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    R. Eric
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Blueblood 5: Exposed The Secrets about V5H Revealed - 9. Daniel. A Tribute

Not story related, but I have to do this.

Most know I lost my husband, Daniel Anthony Vacca, April, 1, 2017. You know I dedicate all my stories to him and he is all my characters from Seth, Ben, Brad, Matt, Tony, Rain…my love interest. He still is. He is and will be the only man I can or ever will love. I had a very bad week. The worst I have ever gone through in my life. I couldn’t stop crying after eight months of Daniel’s death! This week it just seemed to overflow! I was in a fog of depression and I really…more than once contemplated joining Daniel. I really did. I confessed this a little to a very dear friend. I said I wasn’t and I couldn’t kill myself. Daniel fought like hell to stay here with me. He tried so hard, but he just couldn’t beat the cancer. I will never, ever stop loving Daniel. I can endure the next ten or twenty years if necessary. It will an end for me like everyone else. We die. Daniel is gone. He died. It would be an insult to him for me to just quit and die. He wouldn’t speak to me afterwards when I get there, if we go anywhere. My stories will continue. I will again say, I love my husband, because I do. I have regrets. There are things in my mind I go over and know I could have done better as a husband. We were human and we both knew that.

No one knows what’s beyond life. Is that which is you, looking out your eyes, seeing the world just going to stop? I don’t know. Am I going to take a chance? Do I have a choice? If I can see Daniel again? Hell, yes!!! I pray there is and we will see each other again!

I’ve said it before, but hear me. Find LOVE!! I don’t mean a fuck in the back alley or a hot guy at the end of the bar. Life is short. You’re wasting valuable life. Find someone that values you. You make sure you value them!

 

Good Bye, Daniel

I’ll never forget you.

I will always love you.

 

North Meets South will continue. He gave a valiant struggle and the emotions will be real. It will take some time for me to write. Blueblood and Makarovia will continue and I will finish the other outstanding stories. I will!

 

Now, back to being me. Daniel loved me being a wiseass. I love that Ronnie Milsap song, “I Wouldn’t Missed It For The World.” I have a problem with more than the gender being sung to. It must be sooome important reason she’s leaving. And there must be sooomme important reason he’s not going with her. If he valued her that much…go after her dumbass!!! Stop her if she makes your life worthwhile! Daniel didn’t have a choice. Did she? Did the one singing the song!? LOVE IS MORE IMPORTANT!!

Copyright © 2017 R. Eric; All Rights Reserved.
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Butcher56

I do believe this was the best way to express your feelings toward someone who was very important to you for many years. I'm sure that Ronnie Milsap had a reason for the song, I Wouldn't Have Missed It For The World. We'll never really know what the reason was for the song. I think that in your case you knew that Daniel was going to die even though in your heart you hoped it wouldn't happen any time soon, now that it has you're dealing with some serious emotions and you're not sure why it's happening thus the reason for the depression. I'm only saying this because I still have times when I think about my wife and I get depressed because unlike your situation I had no advanced warning of her death. We were married 24 years when she passed away from a grand mal seizure, the only bright spot was that she lived long enough to see our youngest son get the needed kidney transplant that he desperately needed or he would have been gone as well. I hope that you can remember the good times you had with Daniel as a way to keep his memory there for you. I hope that by writing these words that I have that I don't upset you when you read them. It wasn't my intention upset you. I for one can say I really enjoy the stories that you write. 

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1 minute ago, Butcher56 said:

 It wasn't my intention upset you. I for one can say I really enjoy the stories that you write. 

I was in denial.  I tried so hard to keep him here.  A battle I couldn't win.  I still hurt very much.  Even toward the end, I knew somehow, he'd live.  When he died.  I was shocked!  I know about emotional protection and the things we do to remain sane.  I knew what I was doing, but helpless to stop it.  Writing is cathartic for me.  It keeps my mind busy and I do remember him better.  Daniel is gone.  I can't bring him back.  I remember him.  I think about him when I wake up and is my last thought of the day.  I miss him so much.  Something I just needed to realize will be until I die.  He was a good, good man.  He has no equal.  He made the years we had together special for me.  I have memories.  I'll never lose them or Daniel.

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Akronmo

I'm 66, and life has been too damned long for too damned long, but I stick around after a failed attempt to get out. In1979 my 9 year old daughter died--that was the worst, but I've a litany of personal tragedies. I'm tempted to list them just to vent, but as you know we all, most of us, have broken hearts. Anyway, I played the song; shared it on Facebook even though I have an unfortunate reaction to country music. Thanks for the music, the shared emotions, and an addictive story.

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