Well it's been a wile sins i have posted a blog entry...

I'm tired and it's not because it has been a tiring day, no mostly my mind is tired of thinking tired of dreaming tired of dreaming of hoping.

Everything and nothing has changed... i'm living with my mother a now, ya i know but it's better here really it is she has changed a lot i don't know how she came to be enlightened but she has and i don't want to ask...

How did i come to be here... Well one day i was chatting with a friend on a program called Mixit well it is a phone based program he sent me a pic, i hit open before it could open the phone rang i answered my one of my best friends on the line after talking a little she wanted to talk to my little sister so i gave here the phone well after the call ended the picture had opened... a picture of a beautiful naked man... all hell was loos. i ended up calling my mom and having here come get me as pathetic as it sounds no i don't have a car no i don't have a place of my own... well in a nut shell that is what happened

So that is how i find my self in the middle of nothing and a hard place friends non existent except my best friends but even them i don't see but maybe once a month if i am lucky, now there is a nice guy how wants to meet me. I'm nervous as hell. i want to meet him but what if he dose not like me as much as he clams...

And having your mother and here boyfriend drop your off for a date.... not cool...