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2011 - Summer - Walk on the Wild Side Entry

Rachel Wells - 1. Chapter 1

 

Rachel Wells, by bugeye.
 
 
Rachel Wells sat at her dressing table, the club’s dressing table, with her face in her hands. It was the “star’s” dressing room. Really, it only caused drama among the other performers. Most of the regulars and the try outs got ready in the larger room just outside her door. Concrete block walls painted pink with honest to goodness white, brocade curtains hung in the four corners, tastefully draped and swagged. The antique vanity itself was large and distressed from real years of use; but lovely, having been painted over and over many times. It was an odd shade of green in this reincarnation with hand-painted motifs. The central mirror was beveled and encased in a carved frame, the two side mirrors were on hinges creating a triad of realities. This regal throne to show biz of sorts was set in an alcove of spot lights, but they were turned off. Only one vanity light was on. Rachel wanted it that way.
 
 
The face in the mirror studied its duplicate face in the world. What beautifully, strange eyebrows. Masculine on the feline face. Feminine on the angular face. Just one of those dichotomies in a life of dualities. Such large eyes so deeply set, almost hidden in the fluttering wings of long lashes. Rachel had been thinking a lot lately. Mostly about the past. And a little about the future. The future.
 
 
Mr. Harold, he insisted on this title, was the club owner and was forever complaining of the bottom line and the headaches and the bitches. Mr. Harold thought of himself as a decorator and he was; he was also a long time friend or maybe the only family left to Rachel. The Club was his masterwork, he would say as he added another piece of Blount glass to the displays in his oversized office. Rachel was sitting here now mostly for him. She owed him almost as much as she owed Connie.
 
 
Rachel had decided to perform a tribute to her favorite artist tonight. She wasn’t worried about her voice. That was pitch perfect. She wasn’t worried about projecting Annie’s persona. That was nailed after weeks of practice. And her dress, why worry, please. She had made it herself. She knew it was magnificent. A formal gown with a sparkling blouse top with long sleeves… and a very full, floor length skirt just like thunder clouds. She wouldn’t wear any jewelry and the only makeup would be lipstick and black powder around her eyes. Her hair was already slicked back. Connie had taught her to sew and to sing and to perform. Was it from love that she excelled at these things? But mostly, Connie showed her how to live and be happy just by her own example. So why all the questions now?
 
 
Connie had been gone now for a month, just today. Cremated as per her final wishes. Rachel raised her eyes and looked into her mirror again. Raphael, she whispered. It was her true name. Years ago, she had run away from everything in her young life that could no longer be bared. She ran and ran because there was no hope. Until suddenly, she fell into Connie’s world. Her Constantine. Out of nowhere, a hand reached toward her closer and closer and stopped, with palm up. She remembered. Raphael had taken the hand and stared at the angel that stood above him. It had been and to this day was still a miracle. To Rachel.
 
 
Instead of dying that night, she remembered waking up the next morning on an old and very fluffy couch in a living room, the kind that had a huge, oversized picture window framing a different world. It was all so green and full of flowers. Raphael’s clothes, washed and neatly folded, were on a chair across from the sofa. That morning so long ago, he had been wearing a kind of “nightgown” for lack of a better word for it. Connie had simply said think of it as an oversized T-shirt. There was a note on top of the clothes.
 
 
Sorry, but I just had to go to the fabric store this morning. I made promises and I have to deliver on them. There is breakfast for you in the oven or cereal and milk if you prefer. If you choose to leave before I get back there is money in your jeans pocket. The best I could do at the moment. If you choose to stay, we will find a way to hide you.
 
 
And Raphael had stayed. He ate his breakfast and washed the dishes and fell asleep again on the oversized sofa. He was still so tired and confused. Connie was true to her word and did find a way to hide Raphael. It never occurred to either of them that the way was a bit unorthodox.
 
 
Constantine Wells had been a costume designer full time back then. Once, Connie performed also, but best not to dwell on the past, she always would say. The fabric sale was fabulous that day. Not only did she find everything she needed for the immediate jobs she was working on, she also found some fabric that she knew would have her clients fighting tooth and nail over. If only she knew what to do about the boy who had stayed.
 
 
Connie always had been to the point and definite in her decisions. There was no question or doubt but always room for… love. She raised Raphael as a girl, Rachel. And never looked back.
 
 
Next to the old dressing table was a shopping bag. Inside was a pair of sneakers, a pair of jeans, a t-shirt, and a long sleeved shirt. Rachel had bought them at Goodwill. Why spend good money on something she was not so sure of? Tonight after the midnight show, she was going to walk out of this dressing room as Raphael.
 
 
Maybe.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
6.2.11
 
 

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I would like to see more too.

 

it is such an intersting story. You are one of those people who can give us a novel in 1500 words.

 

it's not as wild as your usual fare and it's poetic in a very different way. It shows your true breadth of skill and I love it.

 

Connie sounds like such a wonderful person. I wonder if Rachel remained Rachel just because of her. The one word at the end makes a hell of a difference and says such a lot. How can you say so much in just one word :)

 

I would like to see more... but...

On 06/12/2011 11:03 PM, Nephylim said:
I would like to see more too.

 

it is such an intersting story. You are one of those people who can give us a novel in 1500 words.

 

it's not as wild as your usual fare and it's poetic in a very different way. It shows your true breadth of skill and I love it.

 

Connie sounds like such a wonderful person. I wonder if Rachel remained Rachel just because of her. The one word at the end makes a hell of a difference and says such a lot. How can you say so much in just one word :)

 

I would like to see more... but...

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Short but lovely. I really do like this story, Rachel's change from Raphael to Rachel to who knows... I wonder about the relationship between Connie/Constantine and Rachel... it is filial love or romantic love? Can Raphael now deal with whatever drove him to the brink before? There is only one part that really bothered me and that was when Connie was at the fabric store. For that one brief paragraph you switch over to her point of view and that really thrust me out of the style you were using of a stream of consciousness from Rachel, since it wasn't her voice. If you couched that in a memory of something Connie told Rachel it would work but it's not a big detraction from the story as is, just not quite right.

 

 

On 06/13/2011 05:59 AM, Cia said:
Short but lovely. I really do like this story, Rachel's change from Raphael to Rachel to who knows... I wonder about the relationship between Connie/Constantine and Rachel... it is filial love or romantic love? Can Raphael now deal with whatever drove him to the brink before? There is only one part that really bothered me and that was when Connie was at the fabric store. For that one brief paragraph you switch over to her point of view and that really thrust me out of the style you were using of a stream of consciousness from Rachel, since it wasn't her voice. If you couched that in a memory of something Connie told Rachel it would work but it's not a big detraction from the story as is, just not quite right.

 

Thank you.

We either do not really notice or we want to know the true reasons behind a situation. We want to know where it all leads to. But all we do is glimpse at somebody's life from our own perspective. Life does not provide reasons and it does not give 100% answers. We feel disappointed then. We would not feel this way if we left things as they are. Your story is a glimpse. And it feels right to leave it at that. Since such is life.

 

I liked it. I wrote a glimpse, too. I currently feel unable to write a all wrapped up story. I feel restricted by this target.

 

Like everybody else, I really liked this. It took me a wee bit of time to pick up the point. I think I was too annoyed at the heavy handed metaphor of duality at the beginning. A little less would have been a lot more .. at least I would have been able to concentrate.

 

I do wonder about this love, though. I am afraid I can't take it for granted. I see an awful lot of mixed emotion, turmoil, survivor angst, victim angst, and sheer rage in much of it. I wonder how much you were trying to allude to the kidnapped and held girl story currently in the US (there's one in Germany too I believe atm).

 

Oh, and I don't think there is any maybe about it, either. Raphael will return, though how permanent or episodic that is likely to be, I don't know.

 

Anyhow, a definite worthwhile read, a good poke in the ribs to make me wonder, and a nice poignancy too. Thank you. :)

On 06/13/2011 05:34 PM, Dolores Esteban said:
We either do not really notice or we want to know the true reasons behind a situation. We want to know where it all leads to. But all we do is glimpse at somebody's life from our own perspective. Life does not provide reasons and it does not give 100% answers. We feel disappointed then. We would not feel this way if we left things as they are. Your story is a glimpse. And it feels right to leave it at that. Since such is life.

 

I liked it. I wrote a glimpse, too. I currently feel unable to write a all wrapped up story. I feel restricted by this target.

 

I always look forward to your anthologies, I am a fan. Thanks for reading and the nice review.
On 06/14/2011 02:39 AM, Kev de Cauchery said:
I like the open ending. To me, it's really organic. (Yeah, what we talked about.)

 

Would like to know more but such is life.

 

And I thought Raphael was meant to be Rachel, but yet she wants to go back to Raphael? :blink:

 

Just really nice. Intriguing

 

I don't know if I made this story so ambiguous by design or just an instinctive need to set a mood. Maybe in this case a Raphael is a Rachel is a Raphael is a Rachel. Thanks for reading Kevin and the review.
On 06/14/2011 07:09 AM, CarlHoliday said:
Such a nice short story.

 

Will Rachel go back? It's nice you left that unsaid; gives you an opening for a sequel, which I hope will have the same degree of brevity. :lol:

I think this a story about possibility. Life has not shut a door on Rachel yet and Rachel has found that doors can be opened. However, improbable. How do you hold hope in your trembling hands? Well, see these are my answers. I hope my little story gave you your own. Thanks for reading and the review. I am feeling long winded today Carl :P
On 06/15/2011 02:45 PM, comicfan said:
Sam,

 

In chat you say so little and yet you get your point across. Here you have done the same. Your ability to put so much meaning with so few words. It was a truly interesting read and I enjoyed it greatly.

Thank you Comic for reading and giving a review. I guess a writer needs a reader or a listener to get a point across. How do you get them to be receptive or involved is another matter. In a way Rachel is pouring out her entire being in this short time. In is something we understand, that everyone has experienced. Or at least I hope so.
On 06/15/2011 03:57 PM, Renee Stevens said:
Sam~

 

I never did believe when you said you were better to just stick to poetry and this story just proves that. Thanks for a great read!

 

Hugs

What do I aspire to, with all this. These few stories and poems? I guess to express all my doubts and worries and fears. The fullness of my pettiness. I struggle to find strength and honesty in my self and love that just is there always. Thanks for reading and thanks for having your own reasons for writing and reading and living.

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