mollyhousemouse

Happy Friday! billing went off without a hitch, great conversation with a new operations manager who had no clue about our systems or what"progressive billing" was, handled a client call, and early release with a "good job this week" Phil had burgers ready for the grill ❤️ i made a loaf of potato bread for the weekend and we watched the splash down of Integrity in the Pacific Ocean i hope that everyone here had a good day and has good plans for the weekend

thanks You Sir my inner dialogue is a recurring theme in my sessions. i'm also using like affirmations around my work space i'm so glad that tim is ble to talk to himself in such a way to get out of that trap. my therapist congratulated me in my progress recently and that felt good

i want to thank everyone who took the time to read and comment. Or just read. my journey is far from over, in fact today i sent a message to my therapist "will i ever be able to hear "hey let's talk about the schedule." without that feeling." i want you to know that i appreciate all the support from here. 💜

Who am i? It’s a question i think we all ask from time to time. i've been asking that a lot recently. i’m doing some work on myself, talking with a therapist almost weekly and it’s been a really good thing. Except. i'm discovering that i’m not who i thought i was. Kind of. i’ve discovered that i really am “good enough” and that “good enough” isn’t “average” or “meh” in the way that it was in my head. “Good enough” always had a negative connotation. But it’s not really a negative. So, yeah, i am good enough. i’ve discovered that i am damn good. That the fear that was activating, ramping up, encouraging my anxious responses was just that, fear. It wasn’t that i wasn’t “good enough” or “a failure.” It was that i had thought, i had believed, that i wasn’t damn good or good enough or that i was a failure. Some of that was input from authority figures growing up, from other managers, other authority figures in past jobs. Almost a brainwashing… although i’m not sure if my therapist would agree with that term. The process hasn’t been, won’t be, easy. Just saying those things isn’t enough, i have to believe them, honestly in my heart and in my head believe them. The thing is this isn’t just how it affects my professional life. i’ve uncovered how it affected my personal life. That i am worthy of the love i receive, i am worthy to see myself the way Phil sees me, i am confident in what i do. So, who am i now? I’m still figuring that out. i am confident, capable and worthy. i am “damn good, not just good enough.” i am not a failure.

Happy Friday i hope to be around more

i hope you all feel better soon. we've been lucky so far this year with illness. today is my "me day." Sundays i get to sleep in. then i get a coffee and send Phil to His golf coach. i watch some videos, start the laundry, cuddle the dogs and get ready for my video chat with my therapist. (thanks BetterHelp.) if im lucky, Phil will bring breakfast tacos home. maybe a football game on tv later. @spykecan't wait to hear how the "great slow cooker onions" turn out see y'all around

when Phil isn't well, He sleeps, deep and hard. i am doing SO MUCH better. my new therapist is so good. sending love and hugs

when Phil isn't well, He sleeps, deep and hard. i am doing SO MUCH better. my new therapist is so good. sending love and hugs

have a wonderful day tim. i hope the Husband feels better soon.

laundry washed, dried & folded ✔️ clothes for Monday & Tuesday chosen ✔️ groceries for next week ordered ✔️ spent time unplugged and in nature ✔️ plan in place for owning Monday ✔️ have a good rest of your day 💗

it was brisket cook-off weekend. no trophy this year, 😔 but we got all of this vacuum sealed and in the freezer. i love that He loves to do this, even when He doesn't win.

i wanted to tell you that even though i don't post often, i look forward to seeing these little tidbits every day.

Did anyone else wake up thinking it was Thursday? just me? hope you are well

they look like a fiery sunset over the mountains.

not in Canada but interested in hearing how it goes ... 😊