Gordy Comes Home - 14. Chapter 14

Even though John didn‘t really know Doc Belser, anyone could tell he was nervous and ill at ease.

This disquiet was even more noticeable than when Doc had visited John’s father’s bedside. Those short exchanges were focused on John’s Father’s condition and could hardly be called conversations. John hoped that today there would be an actual conversation. Perhaps he would get to know Doc and vicariously get to better know his father, as a man. An opportunity son’s rarely, if ever, get.

Once the two men were seated Doc obviously needed time to organize his thoughts and to subdue his nerves. John used this time to study the man’s face. His expressive eyes were hazel, leaning more to green. John didn’t notice that they darted around the office nervously landing only on things added or changed since “his father’s office” had become his, His sharp angular features made his weathered face almost patrician. His hair was mostly gray with traces of sandy blonde barely visible. His fingers nervously wrestled with his Stetson, which when on his head enhanced his patrician qualities.

Doc raised his left ankle and rested it across his right knee, then dropped his hat into his lap as he coughed to clear his throat.

“John, I promised my son Gordon, that I would ask you to give him a summer job, here at your dealership. He leaves for college in the fall. I’m hoping he’ll choose MIT or Stanford.”

“I understand this is asking a lot. If there is any reason why Gordon shouldn’t work here or if it’s going to be a strain, I’ll understand. No hurt feelings, this is your business and I am sure you know what’s best. I promised to ask… the decision is out of my hands. I am not sure how he could contribute.I hardly think our rebuilding an old John Deere together could establish credentials for his employment here.” Doc paused. For the first time since the initial greeting, his eyes met John’s. The man visibly relaxed. The focus shifted ever so slightly, as if he were seeing something or someone in the far distance.

After a moment, the focus once again met John’s. His voice softer, warmer, almost friendly when he said, “John, as his father, I have to say Gordon is quite brilliant. His appearance can be misleading. He looks like a boy, but he really is very mature.” As he continued, his voice shifted again to a more reserved tone. “He’s friendly, almost too congenial at times. He’s the most observant person I have ever known. He occasionally makes me nervous sometimes with his uncanny insights. He’s mechanically adept and is a fine physical specimen. As I said, he’s quite brilliant. I assure you that he really is. His IQ is well… well…” Doc paused as though he had gone off track and had to refocus.

John couldn’t help but think Doc’s patrician features matched his vernacular perfectly. If Doc had an English accent instead of a deep Texas drawl, the picture would be complete. John could easily envision the man in an English manor – sans boots and Stetson. He wondered what must his son be like.

“John, if you are fully staffed or if there is any hesitation on your part, we can shake hands and there will be no hard feelings. I can assure you Gordon is prepared to accept your decision and move on to a proper university in the fall.”

“Doc, giving your son a summer job is such a small favor. It’s almost an incidental consideration. You were Dad’s best friend. I’m pleased you thought to visit. But even if you’d asked over the phone the answer would’ve been the same. He can start tomorrow.”

John was beginning to believe he would never really know this man. Doc had asked a favor, which was granted immediately… with enthusiasm, and yet he looked as if he had just lost the family farm in a poker game.

“John there is more to it. You see Gordon feels… feels… he… uh… he feels an attachment to you. In his mind it is a very serious attachment. Ever since he was a little fellow, if John Grant was involved, I would hear about it. Didn’t matter if it was Little League, Cub Scouts, Boy Scouts, Four-H or any of the myriad things boys are apt to be involved in…. if you were connected to it, he would talk incessantly about you. I used to think it was an only child thing or maybe because he came to us late in life.

“Recently I’ve come to wonder if my friendship with your father… I mean, I don’t know if somehow his infatuation with you is connected in some deep seated way to my friendship with your father.

“John, I can’t say what feelings he has for you or why he has them. You can call it hero worship. Maybe it’s a big brother complex. I just don’t know. However you handle it, is entirely between you and Gordon, your both adults. I am his father.”

That last was a loaded statement if ever there was one, and John did not miss the implication.

“Doc, are you saying the real favor would be for me to find an excuse not to hire Gordon?”

John sensed the struggle gripping Doc. His eyes narrowed in concentration as he massaged his chin with his thumb and forefinger.

John waited.

Finally, Doc said, “John, I think the favor has to stand. I’ll send Gordon by in the morning, if that’s alright.”

As he was about to leave John’s office, he added, “John in light of your decision, there are things I must tell you. Don’t go with your first impression of Gordon. Get to know him, before you, you, uh, lump him into some generic category. Gordon’s a very unique individual. Once he gets to know you, you’ll see what I am talking about. Since he doesn’t have much time to get his point across, he’ll most likely come off as blunt and perhaps aggressive. But he won’t do it until he feels he knows you well enough. Don’t be surprised when the innocent teenager becomes a full fledged determined young man. He knows what he wants and he is willing to go for it. I am sure he’ll work hard to make you happy.” Doc took one slow sweeping view of John’s office, as if remembering or committing to memory something important.

With a heavy sigh, his the tone became warm once more. “John, Gordon is possessed of what the Wichita Indians called “an old soul”. Don‘t underestimate his maturity or his intuitive abilities.” With a handshake, he left.

John had learned very little more about the man than he’d already surmised. He seemed more reserved almost stuffy. John had never seen this side of Doc. At the ranch, when they had talked it had been more, more normal. John pondered the conversation for a while. Since his focus had been on getting to know Doc, hiring his son had only been an afterthought.

As business made its demands, Doc’s visit and “conversation” slipped from his mind. Only at the end of the day did he remember to let Wylie know about Gordon Belser since he was handling the process of hiring and assigning Gordon his “gopher” duties. If there was any reason not to hire the boy, or if he later proved to be a lost cause, Wiley would definitely let John know.　

By the following morning, John had forgotten about Gordon Belser. He was walking through the showroom when he heard, ““Mr. Grant,” John turned expecting to greet an employee. Instead he was looking at a tall, blonde haired, blue eyed, young man. The warmth and brilliance of his smile caught and held John’s attention. It spoke of homecoming after a long, lonely separation and it warmed John’s insides.

John had been heading out to the sales lot, along with the already involved salesman, to schmooze a hesitant customer and hopefully close the deal, but when Gordon Belser called his name and smiled, his destination changed. Turning to the waiting salesman, John said, “Sam, get Wylie to give you a hand with Bill Jenkins. Make sure he knows it’s Bill senior.”

The salesman headed off down the hall to find Wylie and John turned his full attention to Gordon Belser.

Gordon was nicely dressed considering the heat. John didn’t notice they were dressed very much alike in light blue oxford shirts, khaki trousers and polished boots. Had the young man been 10 years older he could have easily been mistaken for a salesman, or the owner. On the cusp of manhood Gordon was already tall, broad shouldered and handsome, but his face perhaps always would retain a youthful innocence. Either the smile magnified his innocence or his innocence magnified his smile; John wasn’t sure.

Gordon had stopped about six feet from John, but John could see he was breathing excitedly like he had run to catch up and halted at a respectful distance before calling his name. His handshake and introduction would have made Doc proud. “Please sir, call me Gordy. No one calls me Gordon, unless they don’t know me.” He smiled again. “Even dad calls me Gordy, unless he’s talking about me. I understand you two had a talk yesterday.” His voice was rich and was carried on an almost musical undertone.”

“Well, let’s go to my office, Gordy, and get to know each other better.”

In John’s office the conversation continued with Gordy asking, “Mr. Grant, do you recall what my father said about me?”

John was busy considering Gordy’s eyes – perhaps a shade lighter than Wylie’s, but Gordy’s seem to sparkle – then realizing he was expected to say something, he hurriedly tried to recall Gordy’s last question. It was a question? Had to be, else he wouldn’t be waiting.

“I’m sorry Gordy, would you mind repeating that? I was still considering the Jenkins deal.”

Gordy smiled a brilliant smile knowing that John was disemblint, “Mr. Grant, that happens more than you might think, when I first meet someone. I was asking if you recalled any of my father’s comments from yesterday.”

This time John still didn’t get all the question, er, statement since he was now studying Gordy’s soft, luscious lips. Still he got enough to answer, “Ah, yes, that is… some of it. He said you were brilliant, unique, had a boyish face, and more mature than you appear. I think that sums it up.”

Gordy’s disappointment was evident. John racked his brain trying to recall more of what Doc had said. Right now he would be lucky that same brain could supply his own name. Damn, he didn’t want Gordy to be disappointed already; that would preclude his smile… that brilliant, warm smile. A smile hadn’t had this effect on him since…. John jerked away from that thought and any thought that might lead to reminiscing. He forced himself to focuse on the interview.

In the next half hour, John learned a bit about Gordy Belser. He’d been an Eagle Scout, President of the French club, Senior Class President and valedictorian. He had taken college level work to begin his sophomore year in the fall. He had been on the Honor Roll since fourth grade – all that, good looks and a brilliant smile, too. About all He and John had in common was high school baseball and track. John was beginning to feel intimidated, and was once again reminded how unfair life is.

Gordy had decided his first year would be in Dallas, then he would consider MIT or Stanford. John recalled Doc had not mentioned a Dallas college. Gordy told him that he expected to carry a double load in the Fall, that would speed him along toward a double major in engineering and physics. He spoke, read and wrote both Spanish and French fluently. He considered a military career after college a likely path. John asked about West Point or one of the other academies. Gordy explained that he had considered that, but he realized it was too much of a commitment. He didn’t want to lock into a future he might not enjoy. Besides, that would be denying a scholarship to someone who might need it. His college fund was more than adequate for any school he chose. He would get into ROTC. That would be testing the waters. ROTC was why he was favoring MIT over Stanford. If he liked it he would then choose a branch of service. When John asked if he had joined ROTC in high school Gordy replied that he felt college ROTC was closer to the real thing and it could lead to a direct commission. John was amazed at the boy’s confidence and focus. He certainly didn’t remember possessing such clearly defined goals as a teenager. He wondered if he ever had. Now, John was intimidated.

He heard Gordy’s stomach rumble. Laughing at the blushing boy, he insisted on taking him to lunch. Gordy’s stiff demeanor faded as John casually let his right hand stretch across Gordy’s back and rest lightly on his right shoulder as they left the office. The young man seemed to move in closer. It wasn’t until they met Wylie near the miniature display case that John guiltily removed his arm and introduced Gordy. He asked if Wylie would like to join them for lunch. The offer was declined with the explanation that he was finishing the Jenkins’ deal. John knew better, but was pleased, and accepted the polite refusal.

During lunch, Gordy turned the conversation more to John, wantin to know his likes, dislikes, political views. John couldn’t object to the questions, since each time he answered, he was rewarded with that brilliant smile. John was even more impressed by the young man when he tried to pick up the check.

As they left the restaurant, John asked, “Why do you want to work at the dealership?”

Gordy blushed. “Mr. Grant, I…”

John interrupted to insist that he call him John. “Everybody calls me John. Mr. Grant makes me think of my Dad.” That thought echoed inside his head. John felt a warm glow build inside and smiled. How long had it been that he could remember his dad without hurting?

Gordy had been studying John’s face, almost from the moment they met. He saw John’s small smile and said, “My dad tells me your Dad was the finest man he’s ever known and the best friend he ever had. I only met him a few times. He looked a lot like you. I saw the resemblance right away. It was striking, even back then. I’m sorry I didn’t get to know him better.”

A comfortable silence carried them to the Tahoe. Once belted in, Gordy finally answered John’s question. “As to why I want to work with you? I think it would give me practical experience and, uh, I don’t want to be a Vet. This was my idea, not my Dad’s. He would rather I didn’t.”

The boy’s candor almost made John blush. He thought back on his meeting with Doc. “If he didn’t want you working with me, why would he even ask?”

“He did it for me. Oh, he likes you. He thinks you are a good man. He did it for me. ”

“So, why does he not want us working together? You working with me?”

“It’s just, uh, complicated. We‘ll sit down someday soon, I hope, I‘ll tell you the whole story… when I get to know you better. ” John brightened at the thought of knowing Gordy better. He could tell the boy didn’t want to explain further, so he dropped it. Did the Belser’s try to hide every painful or challenging issue?

Back at the dealership he was almost reluctant to turn the boy over to Wiley. John was amused to see that as the two walked away, side by side, there was enough space between them that he could have walked between them without touching either.

Later, while John was working through a mountain of paperwork, he heard Wiley clear his throat. “Hey John, you going home tonight or is it the couch again? You know you can stay at my place. I’ll ply you with pizza and beer and then take you on the kitchen floor.” Wiley wiggled his eyebrows up and down salaciously. He could be crude and often was, only when they were alone. In the presence of anyone else, Wiley unfailingly deferred to John. John never encouraged Wylie’s innuendos… although… direct advances might… John suppressed that thought.

“Speaking of pizza, what do you think of our newest employee?”

“I think he is going to be fine. I like him more than I thought I would. He’s smart and eager to learn. He’s pretty good at getting a fast read on people. John, you can’t get much past that guy. I told him to come in jeans and tee shirt tomorrow, ready to get dirty. His uniforms should arrive next week. Oh, you ought to know, you’re his hero.”

“I don’t even know the kid. We just met today. You saw Doc here yesterday? He was asking me to put the boy to work. I think he said the same thing… or something like that.”

“First of all, he’s as old as we were when we, ah, we met. Anyway, according to Gordy, Mr. Grant has” Wylie was counting with his fingers, “been his little league coach, taught him to swim, canoe, power boating, went camping with him. How well do you know this guy?

John’s mouth dropped open. “I swear to you Wiley before today, I didn’t know Gordon Belser from Adam’s house cat. I’ve helped Jerry and Fred when they asked. Even in high school I helped out anytime coaches or Scout Masters asked. But, there was always such a large group of boys that I couldn’t tell you if Gordon Belser was even in the mix.”

Wylie laughed. “I believe you John. It’s just that you really made an impression on the kid. If you were a woman or he was girl, I’d say he has a crush on you. I can certainly understand if he does. You’ve got a lot to offer. You’re handsome, hairy, hung and rich. Hell, I think I’m falling for you myself.” With that last Wiley’s grin faded. He looked at something interesting in the hallway, for a moment, before turning back to John.

John had been too busy with paperwork to look up. Finally at a stopping point, he looked up at Wylie, smiled and said, “Well, thanks, I can agree with all that, but you left out my most important quality. I’m modest.”

Feeling a bit uncomfortable, Wylie cleared his throat and said, “Well, modesty aside, what I said is true.”

John smirked. “You must be hinting at a raise. I’ll think about it.”

“Don’t trouble yourself. I got one last quarter, plus a new Tahoe and you didn’t even notice.” His demeanor suddenly stiffened as he said, “Seriously, John, listen to me. Don‘t let this guy turn your head.” Then in an almost whisper, “either one of them.”

Before John could respond, Wylie turned and walked away.

After almost three weeks of working around the dealership, John and Wiley agreed the kid earned his money. He kept the grounds trash free, and when he wasn’t helping clean trade-ins, he was assisting the mechanics. Once he finished a task, he was immediately looking for the next. He had his hand in everything from picking up lunch to manning the switchboard and delivering sold equipment.

John found himself often seeking out the young man, making sure to praise Gordy for his hard work. Each time Gordy responded with smiles and harder work. Sometimes their eyes would meet and they would hold each other’s gaze. When the moment ended John was always a little embarrassed, but Gordy unfailing smiled.

He found the handsome young man on his mind quite a bit, especially when, late at night, he took matters in hand. At first it was just a flash of that smile just before he came, then a couple of nights later, John was shocked when called out “Gordy, I’m, I’m cummming!” That ejaculation had been the most intense and the biggest load in a long, long, time.

A few days after their joint appraisal, John asked what Wiley thought about turning the kid loose on the boathouse. John explained he was seriously thinking about putting it on the market. Wiley shrugged and said, “’Why not.”

When John asked Gordy, his, now familiar, brilliant smile preceded his positive response and they agreed to meet at the boathouse the next morning.

Since the boathouse was used more by friends, employees and family, than by John, he’d More than once thought about selling it. That night was the first time he spent the night at the boathouse since Joe Don and Sally had used it while they sold their house before leaving for Mexico where they were “living the dream”.

Reminiscing about Joe Don and the last time they came to the ranch, he recalled that the dinner had included Joe Don, Sally, Louis, Conchatta and Wylie. The group had shared so much of John’s life. They were his family. He remembered that he’d promised Joe Don that he and Wylie would come for a visit. Whisky made the promise.

Wylie accepted the invitation immediately, but John had been more hesitant. Joe Don just became more insistent threatening to “dust his britches”. before John capitulated. Eventually John gave in and committed to a non-specific future visit. Neither he nor Wylie had talked about making the trip. It had been almost a month.

Gordy arrived at the boathouse bright and early ready to work. Conchatta came in not long afterward and insisted on them both eating a good breakfast. Conchatta busied herself in the kitchen while John showed Gordy around the place. He explained his expectations and the location of needed tools, equipment and supplies. After breakfast Gordy walked him to his Tahoe. “Gordy, clean up the outside. Conchatta will be working inside. You just found out that she knows her way around a kitchen, so you won’t go hungry. You are not to operate any power equipment unless you tell her first. I don’t want to explain to your father how his only son, and my, uh, one of my best employees, bled to death because no one was here to help him.”

“Conchatta will show you your room. There’s TV with some videos and a computer with internet. If you get hungry, or thirsty help yourself, but no booze. Don’t let me down. I want this place looking market ready by the time you finish.”

John headed back to the dealership. Upon his arrival, he got a message to call Conchatta. There was an emergency! Was Gordy was hurt? He thought about calling 911. Surely Conchatta would have done that. John rushed to his office to call the boathouse. He cursed himself for not having charged his cell phone.

Even as the call was connected his heart was pounding out of his chest. He held his breath waiting for the boathouse phone to be picked up and then was embarrassed by his relief, when he learned Conchatta’s daughter Maria had gone into labor. She needed to be with her in Nogales. He collapsed into his office chair. Only then did he realize he hands were trembling.

Conchatta didn’t expect to return for at least two weeks. John expressed his concern for Maria. She was younger than John – bout Gordy’s age – too young to be married and pregnant. John asked if he could help? Did she need money? He told the receptionist to get flowers to the hospital in Nogales, and keep checking back. He wanted to know as soon as the baby arrived. He then let Wiley know he intended to take off the next couple of days and work at the boathouse with Gordy.

John had been pleased to see how Wylie had really warmed to Gordy, but he was almost jealous each time he’d found them laughing and joking. He wasn’t sure whose proximity he resented more…

Wiley simply smiled and said, “You know John, I think that’s a fine idea. You ought to get to know that guy. He’s something special and he thinks you are too. I’ll say this; just being around him is a hoot. He can go from too shy blushing bride to a jaded hooker in a flash and right back again. You never know what you’re gonna get. But he’s a good guy all the time. Go on out there., You’ll get to know him, which ain’t that easy and maybe even learn something about yourself.”

John only half heard Wylie; he was in a hurry to gather paperwork that he might need to complete over the next few days.. If John thought about it, he might have questioned the Texas size grin that plastered his face the moment he decided, he had to go to the boathouse. He kept telling himself that his only concern was Gordy‘s safety.

It was almost noon when John found Gordy lying on a chaise lounge on the deck. At first, John figured the he had been skinny dipping and afterwards had fallen asleep with a towel draped across his eyes. Then he saw the trail of still wet semen leading from Gordy’s neck down to his pubic hair. John licked his lips and cursed his bad timing.

John studied Gordy’s lithe body, carefully searching for any flaw which might punctuate his perfection as he lay exposed and vulnerable to the sun. There were none. A sheen of sweat glazed the lightly bronzed skin that accented the creamy white of his midsection. The white skin and his golden pubic hair perfectly framed his generous endowment.

Bits of fresh grass clung to the hair on his calves and stuck to the skin of his ankles. A few flecks of dried paint welded golden hairs to the bronze skin on both his forearms. No doubt he’d been working before working himself. John chuckled silently at his own joke.　

John soaked in the view longer than necessary to make these observations – a lot longer. He suddenly became concerned that Gordy might awaken and freak out at the idea that his naked body was being ogled. Moreover, the throbbing bulge along his left leg was condemning proof. He quietly withdrew around the corner and walked away from the boathouse. He lit a cigarette and drew the smoke deep into his lungs as he tried to substitute less pleasant memories for those freshly burned into his brain. Only after acknowledging that he’d use them to jerk of tonight did they fade – somewhat. His swelling went done to a less obvious condition. Once again he approached the deck.

He called out, as if not knowing where Gordy was. He heard a chair move against the deck, followed immediately by a splash. Coming onto the deck again, John saw Gordy treading water. Glancing around at the discarded towel and the overturned chaise, he couldn’t help but smile. He would love to have seen the scramble. He chuckled knowing that Gordy was skinny dipping and washing away evidence. John could see the blush.

He had heard that around the dealership that Gordy was “an easy rib”. His near genius IQ didn’t get in the way of his naivety. John had also been told that Gordy took the ribbing in stride., and he could give as good as he got. John would soon learn how true that was.

“Well,” John said, tipping his Stetson further off his brow, “what did you get done that lets you lay around in the middle of the day?”

Gordy seemed to sink lower in the water. Spitting, he replied, “I painted the pump house, before I cut the grass. I… I rushed to finish before Conchatta left. I knew you’d be upset if I ran the mower with no one else around. I got overheated and decided to take a nap and a swim to wash off the grass. Conchatta left lunch on the counter. I ate a while ago. You go on inside, I’ll be in, in a minute.”

John said nothing. He was enjoying the situation more than he should. He knew the boy was embarrassed, though from what John had seen earlier he had a lot to be proud. He laid his Stetson on the table and undid the snaps on his white western shirt. Pulling it off, he draped it over a chair, then dancing on his right foot, he removed his left boot. He then repeated the process with his right boot and his socks, all the while watching the Gordy’s face.

He lazily unbuckled his belt, unbuttoned, unzipped and let his pants fall around his feet. Now, dressed only in boxers he folded the pants over the shirt. Gordy’s face had gone from a look of concern to one of mild panic and finally to shock. As John’s boxers joined the rest of his attire, he watched Gordy’s focus zoom in on his pendulous manhood. Gordy choked and coughed, spitting out water that his gaping mouth had inadvertently taken in.

John’s grin grew ever wider as he stepped to the edge of the deck and with practiced movement dove into the lake, barely rippling the water. Turning under water, he reached out and closed his hand on Gordy’s right ankle pulling him under. He surfaced and watched with barely subdued glee as once again Gordy spit and sputtered, recovering from the dunking.

Facing the man, Gordy exclaimed, “Mr. Grant! you’re naked!” John moved closer, “I thought you were used to calling me John. This hardly seems the occasion for such formalities.” Reaching his right hand out and contacting the boys left thigh, he slid his hand up until it made contact with Gordy’s pubic hair. As he lightly tugged it, he mocked, “Gordy! we’re both nekkid!” (Author’s note; nude is mostly art. Naked is in the shower. Nekkid is when you’re naked and up to something.)

Before he could see Gordy’s blue eyes bug out in shock, John submerged. This time Gordy was ready when John dunked him and submerged with John’s tug, but kept going and grabbing John, embracing him, propelling them both toward the bottom. They wrestled, mindless of their lack of clothing, each trying to get above the other. Finally, knowing they needed air, John allowed Gordy to push him down. With his hands on his shoulders, Gordy launched himself toward the surface, feeling his manhood ride against John’s curly chest hair, and then his face. Gordy registered a slight pain when John’s chin bumped his left nut.

Spitting and gasping for breath, John joined him on the surface. Gordy’s blush told John all he needed to know; he was clearly embarrassed beyond words – the water and his sun-bleached blonde hair framed his beet red face. Sticking his right thumb and forefinger into his mouth, John pretended to extract something. Extending those same digits he asked, “Is that one of your pubic hairs?”

Gordy’s face went from beet red to crimson. Chuckling, John said, “Relax, Gordy, that blush could boil water. You didn’t mean it, though you should be careful,’cause I have been known to bite. A bite there might be hard to explain to your girlfriend.”

Visibly relieved, Gordy replied without hesitation, “I don’t have a girlfriend.”

“Well, a handsome young man like you won’t have to wait long. The girls will be chasing you. You’ll have to fight them off in college.”

John’s comment seemed to hang in the air. The blush faded quickly as Gordy got the upper hand by asking, “Is that what you did? Fight them off?”

John stared at Gordy without responding, then asked, “How about getting us a beer?”

Gordy’s youthful face lit up like a neon sign at midnight. “Really?”

“Yeah, sure, for me. You get a Coke.” Gordy swam toward the ladder. John watched as the boy moved gracefully onto the deck. John thought, “Girls have been chasing that already. Probably the boy just doesn’t know it.”

Gordy pulled on his cutoffs and headed into the house. Over his shoulder he said, “If your beer tastes like piss. It’s serves you right.”

John chuckled at the remark as he climbed onto the deck.

When Gordy returned with the drinks he found John, still naked, sprawled in the lounge chair he had occupied earlier. Handing him his beer, he averted his eyes and sat in the lounge next to John’s.

“John, I… uh…” Gordy paused to gather his thoughts.

John wasn’t looking at Gordy. He didn’t see the strain of emotion contorting that boyish face. Turning his head toward Gordy, he chortled, “Yeah, this is nice.”

Gordy was grateful for the interruption.

John couldn’t help himself, he wanted to see Gordy blush again. “If you had waited until now to, uh, to take a swim. You wouldn’t have needed to use a towel to keep the sun out of your eyes.”

The crimson tide began just above those impressive pectoral muscles and swept upward until it met the short cropped blonde hair. John was sure that if the blush was any redder that blonde hair would turn orange.

There was no water this time, still Gordy spat and sputtered, drowning in guilt, shame and embarrassment. “You, you, s-saw me… uh, uh jerk off? You… you heard what I… I said? The last syllables were barely audible.”

John could no longer contain himself. His laughter burst forth with full, honest delight for the first time, since he couldn’t remember when. Before he could catch his breath and explain what he really saw, Gordy jumped up and ran into the boat house. He heard a door slam. He continued riding the waves of laughter until it was hard to breathe and his sides hurt. Finally, he gathered himself, sat his beer on the table, and went to find Gordy.

The boy’s bedroom door was closed. John tapped lightly on the door. “Gordy, can I come in?”

A subdued voice at barely normal volume replied, “It’s your house. I can’t stop you.”

It was John who was now embarrassed, “Do you want me to leave? I can go back to town. I was hoping we could take the boat out on the lake and maybe go to Miller’s and get something to eat.”

The door opened slowly. The sparkling blue eyes searched John’s face – for what,,, revulsion, hatred? Finding only concern, the boy asked softly, “How long did you watch me?“

It was John’s turn to blush. “I, uh, not long. I didn’t watch you, uh…I guess I came up just after you finished.”

“You didn’t hear, uh, me… anything?”

“No.” John couldn’t help but smile. “Why, are you a screamer?”

Gordy smiled in relief at John’s answer, and recovered his composure quickly. “Sometimes. If it’s good. How about you?”

John was taken aback! He didn‘t blush, but, his mouth dropped open. Gordy, naïve? Shy? Easy rib? Who was this guy?

Gordy sensed the question had been disconcerting. “Look, John a few years ago Reverend Taylor preached a sermon and said boys who do touch themselves, grow up to be perverts and would burn in hell. I got freaked out because I was spending a lot of time jerking off. Guess most boys do. I finally talked to dad about it. I was as nervous as a pup passing peach pits. Dad had heard the sermon and understood what I was getting at. He made it easy and we had a long talk. So, no, I wasn’t real freaked at getting caught. Still it was embarrassing.”

John was all too familiar with Reverend Taylor’s rhetoric of hate, intolerance, hellfire and brimstone. John had taken consolation in that the good Reverend’s congregation as well as his influence had diminished. John had consistently refused to help that church with fund raisers.

“Gordy, if every man who played with his dick went to hell, there would be ONLY women in heaven and damn few of them, come to think of it.”

“Yeah, I know. When dad told me he still did it, I snuck around for weeks after trying to catch him at it.” Gordy chuckled, “Guess I finally reasoned that he didn’t have a teenager’s libido.”

 

“Well, all men need to cum. If they don’t have sex, they jerk off. If they don’t jerk off, they have wet dreams. Maybe not be as often as horny teenagers like you, but they still need to cum.”

 

“How about you. You need to cum?” John’s mouth dropped open again. He recovered faster this time.

 

Through a half smile, John tried to look stern. “Young man that kind of behavior will neither be encouraged nor tolerated,” he said, quoting one of his least favorite college professors.

 

Shifting to a more serious vein, “Gordy, I am real happy with the work you’ve done. Now get a shower and get dressed. You look real good au natural, but it might shock the folks at Miller’s.”

 

“Ok. Just keep in mind I’m game if you are,” Gordy said, but Johnignored him and headed down the hall to his own shower.

 

Gordy stepped out into the hallway and called, “John.”

 

John turned at his name. Facing Gordy, he waited as he watched those blue eyes run up and down his body. He could feel the warmth of his blush. Finally those blue eyes met his. With a husky voice Gordy softly said, “You look damn good, au natural, too.” With that Gordy stepped back into his room, leaving his door open.

 

John stood transfixed. Slowly, in a daze he turned to make his way to his shower. He was beginning to wonder if Gordy could be schizophrenic. Once in his bedroom, he realized his clothes were still on the deck and went to retrieve them. As he passed, he noticed Gordy’s was still open, as was his bathroom door. He could hear Gordy in the shower singing a country music song about looking for love. He had been right Gordy had a nice singing voice.

 

 

 

 

 

Later dressed in khaki shorts, a polo shirt, and Topsiders, he came back into the great room. He found Gordy, dressed almost identically. His shirt though was a lighter blue that seem to set of his sparkling blue eyes. John looked into those sparkling blue eyes remembering how he had looked climbing out of the lake . This was what inspired all those Greek statues of youth. He is beautiful. Beautiful was a word he had never used to describe a man and very few women. Standing there with the late afternoon sun washing his profile, that’s what he was. Beautiful!

 

Gordy couldn’t understand why John had stopped almost in mid-stride obviously staring at him. He checked to make sure his fly was closed.

 

“John?” John snapped his head up in response. He didn’t want to look up; he wanted to watch the sunlight turn the blonde hair on Gordy’s legs to gold.

 

“John, if you're going to stay tonight, maybe we can pop some corn and watch a movie, when we get back? I remember I promised to explain about Dad, the job and all. I think it’s time.”

 

The mention of Doc brought back the conversation, they had in his office. “Gordy is an old soul… mature beyond his years… easy to underestimate… boyish face.”

 

John felt he was only beginning to know Gordy Belser. He looked forward to knowing him a lot better.

 

Reluctantly he brought his thoughts back to the present. “If you would like. I have some quarterly orders that need my attention, but it can wait until tomorrow.”

 

Gordy misunderstood John’s delayed response as being less than interested. They had a lot to learn about each other.

 

John flipped the switches to the outside floodlights and the entire area surrounding the boathouse and dock was awash in light. The light would be needed as a beacon, if they returned in the dark.

 

Once in the boat, John turned to watch Gordy come aboard. The fluid movements of the young man’s body brought to mind the grace of a leopard running at full speed, but viewed in slow motion. Gordy’s muscles shifted just beneath the taut skin… he shook his head and shed the thought.

 

Gordy came up to stand beside him as John started, revved the engine and backed the boat off the floating dock. Once clear, he idled the engine and asked Gordy if he would like to drive the boat.

 

The fireworks smile told all.

 

John stepped back a little to let Gordy stand between himself and the control console. He explained the switches, gearshift/throttle and pilot wheel. As he did so, his body eased up against the boy’s in a natural, comfortable fit. With his lips close to the Gordy’s left ear, he gave a very detailed explanation while leaning against him, using his hands to indicate each control. Explanations completed, John leaned back to let Gordy take control. Feeling John’s body pull away, he looked over his shoulder to reassure himself John was still there. Seeing this, John placed his right hand on his shoulder, leaned it close to his ear and said, “Don’t worry. I’m right here.”

 

In response Gordy’s well muscled body leaned back into John as if they were spooning in bed. John moved his hand from the boy’s shoulder and lightly laid it against his the powerful chest. Through the soft cotton, he felt the muscles tighten and then ease. It had been years, since he had touched another man’s body – even through a layer of cloth.

 

John took care of his needs with an occasional lady friend. Most often his right hand served the purpose. Wet dreams came often enough that if he chose, he could remember the last even as he experienced the sensations anew. They were as vivid as ever and as ever featured Wylie – until the last couple of weeks.

 

Throttling the engine hard, Gordy looked back to see the ass end of the boat dig into the water like a spurred horse’s haunches. The rooster tail glowed in the fading light. As he turned back toward the bow, John’s hand slid down until his fingers rested on Gordy’s belt line.

 

John felt his own cock betray him as it pressed against the layers of clothing separating it from the flesh of Gordy’s magnificent ass.

 

Gordy increased the speed. The sudden surge forced his body to mould against John who was caught between the retracted seat and Gordy. His warm body pushed against John even after the momentum passed.

 

Gordy shifted his body from side to side looking first to port and then to starboard and back again. His body countered and exaggerated the movements of his head.

 

He began to alter course slightly back and forth until his rubbing was caused by the boat’s movement. The pressure against John’s cock had brought it to full erection. John was trapped. Gordy’s closeness would broach no adjustment. As the rocking continued his cock began to throb against Gordy’s ass. John’s pulse raced his breath came in ragged gulps. His fingertips piano’ed an insane sonata against Gordy’s chest. Unconsciously he began to raise and lower his body in an attempt to maximize his cock’s contact with Gordy’s most desirable ass.

 

John had to do something! If this continued, he would come in his shorts. And he wanted to continue!He humped Gordy’s ass once then froze. Letting his hands fall away from Gordy’s chest, he stepped back. With a tremulous voice he shouted, “Trade places.”

 

Gordy steadied the helm and stepped aside. Seeing the disappointment on that boyish face, he said, “Let me show you something.” Gordy’s face lit up. He was almost panting. A dribble of drool leaked from the corner of his mouth. There was wonder and anticipation in his eyes. John was too busy trying to keep his tenting out of Gordy’s line of sight to notice Gordy’s overzealous reaction.

 

The look of anticipation ran away from Gordy’s face. It registered severe disappointment once he understood what John wasn‘t going to show him. After all he figured he had the dimensions pretty well down pat.

 

John slowed the boat then eased the throttle forward. Gordy took a position close behind and slightly to John’s right. John sensed something hard against his right cheek and figured it was a cell phone.

 

John slowed the boat, then eased the throttle forward taking the boat in ever tightening figure-eights. As the turns got tighter, he increased the throttle. Now the boat was heeling dramatically, left, then right. Gordy clung to John with his arms wrapped snugly around his chest.

 

He eased his lower body away from John, until only his ‘cell phone’ rubbed across John’s right ass check.

 

John felt the cell phone throb, and thought, ‘Cell phones don’t throb, they vibrate. Gordy has a hardon!

 

As he slowed and steadied the boat, Gordy leaned into John and said, “That wasn’t what I thought you were going to show me. But, it was fun. John, do you want to show me something else?”

 

John’s blush was his only response. He steered for the restaurant at the far end of the lake. Stepping aside, he let Gordy take control while he leaned against the gunwale. He was not getting that close again.

 

Gordy watched John for some reaction. Seeing the smoldering lust in his eye made him feel good. Soon he was roaring across the lake. The wind’s force and the boat’s speed, invigorated the boy. He became animated and let out whoops of youthful gusto. Life was good. He knew now, it was going to get a whole lot better, soon.

 

The boy’s enthusiasm was contagious, painting John’s face with, what his daddy would have called, “a shit eating grin”. His cock was down to half mast. John Grant was, for the first since he could remember, a happy, albeit worried man.

 

All too soon, he directed Gordy to ease the throttle and let him take control. Gordy’s look seemed at first a challenge then he quickly stepped aside, resuming his ‘cell phone’ position. John said nothing. The boy rested his hands lightly on John’s waist as he lifted up on the balls of his feet, touching his lips to John’s left ear as he explained, “I want to see how you park it.”

 

John felt the now familiar throb of Gordy’s ‘cell phone’ as. Gordy raised and lowered on the balls of his feet. enjoying his ‘cell phone’s’ contact. So did John.

 

As John eased the boat alongside the dock, Gordy grabbed one of the two windbreakers that John had insisted they bring along, and jumped onto the deck, explaining, “I got to go hurry; too much soda.”

 

John tried not to laugh, “Go ahead, take care of business. I’ll tie up and meet you inside.”

 

Too focused on watching Gordy’s ass hurry up the walkway, John let the boat drift. By the time Gordy rounded the corner and disappeared, he had to nudge the throttle to get back alongside the dock. Almost as soon as John was on the dock, securing the bow, Gordy was tying up the stern.

 

Cheekily John observed, “You must have been primed and ready. That sure didn’t take long.”

 

In spite of blushing, Gordy retorted, “You could have given me a hand.”

 

Now it was John who blushed. He made no response.

 

They walked side by side up the dock and onto the alfresco dining deck. A waitress welcomed them and took their order. John had recognized most of their fellow patrons, as did Gordy, and they all exchanged pleasantries.

 

Gordy wanted to know if John skied.

 

“Of course I do.”

 

“You think, maybe, you could teach me?” Then added under his breath, “to ski better.”

 

“Sure,” John said, before even thinking, “Think your folks would object?”

 

A look that said ‘are you out of your mind?’, crossed Gordy’s face. That look was quickly replaced with a smile so radiant, it made John light up inside. He could feel its warmth. He basked in its glow and knew he wanted more to please this man than anything he could think of. He wanted to make Gordy smile like that – a lot.

 

“John, I am about to leave at the end of summer… ok, so it’s just for Dallas. But, I’m going to live in the dorms just like you did. You think Mom and Dad are going to be watching me around the clock?

 

“Maybe if I had a scar on my face, people would take me more seriously. John, I want you, of all people, to take me seriously.”

Then with an almost evil grin, he said, “Unlike some freshman, I’ve already made my own fake ID. Of course nowadays, I have the challenge of the hologram. You’d be amazed at what I had to go through to get that right. Wylie has told me a lot about life on campus.” He was already watching for a reaction when John’s fork clattered to his salad bowl.

 

John’s anger flared. Through gritted teeth he snapped, “What all did Wylie tell you about life on campus?”

 

“He just said you and he were roommates and that ya’ll ran around together and have been best friends ever since.” Gordy’s look of innocence calmed John’s anger immediately. As John’s anger faded Gordy congratulated himself on having his suspicions confirmed. 'Yep, life was about to get a whole lot better'.

 

John chided himself for letting his emotions get the better of him. He had hoped that something would happen while they were alone at the boathouse. Now, he had been propositioned several times already. John was not used to being flirted with by another man.

 

“John, I get the impression that you think I am possessed of the naiveté of a child. I specifically asked my dad to let you know I am not. People see this boyish face and right away they think I either need protecting or I’m easy prey. The blushing doesn’t help. I can’t control the blushes… that’s one thing that pisses me off. People underestimate me. Do you recall any comments from dad about these things? My reasoning for asking him to tell you those things was that we don’t have a lot of time to really to get to know each other and I want us to become, well, uh, friends quickly.

 

“I was happy when you asked me to work around the boathouse, but I was nervous when you came skinny dipping with me. I wasn’t sure if you were flirting or teasing me or just wanted to have fun in the water. What would you have done if I had grabbed your dick while we were swimming or kissed you?”

 

John thought about it for an moment, then answered truthfully. “I most likely would have run. Talking about it like this is a softer approach. It’s not a shock…” . If Gordy had started with something so bold… “Yes, I probably would have run.”

 

 

“John, I am a virgin in all aspects of the term. Unless you ask reverend Taylor… he probably equates masturbation to whoredom. Bet he never had sex with the lights on or without praying for forgiveness afterwards.” Gordy chuckled at his own remark.

“I don’t even know for sure what I will enjoy. I figure it’s a trial and error kind of thing.”

 

“John, my point is that you need to realize that I am almost nineteen. Legal in all fifty states for everything except voting and alcohol. The sooner you accept me as an adult the better off we are both going to be.

 

Actually I can’t control the blushes… that’s one thing that pisses me off. I don’t want you to react badly to a direct challenge to your perceptions. I want us to be the best of friends. I want us to build something that is honest and open so that we can talk about us and where this is going.”

 

It was a good thing that John had not yet picked up his fork. His mouth dropped open.. Gordy had quietly resumed eating.

 

Eventually John collected himself enough to voice a cogent thought, “Who the hell are you?” He asked.

 

Shocked at his own outburst, John scanned the deck for any folks he may have disturbed. Thankfully they were now the only outside patrons. “Are you schizophrenic? Some kind of Jekyll and Hyde? You’re probably some kind of junior serial killer-stalker. I feel like a rat in a maze and you’re the mad fucking scientist who built the maze. How long have you been stalking me? You have been stalking me, right? I mean little league and all that shit?”

 

John paused to catch a breath and to let his brain further absorb what Gordy had just dropped on him. Doc’s words of caution echoed through his brain… slowly John realized he was a fool of his own making. Gordy had asked his father to let John know who he really was and was only asking for the respect he deserved – to be seen as an adult. Instead he had treated him as a boy. He should have listened to what Doc had said, instead of listening for what he wanted him to say.

 

Gordy grinned at him, knowing John’s thought process. “You know, you’re cute when you get exasperated. I gotta remember that. Look, John, you’re only upset cause the square peg you had already driven into the round hole, just popped out. I can see that your expression says that you’re pissed at yourself. You don‘t know me, John Rutledge Grant, but, I know you. You‘ve haunted my dreams for years. I’ve mapped every expression. I have indexed everything I could remember about you. You have no bigger fan.
“Except for… for… Conchatta.” Gordy chastised himself for almost slipping. That discussion would come when John was ready. That was a topic he would never broach.

 

“Look, John, I don’t know why I keep my mouth shut when people treat me like a kid. I sometimes correct them. Especially if I think they are trying to take advantage or if I am interested enough to care. I know I’ll outgrow this boyish face…. just not sure about outgrowing the blushing though. I mean dad blushed when I asked him if he stilled jerked off. Sooo, maybe I have to learn to live with that.

 

“To answer your questions I am a man that is physically and emotionally attracted to other men. Specifically you. I am not schizophrenic. I have been tested and counseled. I am physically fit and mentally normal except for same sex attractions and that I find perfectly normal… for me.

 

“As for stalker? John, I think I was in little league when we first met. I know you don’t remember. I don’t expect you to, but I sure do. I had dreams about just being with you. Boy Scouts? You worked with us on power boating canoeing and swimming. By that time the dreams had become wet dreams and my jerk off fantasies featured you. Except for one involving pistachio ice cream… no guys, just ice cream. Still haven’t figured that one out. You see, John, I’ve felt a connection with you from the first time we met. I admit, that I watched you from a distance. I am glad you never knew. At that young age I would have been mortified.

 

“Remember when you asked why Dad didn’t want me working with you? I told you it was complicated. Well after that first talk about masturbation he was so understanding and helpful. I don’t mean he gave me pointers or anything like that; he just made sure I knew it was normal… as long as I did it in private. Well, it wasn’t long after my first wet dream of you that I figured out I was gay.

 

“Once I was sure and knew I wasn’t going to change, I told Dad. He was very supportive and understanding. We shared a lot. We talked about sex, not about the act. We discussed how your first time should mean something. How love makes sex better… that kind of stuff. Eventually I started asking him about you… your family, your wife, your divorce. I asked him about everything he knew about you. I asked if he thought you were interested in men and he blushed. See, I really don’t think I will outgrow that. Shit!”

 

“Anyway he told me that anyone’s orientation or sexual proclivities were their own business and even first hand information should not be shared. At some point he asked why I was so curious about you. By that time he’d figured out that I had a crush on you. I told him it was more than that. I felt it was pretty deep. I didn’t understand it myself. We talked about love, being in love and lust while we tinkered with that old John Deere. I explained that Coach Higgins was a figure of lust. When he showered with us after gym class one day I really had to fight against popping a boner. I explained to dad that he was my type –tall, handsome, hairy and hung type. John, I think somewhere along the line I imprinted on you. I figure it had to be after you had chest hair.”

 

“When did you first get chest hair? Don‘t answer that! I better keep going. Keep you a little off kilter or else you’ll run and leave me with the check and I’ll have to swim to get back to the boat house.”He grinned at John, then continued.

 

“So, as I said we talked about love. Sometime later I asked how do you know you’re in love. Dad talked about his experiences. I don’t feel right in discussing what he shared, but suffice it to say I told him I was in love with you.”

 

“I never saw him so upset. He wasn’t angry with me. He made sure I knew that first. He hugged me real tight… Oh, I reeeallllly like hugging. Anyway, I could see he was bothered. He went around the side of the barn and didn’t come back for a while. I busied myself with whatever we were doing on that old John Deere and waited. Finally, he came back and I could see he’d been crying. I had never seen dad cry. Never. He told that I had reminded him of the first time he fell in love. The only time he’d been in love. He asked me what I planned to do about it. Momma called us to supper, so I didn’t have to think of an answer.

 

“By the next Sunday, I had a plan. He didn’t like it one little bit when I told him that if you were still unattached after I graduated from high school, I would enroll in college in Dallas and give myself one year to make a serious connection with you. We had talked about and agreed upon my going to either MIT or Stanford. He was convinced that something might happen to keep me in Dallas. Once I started there, I’d become attached to the campus or friends… or something. Anyway, he tried to talk me out of “wasting a year” of my life trying to get to know you. After a couple of Sundays of trying to change my mind and insisting I was just being stubborn… like it’s not a birthright.

 

“Anyway, he offered a compromise. He would ask you to give me a summer job working at the dealership. I would spend this summer working with you. If I couldn’t get close to you, I’d give up Dallas and go to MIT or Stanford. I agreed. I think the reason he was didn’t want me working there was because he knew or suspected something about you. Something I suspected since soon after coming to work with you. Something I know, now.”

 

John’s anger flared, rising to the surface after years of suppression. Anger at himself. As suddenly as it had come, the surge of emotion dissipated, leaving him feeling drained. He was ashamed. His shame was not of commission, rather omission. He had avoided anything that might have brought himself contentment or even real happiness. He had maneuvered Gordy into a situation that would provide an opportunity for intimacy, yet, he’d have most likely allowed their time at the boathouse to go unfulfilled. He had failed to be honest, on any level with Gordy. Had he thought they would stumble into each other and just hump like bunnies? That innocence, that naiveté, that bullshit was in the past. John had avoided anything that might have brought real happiness or even contentment. He had maneuvered Gordy into a situation that would provide an opportunity for intimacy. Yet, John would have most likely allowed their time at the boathouse to go unfulfilled. Happenstance, coincidence and Gordy were all giving him at last the chance to make it real, to say out loud the things lovers should say to each other. He tried to remember what Gordy had said that had made him angry in the first place, and couldn’t.

 

“I’m sorry Gordy, you were saying?”

 

Gordy studied him a moment before saying,“John, I have seen the way you look at me. I know you have feelings for me. I did everything I could in the boat to confirm that you respond sexually to me. I let you know already that the feelings are mutual. How experienced in this sort of, uh, thing, are you? ” Gordy blushed again.

 

John laughed out loud. His blush intensified, and John laughed louder. There were other patrons on the deck again. John didn’t care, His laughter had a cleansing effect, and brought a feeling of newness. Even as tears threatened and his sides ached, he laughed. Gordy the shy, Gordy the brash, and again Gordy the shy. The kid could talk about trying to catch his dad jerking off and turn around and blush when he asked a man if he ever sucked a dick. It was too funny… absurdly funny. As his laughter died and Gordy’s blush began to fade, John called the waitress and ordered a double whisky.

 

When the waitress had served it and departed, John said, “Gordy, I hope you never outgrow your blush. I was beginning to think that it was the only honest thing about you. I understand now that, in fact, I have found nothing dishonest. I remember what Doc was saying about you. More importantly, what you wanted me to know about you.”

 

John gulped the whisky down and motioned for the waitress to bring another and another soft drink for Gordy. “If this takes much longer, you are the designated driver. If this takes too long, you’ll have to wait at least until tomorrow to verify any of you hypotheses.”

 

Gordy looked around as if he were about to call the waitress and cancel John’s order.

 

John laughed,“Don’t worry, I’m only kidding. I don’t know how I feel about all this, but I do know I am very much attracted to you. Maybe a little too much. As for experience? I fooled around with a guy in college, my freshman year. It was pretty intense. We never talked about it. It was more than just fun. But it ended. I haven’t done anything with a man since. What about you?”

 

Gordy’s blush flared again as he searched John’s face. He mentally shrug, “Nothing except my right hand and… just jerking off and, and, an occasional zucchini or cucumber.” His blush intensified, making John wonder if blushing was bad for one’s health? He wasn’t sure. He knew he had never met anyone who blushed as readily and intensely as Gordy.

 

At the word cucumber the waitress was placing the whisky in front of John. John glanced at Gordy expecting him to black out. Instead he saw him grace the waitress with his brilliant smile. John wasn’t sure what she had heard, but he was sure the waitress gushed at Gordy’s attention. John starred silently at Gordy. When the waitress, still gushing, left them alone, Gordy shrugged at John’s scowl, “It’s a gift. Don’t get jealous. I’m not yours...yet.”

 

“Presumptuous asshole.”

 

Gordy’s brilliant smile washed John’s scowl away. He stared into John’s eyes and in an almost whisper said, “Gotta love me.” John heard the humor, but not the desperate hope in those words.

 

“What about you John? I’ve told you what I’ve done to get us here. You have any confessions to make?”

 

“Gordy, you’re smarter than me….. That statement alone should serve to prove my point.” John’s sly smile faded with a sigh. “Truth be told, I don’t think I realized until Conchatta called this morning, just how much I cared for you and how much I was looking forward to spending time with you.” John paused and grinned. Which reminds me… Did you let me catch you nekkid on the deck? Was that why you had the towel over your eyes?”

 

Gordy blushed, ducked and shook his head.

 

John watched him with a grin for minute before he continued. “Like I said, I fooled around with a guy my freshman year. We weren’t fooling around! It was pretty serious, pretty intense, and pretty deep. We never talked about it. Had to be drunk or pretend we were drunk before we ever did anything, except one time, New ye…”

 

Gordy could see a wistful smile play across John’s face. His focus seemed to be far away. He waited.

 

He was more certain and more curious now than ever. Still, he would never broach the subject of Wylie, until John was ready to talk about him.

After a moment, John continued. “I never did anything after that. Never really wanted to, I guess… until now. I got married; truth is I should never have done that. But, it seemed a good idea at the time. I have dated, but nothing serious. Right now it has been more than… well… almost a year since I had sex with anyone. I keep my right hand occupied.” He grinned and added, “No cukes or zucchini though.”

 

“I knew I was interested in you,… uh… on several levels. At first, I just thought you were a smart hardworking kid. I liked you right away. Then I began to think of you when I jerked off. I don’t know maybe a couple of days after you started work. I wondered what it would be like to kiss you. It got more and more involved. Even with that, I don’t think I would have started anything with you. It wasn’t just your age. I suspect that would be even less a factor when we hit middle age. There is something else… well… I… uh… my memories, aren’t all good when it comes to this stuff.”

 

“John, we don’t have to talk about your bad memories, unless you feel, someday, you want to. Right now I’d like to make some memories of our own, just you and I.

 

“John, the reason I freaked at the towel comment was because I figured you saw me and heard me yell out your name when I came. I thought you were laughing at me.” Gordy chuckled, “No. I had no intention of being caught like that by anyone, least of all you. When you made the comment about the towel, I freaked… I figured you were there for the whole show and…” Gordy watched his hand play with his soda glass. After a moment he raised his eyes and met John’s. John noted that even in the dim restaurant deck lights they sparkled.

 

“John, the reason I freaked was that while I was jerking off , I called out your name… when I came.” He looked back at his glass and sighed then looking up at John, continued, “When I came. I screamed out your name. That’s why I freaked. I was embarrassed, not about jacking off. It was about screaming your name. That‘s what I thought you were laughing about. I thought you were laughing at me for calling your name when I came.”

 

John blushed.

 

“I was going to tell you all this during the movie, tonight. I figured time was running out and if I didn’t let you know…. Dad would have me packing for Palo Alto or Cambridge. That’s why you get all this at once. I just don’t have time to waste.”

 

Gordy had laid his cards on the table disregarding anything except getting closer to John. Now, he was conflicted. It felt good to finally share his feelings with John, but he just wasn’t sure if it was too much, too soon. John had admitted an attraction, but was it more than physical, and was it strong enough to honestly justify a life altering decision? He wished he knew more about being gay.

 

John was uncomfortable with the situation. He understood that his attraction to Gordy was more than physical but he had no experience with same sex relationships, and wasn’t sure how they developed. Was it like dating a woman? Or was it like a one night stand, where the goal was unacknowledged, but still agreed upon early in the chase? He didn’t have a clue.

 

He was still sensitive about what he and Wylie had done. The way they got together physically was accidental. Could they have ever gotten together without that drunken stumble? Probably not. He wondered how to procede with Gordy. He swore it wasn’t going to be a druken accident.With a deep sigh, he pulled himself from his reverie to find Gordy studying him intently. John stood, placing bills on the table, he met Gordy’s questioning glance, “Gordy, let’s go home.”

 

It wasn’t the declaration of love that Gordy hoped for… neither was it the flat out rejection he had feared.

 

They silently boarded the boat and once they’dshoved off , John motioned for Gordy to take the pilot wheel, asking, “You know the general direction of home?”

 

Gordy nodded. Once away from the restaurant, he gunned the engine and looked back to see the bright white of the rooster tail contrasted against the growing darkness.

 

The conversation/confession had taken a lot out of him. It was comfortable just to be in John’s presence. He wasn’t afraid this would end badly. He just wasn’t sure how John felt

 

John took a gunwale seat, and watched Gordy confidently control the boat. He was excited about what could possibly happen between him and Gordy. Still there were unresolved issues between himself and Wylie that made him feel like he was about to cheat on him. That aggrevated him and he shoved all thoughts of the past down deep. His focus had to be on the here and now.

 

When he looked around he realized they were in the middle of the lake. He loved how the night’s darkness took away the horizon, causing the water to blend into the shore which blended into the sky. Lights from lakeside homes offered beacons, but cast no illumination on the boat or its occupants. John warmed to the notion that he and Gordy were alone. He could see Gordy’s silhouette outlined by the boats lights. He wanted to get closer to him. He move forward until he was standing behind him. Gordy turned and he could see a smile play across his lips. John then understood that Gordy was waiting for him to make a decision.

 

John moved closer and released all conscious thought and focused upon Gordy and himself, alone in the darkness. He wrapped his arms around the well defined chest, blatantly caressing Gordy’s pecs. His cock nudged up against Gordy’s firm ass. His right hand slid down in search of Gordy’s manhood. His lips nuzzled the side of Gordy’s neck. When his hand brushed over Gordy’s already hard cock, the younger man’s body jolted, then immediately relaxed and pushed back into his embrace.

 

John let go of Gordy’s hard shaft to reach the throttle, and as Gordy watched, John eased the throttle, . slowing the boat, then shift into neutral. Waves of their on making slapped against the side of the boat and sent her gently rocking as she surrendered her momentum. John shut off the engine and switched off all lights save the running lights. Their breathing and the slapping of the subsiding waves became the only sounds to disturb the darkness.

 

John turned Gordy so they were face to face. He framed Gordy’s face with his hands, drawing him close. He could feel Gordy’s warm and intoxicating breath on his face. His lips sought and found Gordy’s soft lips. They were the softest moist, warm, and yielding lips he had ever kissed. He caressed them with his tongue.

 

Gordy gasped at the touch, and sucked John’s tongue in with such force that John pulled back at the pain. Gordy pulled John closer, and this time when they renewed the kiss, Gordy’s tongue was the intruder. John gently sucked and caressed it, teaching Gordy how to do it. Gordy learned fast, while letting his hands travel incessantly over John’s back and ass. When John broke the kiss, he whispered, “That was nice!” That was the first time John had ever used words at time like this, with a man.

 

Gordy’s blood had evacuated his brain and rushed to engorge his cock. He could only mumble, “Yeah, nice.” John move toward the middle of the boat. Stripping the cushions from the gunwale seats, he tossed them onto the deck forming a makeshift bed. Kicking off his shoes he reached for Gordy’s hand and led him to the bed. He tugged on Gordy’s shirt. Gordy stripped it over his head and tossed it behind him. He wanted to watch as John did the same, but it was too dark, so he contented himself with remembering John’s body on the boathouse deck. He felt John’s caressing hands on his body. He used his hands to find that John had stripped as well.

 

John sought Gordy’s soft, yielding, hungry lips again.. Gordy’s tongue demanded entrance, and John parted his lips. Their tongues fought to embrace, stroke and enfold each other, mappping the contours and textures of each other‘s mouths.

 

Gordy’s sexual education had come via the internet. Practical application was so much more exiting. he caressed John’s chest hair, and when his fingers rubbed against John’s nipples, John shivered. So he tweaked, twisted and rubbed them, eliciting encouraging sounds.

 

Gordy’s chest was almost smooth save a soft scattering around each pectoral. John’s fingers had no trouble finding his protruding nubs. As he teased them with his fingertips, they hardened, Gordy moaned loudly into John’s mouth.

 

Again John broke the kiss. Catching his breath, he tremulously asked, “Was that good?”

 

Gordy nodded, then remembering the darkness, he said, “Oh yeah! That was good. Let’s do that some more.”

 

Not knowing John’s past, Gordy couldn’t have understood the significance of John’s question. All his time with Wylie, he’d never spoken any words in the throes of passion. Had Gordy understood, he would have been awed by John’s next words. “Gordy, you ain’t seen nothing yet!”

 

He directed Gordy to lie down, then lying beside his lover, he took him again in his arms and resumed their kissing.

 

When his hand encircled Gordy’s manhood he felt his body stiffen, but he continued to explore Gordy’s mouth as he moved his hand on down to fondle his balls.

 

Gordy moved John’s hand back to his cock. Only when John’s hand resumed the stroking did Gordy release his hold.

He nudged John onto his back, and as he lay on his side he let

years of desire overcome him, as he kissed and caressed the man he had only fantasized about. His hungry mouth tasted John’s skin as his fingers explored John’s chest and tweaked his nipples.

 

He kissed John’s cheeks his chin his eyes. His tongue licked it’s way to the sensitive skin of John’s neck. John arched his back and let out, “Oh, Yeah, Gordy. That feels so, so good.”

 

Gasping for breath, John wanted to do his own exploring, but trapped against the stowage compartment use of his right hand was limited. It lay next his own cock. He touched it cautiously,

knowing he was only a few strokes away from cumming.

 

 

The little nubbins on John’s pecs were standing like pencil erasers when Gordy’s tongue tasted and caressed them, causing John to mumble and moan his approval. He moved further down John’s torso. When he reached his pubic hairs, he inhaled the manly aroma –John’s essence. His brain recorded that scent – John’s scent locking it in his memory forever.

 

Gordy’s lips began a slow journey up John’s cock, his tongue tasting every inch, making John gasp, beg, “Please, please.”

John's ass humped air, hoping to get enough friction.

 

Using his free left hand to tug Gordy’s manhood toward his face, John gasped, “I.., want to… suck your… cock.”

 

Gordy was only too eager to give into his lover’s plea.

 

When his cock touched John’s lips he froze, overwhelmed with passion he had to fight for control. If he let go now he would splash cum all over John’s face,and his first time, might be the last time! The thought sobered him, and pushed him from the edge of climax.

 

He moved his cock away from John’s lips. He was tempted to chuckle at John’s disappointed whine.

 

He lay down on his side and pulled on John’s ass rolling him onto his side so his cock was again at John’s lips and John’s was at his.

 

As much as he wanted to suck John’s cock, Gordy wanted more to fully experience the sensations of his first blow job. He wanted to be able to relive this dream come true.

 

John found Gordy’s cock and guided it to his lips. . He pulled and bunched the foreskin around the head, snaked his tongue out and licked the precum from it. He then wrapped his lip around Gordy’s cockhead Gordy moaned his approval.

 

John pulled away and asked, “You like that?” He had promised himself ‘no more silence during sex.’

 

Gordy’s response was a choked and garbled, “Yes, God, Yes! Do it some more, please.” John again bunched the foreskin and licked at the precum, then took Gordy into his mouth, using his lips to roll back the foreskin. When his tongue caressed the exposed glans Gordy began humping into his mouth.

 

John used both hands to hold Gordy back. When the humping continued more forcefully, John squeezed his balls until Gordy suddenly stopped humping and tried to move away from John’s hand. John released his balls. When he took Gordy into his mouth again, he was in control. He moved his lips up and down over Gordy’s cockhead while Gordy held still. John continued taking more and more of Gordy into his mouth.

 

Gordy was lost in the new and overwhelming sensations.

He pulled Johns thighs together and pressed his forehead into them. He didn’t notice John’s cock bobbed against his chin, he was too busy fighting the urge to shove his dick into the depths of John’s warm, wet mouth and simply unload.

 

He had seen videos, had seen the ecstasy on their faces. He had jerked off as he read the lurid, detailed accounts on Nifty. Nothing could have prepared him for the real thing. Every movement of John’s tongue set off fireworks in his brain. It couldn’t get better than this.

 

As John took in more and more of his cock, Gordy felt his cockhead press against the back of John’s throat, and almost pulled away, but John was in control. He felt more pressure against his cockhead and then a tightness pulled the foreskin back as his length slid into John’s throat.

 

Gordy had never felt the sensations of a blow job before tonight.

What he could not know was that this was the best a blow job had to offer… to feel his cock slide deeply into a throat as it spasmed it’s welcome. What he felt as his cock slid into John’s throat was beyond all... Beyond all description. Before his cock had even touched John’s lips, the whole experience had surpassed all his expectations, fantasies and wet dreams.

 

Suddenly it was… TOO MUCH!! Bright lights exploded in his brain and blinded his already useless vision. Mindlessly he pulled John’s head further onto his cock. He was heedless of the choking sounds John made as his seed flooded his mouth and throat, drowning him in cum. It went down his throat, out his nose and flooded his mouth. John waited to breathe feeling cum and spit run down his cheek while Gordy humped and pumped his all into John’s face.

 

When his passion ebbed, he pulled his cock out of John;s mouth and twisted around to take his head in his hands, not realizing that John was still choking and trying clear his airways.

 

Once his breathing was ok, John heard Gordy’s plaintive cries, “Are you alright, John, are you alright? Did I hurt you?” He flashedback to a time when that same question had been asked. Tonight was different. Tonight the question included the realization that John had been suffering…. The memory faded.

 

“I’m alright. Jesus, how long has it been since you came?” He chuckled, “Oh, right, never mind. You just did back at the restaurant.”

 

Had it been less dark, he’d have seen Gordy blush. “John, I’m sorry. I just got carried away. I couldn’t stop myself. You made me feel better than I ever dreamed it ever could.”

 

“Gordy, it’s alright. I was trying to make you feel good.” He laughed again. “Maybe part of that all that talk at Millers’ could have included a comment about how you cum in gallons.”

 

The joke seemed to relieve some of Gordy’s tension. He leaned down and gently kissed John’s lips. When he broke the kiss, his tongue gathered the cum that John had not swallowed.

 

 

John slid over closer to Gordy, so that he was no longer pressed against the stowage cabinets, and began stroking his own cock as Gordy sensuously licked his face. He rested his hand on John’s pumping fist. “Let me, please?” John’s hand fell away.

 

Gordy rested his left elbow between John’s legs, letting his hand cup John’s balls while tweaking his nipples with his right He tongued John’s precum slicked shaft.

 

Gordy had read “how to” accounts and plenty of blow job descriptions on Nifty. Just getting a real one was magnitudes better than reading or seeing. Giving was even better in its own way. especially since this cock belonged to the man of his dreams. That thought lit up his whole insides.

 

His naked body felt suddenly warm against the cool night air. As John’s cockhead filled his mouth he made sure he followed his checklist, no teeth, keep it wet, take it deep, breathe, and swallow.

He began bobbing his head up and down on John’s cock.

At some point, he realized John’s cock was cut, he didn’t not have any foreskin.

 

He continued to take John’s cock deeper. When it hit the back of his throat he gagged while John moaned, “Oh, yes.” All the while John was writhing and moaning. He was running his fingers through Gordy’s hair and over his skin. That affirmation made Gordy more determined to take John into his throat. He realized a more straight forward approach would allow him to take his prize deeper.

 

 

All the while John was writhing and moaning. He was running his fingers through Gordy’s hair and over his skin.

 

Gordy idly stroked John's cock while sizing up the situation. He turned around straddling John’s belly and tucked his toes under Johns shoulders. Then he began to work John’s cock into his throat.

 

John’s caressed Wylie’s muscular thighs and played with his dangling balls and slowly stroked his turgid cock. When he sucked one of Gordy’s balls into his mouth, Gordy came off John’s cock and growled at the new sensation.

 

Gordy was intent on swallowing John’s cock. John let the ball slip from his mouth and raised his head higher. When his tongue slid across Gordy’s pucker pushing for entrance causing Gordy to drive John’s cock into his throat until his lips crushed against John’s pubic hair.

 

The sensation of Gordy’s throat in spasms around his cock sent John over the edge. Wrapping his hands around Gordy’s powerful thighs, he pushed his tongue deep into his pucker. His teeth teased the ring as his guttural moans vibrated against Gordy‘s ass.

 

Gordy tried to take John’s cock further down his throat while his ass begged for more of John’s tongue. His guttural groans around John’s cock sent John’s load gushing down his throat while his second load splashed hot upon John’s belly.

 

It was long moments before either could grasp the intensity of his climax. Both wondered if it could get better than this.

 

Gordy eased John’s manhood from his throat, and swirled his tongue collecting any traces of cum that might be there. He only got a small taste.

 

John’s head fell back on the cushions, his body limp, too spent even to complain of the sensitivity as Gordy licked around his cock’s head.

 

Gordy released John’s cock and almost giggled when he heard it plop onto his belly. He turned around so they were face to face, and kissed John gently. John responded, then Gordy lay his head on his shoulder, and plowed his fingers through John’s curly, cum matted chest hair, while John idly caressed his lovers back.

 

After a moment Gordy murmurred, “John that was better than my best dreams and my wildest fantasies. I had to fight not to cum from almost the beginning, both times. You are awesome.”

 

“That was fantastic, Gordy. I haven’t cum that hard in years.”

It was, it was fantastic.”

 

With fading echoes of their passion, the cool darkness forced them to draw ever closereach lost in his own thoughts.

 

“John, we have to go see dad tomorrow and let him know I’ll be going to Dallas this fall.”

 

“I know… We can tell him together. I should try to talk you out of it, but I know I can’t, and I don’t even want to try.”

 

“I’m trying to figure how I’m gonna like Palo Alto or Cambridge, but I‘ve got a year, before we have to move.”

The boat rocked gently. In spite of the chill they snuggled close and dozed in each other’s arms. Soon they would be forced to dress and head for home.

　

　

　

　

“YOU SORRY SON OF A BITCH!!

“YOU SELFISH FUCKING BASTARD!!

“YOU MOTHERFUCKER!

“I OUGHT TO KILL YOUR SORRY ASS!