Jack Scribe as well often make it clear that something has happened without being graphic about it. There's something especially erotic about leaving something to the imagination. I suppose that's why, for example, I prefer the old-style horror films where much was left to the imagination. Alfred Hitchcock comes to mind. Thanks again for helping me expand my knowledge and horizons.

Thanks Benji. I'll try to start it today.