The Castaway Hotel: Next Generation Book 2 - 26. A Change of Heart

The next week started off fairly uneventful, but that all changed on Thursday morning when I went to wake Ryan. As soon as he opened his eyes, an expression of horror crossed his face.

"What's wrong?" I asked, wondering what caused his reaction.

Ryan's face started to turn red, so I had a feeling that whatever the problem, it was at least mildly embarrassing for him. I waited for a response, and after several seconds he finally spoke.

"I think I wet the bed, but I haven't done that in years." He was almost in tears as he spoke and reached his hand down to see if it was actually what had happened. "It's all sticky and I'm really sorry."

As he got out of bed, I examined his sheet to see if it would confirm my suspicion. "Ryan, you didn't wet the bed. You had what is referred to as a nocturnal emission, or a wet dream."

"Huh?"

"Do you masturbate?"
"What's that?"

"Maybe you call it jerking off or jacking off, but it's when you rub your penis because it feels good."

He blushed again. "Yeah, I guess I do it sometimes."

"Does anything come out of the slit at the end when you do it?"

"Nah, it just feels good and makes me all tingly."

"Well, I think you're going to start finding out that a liquid is going to shot out of your penis when you do it from now on. It's called an ejaculation and the liquid is semen. It contains your sperm, and those are the cells that could cause a girl to have a baby, if you ejaculated in her when you're making love."

"But I didn't do nothin' like that."

"I know you didn't, but sometimes at night the same thing can happen if you have a really sexy dream. Something must have been on your mind last night and caused you to ejaculate when you were sleeping."

He blushed again and then responded. "I guess maybe I did. I was thinkin' 'bout somethin' like that before I went to sleep."

"Do you mind sharing what it was with me?"

"Nah, cuz I'm embarrassed and you're gonna think I'm dumb."

"No, I won't, and you don't have to be embarrassed either. I won't make fun of you or treat you any differently, but I'd just like to know what caused this to happen."

He hesitated for a minute and studied my face to see if he thought he should do this, but he eventually relented. "Ok, but don't get mad or laugh at me. I was thinking about seeing everyone naked in the locker room when we went swimmin'."

"I see. And were you thinking of anyone in particular?"

"Kinda, but it wasn't just one person."

"Do you mind telling me who you were thinking about then?"

His chin suddenly drooped onto his chest and he began staring at the floor. His head was swaying gently from side to side, and he was shifting his weight uneasily from one leg to the other. I could see he didn't want to disclose this information, but I really wanted to know.

"Promise you won't laugh or get mad."

"I promise."

"I was thinkin' 'bout you, Dad Brandon, and Noah. You've all got bigger dicks than me and I was thinkin' I hoped mine looked like yours when I got older. That's what I was thinkin' 'bout when I fell asleep."

"That's nothing to be embarrassed about, and I'm sure all boys do things like that at one time or another. In fact, I feel honored that you admire how I look, and I'm sure the other two would as well."

"Don't tell them! You gotta promise."

"I wasn't going to tell them, but I was just saying that I thought they would feel the same way as I do, if they knew." Suddenly he exhaled, so he'd apparently been holding his breath thinking I was going to tell the other two. "In the meantime, I think you should go to the bathroom, wet a washcloth, and clean yourself off. While you're doing that, I'll remove the sheets from your bed, but we won't make it until later. Right now we both have to head downstairs to eat, so we'll still have time to get dressed afterward."

"K. I'll hurry then, and thanks for explaining this to me and not gettin' mad."

"There's nothing to be mad about. It's all part of growing up and I'm sure it has happened to all of us at one time or another. I'd also be willing to bet that it will probably happen to you again at some point."

"Geez, I hope not, but thanks."

Brandon asked what took me so long when I got to the dining room, so I told him I'd explain later, and then I filled him in as we drove to work. "I'll bet he was mostly thinking about you, but Noah and me too?"

"That's what he said, so feel honored. It means that out of the entire family, we're his top three fantasies." I laughed after admitting this.

"From the way he's been acting around you, I was certain you would have been one of them, and maybe Noah too, but I didn't think he was looking at me that way."

"Obviously he was, but don't let him know I told you, because I promised I'd keep it a secret. I'm just letting you know so you can keep your eyes open and see if you can pick up on anything else."

"I'll do that, but I'm still amazed."

When we got home after work that night, I found Ryan and asked if he wanted me to help him make his bed. "Nah, I already did it."

"Oh, ok. Do you have any more questions for me?"

"Not now, but I might later."

"Ok, anytime. Just let me know."

When we went up to tuck him in later, he had something else on his mind. "Can I just talk to you for awhile, ummm, maybe alone?" he added as he glance over at Brandon.

Brandon merely nodded before he kissed Ryan on the forehead, bid him goodnight, and left the room.

"I hope he's not mad, but it's hard enough to tell you this stuff, and it would be even harder with him here too."

"I know, and I'm sure he understands. So what is it you want to talk about?"

"You remember this mornin', when you asked me if I jacked off?" I nodded in response. "We'll I was wonderin' if there's a right way to do it. I just kinda started rubbing myself there, but I want to know if I'm doin' it right."

"I'm not sure if there's a wrong way to do it, as long as it feels good, but there are different grips you can use. You'll just have to figure out which one works the best for you."

"Can you show me what they are?"

"I'll use the index finger on my left hand to represent a penis, and then I'll demonstrate on that. Would this be sufficient for you?"

"Yeah, I guess, unless you just want to do it to me."

"No, that wouldn't be appropriate, so just watch while I explain."

I then demonstrated several grips, starting with one finger and thumb. Then I showed him doing it using two fingers and thumb, all four fingers and thumb, cupping it with the palm but not wrapping the fingers around the shaft, a reverse grip, and gripping it from underneath. He watched as I showed him each one and didn't say anything until I finished.

"Thanks, and that helps a lot. I was usin' two fingers and thumb to do it, so I guess I musta just figured it out on my own. I'm glad you showed me all that stuff too, because now I know a lot more."

"You're welcome and you can ask me anything you want at anytime. Just let me know so we can do it in private, if that's what you'd prefer."

"Yeah, that would be better and I'll ask whenever I have another question. Thanks."

I then tucked him in, but as I bent down to kiss his forehead he pulled his arms out from under the covers, wrapped them around my neck, and gave me a hug. "Thanks, Dad. That was a big help and I love ya."

"I love you too, son, and you're welcome."

I then kissed his forehead again and turned off the light as I left the room. You would think that after going over things like this with both Elliot and Noah that I wouldn't have a problem doing it with Ryan too, but they hadn't been looking at me the way Ryan was. Not only that, but they also didn't offer to let me do it to them. I hope he got the message and doesn't let this get out of hand, because I don't want to hurt his feelings later. I hope he gets over this little crush on his own, if that's what it is, because hearts can easily be broken due to unfulfilled puppy love.

Friday was fairly unremarkable, and when we took the boys swimming on Saturday, I discretely kept an eye on Ryan. Not only was he unabashedly showing off his body again, but I saw him ogling Noah, Brandon, and my penises. He was glancing at the others too, but not for as long or intensely as he was doing it with us. I didn't comment about it, however, because it was a harmless activity, although I was worried that he was fantasizing about doing more than just looking.

After lunch, Noah came up to me and I could tell he had something on his mind. "Can we go somewhere to talk?"

"Sure, how about the living room?"

"Uh, can we go somewhere with a door that we can shut, so no one else will hear?"

"Ok, how about your old bedroom. No one should be hanging out there."

"Yeah, that will work."

I quickly told Brandon I had something to do and then walked upstairs with Noah. We entered his old bedroom and I shut and locked the door behind us. Then, we sat down on the bed. "What's up?"

"Ryan asked me something and I didn't know what to tell him."

"Ok, what did he ask?"

"I'd told him before that I'd messed around a little with Elliot when I was younger and that we'd jacked each other off and even sucked one another. When we got home a little while ago, he wanted to know if I would do that with him."

"And how do you feel about it, and how did you respond?"

"At first I couldn't believe he'd asked me to do it, especially after the way he'd acted when he first got here. It made me nervous that if I agreed he might change his mind after we did it and then freak out."

"Did you tell him that?"

"No, I just said I'd have to think about it."

"If he promises not to do anything like that, would you be interested in doing it with him?"

"Yeah, I wouldn't mind helpin' him out. I'm not gay, but I'd do it for him if I could be sure that nothin' bad would happen afterward."

"Do you want to discuss this with him alone, or would you like my help. I'll do it with you, if that's what you want, but I won't do it for you."

"I'd feel better if you were there and heard what he agreed on. That way if something happens afterward, you'd know I didn't force him and it was his choice."

"Ok, then go get him and bring him up here. I'll wait until you get back."

"K," he agreed as he headed out the door and raced downstairs. Before long, he returned with Ryan trailing behind. When Ryan saw me in the room, he looked between Noah and me and spoke.

"What's Dad doin' here?"

"I wanted him to be here when we talked about this, so he'd know what you agreed to."

"So you told him what I asked?"

"Yeah, and he's cool with it. I just wanted to talk to you about something before I agreed. Will you promise not to spazz out if I do this with you?"

"Yeah, or I wouldn't have asked. I just want to see if it's any different when you do it to me, but I want to see what it's like doin' it to you too."

"Ok, then we can jack each other off if you still want to. I was just worried about how you might react later, seeing how you were when you first got here."

"Yeah, I can see why you'd think that. I guess I would have been worried too, if I were you. I still want to do it with you, though, but I just didn't want everyone else to know."

"They don't and I only told Dad. I trust him, and I think you do too."

"Yeah, I do, so you don't mind if we do this?" he asked looking at me.

"No, as long as you've both agreed to it. It would only be a problem if someone was being forced to do it, or if one of you hurt the other one, but I have no problem with you trying a little mutual masturbation."

"So you don't think it's weird?"

"It's not weird at all, because a lot of boys do it, even those that aren't gay. Boys like to experiment and try different things, and doing things like this with someone else helps to confirm that they're doing it correctly."

"Yeah, that's why I wanted to do it."

"Then I'll leave you boys alone. You can either do it now or later, it's up to you."

"K, and thanks for not getting mad or thinking this was weird."

"You're welcome, but neither of those things ever crossed my mind."

I then left them alone as they began to discuss when and where they were going to do it. As I was partway down the stairs, I heard them going up to the third floor to one of their bedrooms. I take it that meant they were going to do it now, so I'd just keep my ears open for any problems over the next half hour or so, not that it will take them that long."

When they came downstairs again later, they were both smiling broadly, so I figured everything must have worked out to their satisfaction. Noah even gave me a wink, to let me know there were no problems, but I figured he might fill me in about it in more detail later. I was right, because he asked me to come to his room AFTER I finished with Ryan tonight. I mentioned all of this to Brandon, so he'd know what I was up to later and would just say goodnight to Noah before the two of us talked.

Later, after we'd tucked the younger boys in and said goodnight, we went up to say goodnight to Noah next, before heading over to Ryan's room. That's what we normally did, and I didn't want Ryan to get suspicious, so we followed the same routine tonight. However, after we finished with him, Brandon went downstairs while I went back to Noah's room. Then, we whispered so Ryan wouldn't overhear our conversation.

"There were no problems at all, but he sure made a lot of noise while I was beatin' his meat."

"Yes, some guys are like that."

"He's got a pretty nice dick and shot more than I thought he would, but he seemed to enjoy having me do it to him. He did it to me afterward and kept saying what a big dick I had. We only jacked each other off, but I think he might want to try suckin' each other sometime too."

"That's fine, as long as you both agree to do it."

"Yeah, I'll do it with him if he wants, but I'll be ok if he doesn't want to do it either."

"Ok, that's good to know, and thanks for filling me in about what you did."

"Did Elliot tell you when we did it?"

"Not quite the same way you just did, but I knew you two fooled around. I was ok with it, as long as you both wanted to do it."

"Yeah, and I was the one who asked him. He agreed because he's gay and is happy doing stuff with any dick."

"I'm not sure I'd go that far about what he'd do, but I'm sure he was happy that you asked him."

"Yeah, he was, and we did it a few times together. He taught me a lot, but we never did any of the butt stuff."

"That doesn't surprise me, seeing you're not gay, and I'm glad he didn't try to pressure you into it."

"Nah, he just told me he was willing, if I ever wanted to try it, but I never did."

"Ok, now get to sleep, because we have church tomorrow."

On Sunday we went to church with Dad and Pop again, and then we stopped for brunch on the way home. Ryan and Noah kept whispering to each other in the SUV, and again when we were at the diner, so it made me wonder if they were just talking about what they'd done or if they were planning another session. I wasn't sure if Noah would tell me about it if they did it again, but as long as that's what they both wanted, I wasn't going to bug them about it.

I was sitting in the living room later, when I noticed Noah signal that he wanted me to follow him upstairs. I waited a few seconds after he'd disappeared, in case anyone else had seen what he'd done too, and then I went to his old room first, figuring I'd find him there. When I discovered the room was empty, I headed up to his room next. He was sitting on the bed waiting for me.

"I was beginnin' to wonder if you'd understood what I wanted," he said as I walked into the room.

"I did, but I waited so no one would see me immediately follow you. That might have made them suspicious."

"Yeah, that's cool."

"So what did you want?"

"I just wanted to tell you what we did earlier. Ryan kept askin' me if we could do it again, so I told him we could. When I started jackin' him this time, he said he wanted to know what it felt like to have someone suck his dick, and if it felt the same as when he jacked it. I stopped and sucked him off instead, but he wasn't ready to do that to me, so he just jerked me off instead."

"Thank you for letting me know. So how did he react after you finished?"

"He just about screamed when he shot his load, and then he told me it was way better than just doing it with your hand. I think he's gonna want to do it again, and I'll do it a couple more times with him, but that's it. I hope he won't get mad when I don't want to do it any more, so I thought you should know. I'm wonderin' if he might try to get someone else to do it with him when I stop, so this way you can talk to him about it before he gets into any trouble."

"Thanks, and maybe I'll do that when I tuck him in later. After stating that he didn't want to do anything like that when he first got here, it sounds like he might turn into Frankenstein's monster, if we don't get things under control."

"Yeah, that's what I thought too, and it's why I wanted you to know about this."

"Thanks, and just let me know when you tell him that you're doing it for the last time."

"K, I will."

I then went downstairs, and when I found a chance to get Brandon alone, I mentioned this to him too. He agreed that I should talk it over with Ryan, so I told him I was going to stay behind tonight after we'd tucked him in, just to get his reaction about what he'd done with Noah. However, I wouldn't talk to him about doing it with other boys until Noah stopped doing it with him. Brandon said that was fine and told me he'd leave us alone later.

After dinner we watched a couple of shows of TV with the boys, and then we sent them up to get ready for bed. I went with the younger pair this time, and after we tucked them in, we went up to say goodnight to Noah. When we got to Ryan's room, he was naked and waiting for us. Brandon merely kissed him on the forehead, wished him sweet dreams, and then said he had to go take care of something and would let me tuck him in. After Brandon left, I sat down on the bed and patted the space next to me, so he'd do the same.

"So how did things go with Noah?"

"I was wonderin' what was goin' on. You had me scared for a minute."

"I just wanted to talk about what you two did."

"It was really good and felt better than when I do it to myself. It was kinda neat doing it to him too, and it felt different because his dick is so much bigger than mine."

"And how about when he sucked you off?" Ryan's mouth dropped open and he began to blush.

"Man, he told you about that too?"

"Yes, because it helps to let me know how much you boys know and what you're into, so I can help to protect you."

"Dang, I didn't know that, but I guess it's alright, since you aren't mad. You aren't, are you?"

"No, I'm not mad and I just want to make sure you're ok with what you did."

"Yeah, it was great. It was way better than when I jack off and even better than when Noah did it to me." I wasn't sure if he realized it at first, but he was starting to chub up while he was telling me about what they'd done.

"I'm glad you enjoyed it, because that fact has become quite obvious." I then glanced at his erection, and he looked down too before glancing at me and grinning.

"I told you it happens all the time, so I guess it's ready to go again."

"Then I'll leave you to take care of your little friend, but I want to make sure you only do these things at home. I wouldn't want you to get caught and start getting bullied if someone else found out about what you'd been doing."

"Yeah, ok. I'll just do it here with Noah."

"And make sure you lock the door when you do it, so Benny and Joshie don't happen to catch you."

"Oh, yeah. I didn't think about that."

"Ok, and just be safe."

"I will, and you can watch me take care of this if you want to, cuz I know you won't do it for me." He then shook his penis in my direction.

"You've got that right, but I think I'll pass. Have fun."