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Love Looked at Me and Laughed and other poems - 1. frightening stuff

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Love Looked at Me and Laughed

and other poems written

for Brian[1]

 

 

 

“I want to be

what I see reflected

in your eyes.”

 


 

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by AC Benus

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Poem No. 1

 

first poem

 

If I say it now,

and say it for seventy years more,

will one day you truly believe…?

 

 

Poem No. 2

 

Prelude:

 

What need I do

what need I say

to prove this is real

 

What words to write

what thoughts to speak

to make you believe

 

For the night was fragile

and in the end, the sun prevailed

for it was much too soon to end

what things of wonder we began

 

So

 

What need I be

what words to pen

to prove this is real

 

When words too frail

to hold what has gone

trust me not to fail

I’ll keep through the dawn

 

What need I do

what need I say

to prove this is real

 

What words to write

what thoughts to speak

to make you believe

 

For the night was fragile

and in the end, the sun prevailed

for it was much too soon to end

what things of wonder we began

 

 

Poem:

 

Seven o’clock, Eight o’clock,

Nine o’clock, ten,

Why doesn’t it ring, with news of him.

 

Eleven o’clock, Noon, one and two,

What madness not to be with you.

 

Three till five, and five till Nine,

Is there no relief, no peace of mind.

 

From ten till seven,

All hope is gone;

Oh, God, please let this scenario be wrong.

 

No answer yet has come,

Sweet sorrow, for what was begun.

 

 

Postlude:

 

Is love just a trick

that can be pulled from the air

like a furry white rabbit

from a hat that doesn’t play fair.

 

From nowhere can it appear

with no warning or rhyme

like an actor from backstage

who knows not his lines.

 

No, love is surrender

and suddenly it’s free

no weapons were needed

only the you and the me.

 

Love is no trick

that’s certain enough

for all of its kindness

it's frightening stuff.

 

 

 

[1] My first boyfriend

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Copyright © 2018 AC Benus; All Rights Reserved.
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mollyhousemouse

poem 1 and poem 2 have such a pleading quality, one can only hope that the right words were spoken and the other person (Brian) realized the depth of your feelings, this is the kind of poem one might copy from a book in the library to send with flowers

the third, the waiting...there was a time when we were newlyweds, there was a training accident, and i was waiting for what seemed like forever for a call.....that feeling comes to the fore with this piece

the third one?  love is surrender isn't it?  and it can be frightening...

 

AC, thanks for sharing your gift with us

:hug:

 

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On 8/5/2018 at 4:01 PM, BHopper2 said:

I've read this about four times now, trying to find the words to express what this is making me feel. I'm at a loss to do so. I will say, they were fantastic, well written, and I could feel the emotion in them. Love, confusion, sorrow.

Thank you, A, for reading and commenting. Just reading them and feeling them is more than enough for me :) I appreciate you giving them a chance.

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On 8/5/2018 at 4:04 PM, Mikiesboy said:

I really like poem 1.

 

Poem 2 is really good. Sad because you were obviously waiting.  And interesting in the postlude that you've determine love to be frightening. I suppose in some ways it can seem that way.. especially at the beginning of the relationship.

 

i look forward to more AC

Thank you for reading, Tim. The response to these poems was pretty good, so I'm looking forward to posting them all. Thanks again

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On 8/5/2018 at 4:45 PM, MichaelS36 said:

I also like the first … brings back a memory of trying to convince a boy terrified of love and commitment that I meant it. 

 

Two as well is touching...and love.. the real thing can be scary at first.  Real touching work AC. Thank you. 

Wonderful comments, Mike. Thank you -- hearing that people can relate to my stuff is always the best kind of feedback :)

 

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On 8/5/2018 at 6:36 PM, Parker Owens said:

Your poem rounding the clock, waiting for word, for reconnection, is wonderful in its breathless impatience. How lucky Brian was to have words like this penned for him. 

Thank you, Parker. The clock poem garnered a fair bit of mention, so I'm happy people can say they had the same experience. More from this collection coming shortly.

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On 8/5/2018 at 7:40 PM, mollyhousemouse said:

poem 1 and poem 2 have such a pleading quality, one can only hope that the right words were spoken and the other person (Brian) realized the depth of your feelings, this is the kind of poem one might copy from a book in the library to send with flowers

the third, the waiting...there was a time when we were newlyweds, there was a training accident, and i was waiting for what seemed like forever for a call.....that feeling comes to the fore with this piece

the third one?  love is surrender isn't it?  and it can be frightening...

 

AC, thanks for sharing your gift with us

:hug:

 

Thank you, Molly. Your comments about copying the poem to send to somebody with flowers made my day! That's a sweet image, and i can only hope 'someday.' 

 

For the waiting poem, your sharing a similar emotion is very much appreciated. It's great when we can all share and find out how alike we really are. Muah! 

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On 8/6/2018 at 8:36 AM, Zenobia said:

I can only repeat what the other comments say :)

You describe all the different aspects of love, the different feelings conncted with it which are often hard to name in a specific word (so there is painful love, joyful love, hopeful love etc.).

Thanks, Zenobia. Yes, all the feelings and the words that go with them are in a jumble. As poets, I guess it's our job to do a little sifting and filing. More poems soon. 

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